What really breaks my heart for John Dory is that he doesn't hold any ill will towards his brothers. AT ALL!!! He gave up his entire childhood to raise them and in the end they hate him for it. Poor boy was a parentified lyrical genius, but he never ever puts the blame on his brothers. He doesn't resent them even the tiniest bit. We see in the movie with every single one of his brothers, he is downright fucking elated to see them alive and thriving! (Except for Floyd but you know what I mean!) And it absolutely breaks his heart every time each one rejects his hugs. (I totally believe FLoyd would have been the only to willingly hug him if here weren't in that diamond when they finally met up again.)
And he doesn't ever bring up any of his sacrifices to defend himself until their all accusing him of actually liking putting them down. Which he doesn't! When Bruce basically eggs him to admit that he likes bossing them around, he fully admits that he moved to the middle of nowhere so he wouldn't have to be in charge of anyone. Taking care of four little brothers was not at all what he wanted to do. Who knows what he actually wanted to do in life?! We see him throw everything he has into Brozone, but we have no eveidence that it's what he actually wanted to do in life. Like?!?! Bro already has a grappling hook in the beginning of the movie when his life is supposed to always be about being a popstar! And the Neverglade trail was the first thing on his mind before he left! Bro has dreams we don't even know about, but that's not something his little brothers ever bother to wonder about because to them he's just the bossy older brother.
He aboslutely hates that he's bossy. It's obvious when they all start accusing him of it and he's genuinely confused, but it's probably like second nature to him as the eldest. As an eldest myself, I do find myself slipping back into that "In charge" mindset when I'm around my siblings, so I feel like that's what was happening in Rhonda. He hadn't meant for that to happen, he's just so used to being that one in charge, being the responsible one, being the one with all the answers so the others never have to worry. It never ever runs through the others' minds that maybe John Dory wanted to do other things than take care of them.
But he never ever voices this. Ever. Because his brothers' happiness is all he cares about. He's even the one that lets it out in the air that they can go their seperate ways after all of this just appease them and stop the fighting. He absolutely loves those boys with all his heart. It's why his whole life centers around Brozone, because that was something they all did together! I'm 100% positive that if given a second chance, he would choose to raise his brothers all over again.
It just amazes me and breaks my heart simultaniously that he takes it all with a smile on his face. If my siblings ever came to me and said that I'm basically the reason they're unhappy, after every single little thing I sacrificed so that they wouldn't ever have to live without, I would spiral. I look at my littlest sister getting to be in all the schoold clubs she wants to and feel a pang in my chest that that was never an option for me because I had to be home watching them. I look at my little brother who gets to spend hours and hours doing his art and I envy it because I couldn't do that. The house needed to be clean and the food needed to be cooked. I see my little sister getting her scholarship to college and getting to have that opportunity and I wanna burn the world around me down because I was so smart. That could've been me too. But I had to work, cause my mom couldn't come up with rent by herself. The only thing keeping me from going on a damn tangent about everything I've sacrificed for them to have better is because I genuinely never ever want my siblings to feel bad about my sacrifices and they already acknowledge what I've done for them. They're always telling me how happy they are that I'm their sister and that I was such a stable person in their lives while my mother hadn't grown mentally past the age of fifteen. They always come to me with their problems and their questions because, to them, I know best. They always tell me how sorry they are about what our mother put me through. They know, they understand, they're grateful.
So, to see a character I completely relate to be treated the exact opposite breaks my goddamn heart.
(Sorry I went off there towards the end, I just really love John Dory)
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