blood Moon

Would it be possible to live the rest of my life looking at him? in silence just feeling him admire me.

I believe that I am not the right person, I would never be able to have a happy life, to have a family, to provide everything he needs. I can't accept this becoming real. He deserves the best anyone can offer him. and I will forever be the empty hole between loving and wanting.

There's nothing I want him to have more than everything, absolutely EVERYTHING this world can offer, and I won't be able to be that simple.

The dumbest decision for some and the wisest for those who know that pain cannot be overcome with love.

today I was listening to a song that I dedicated to someone I loved very much, maybe for the first time.

I still remember the first time I saw you, the first time you spoke to me, how happy we were. I miss how clumsy and naive you were, how you did everything to make me not feel sad or alone. how he managed to get my attention. the first time you looked at me it was magical I saw stars

I miss your smell, how funny you were, I miss when we went to the park and how you would knock me down with a fight. how special I felt, how he looked at me at our third year graduation, I miss when he had a water fight with me just because I wanted to have that experience. I miss how I was with you.

His eyes were cold

were so lonely

I know because they were as lonely as mine

Your skin was always cold like mine

So similar, with an abyss separating us The spiders on the roses mark our end.

One of the eyes shone

I want to believe that it was better for me.

I know. It took me a while to find myself. to show that there was a way. to happen

Of the promises I didn't make.

I wish time wasn't Against me.