i cant be intimate anymore. both due to disinterest and every time it's been initiated it's either been assault or just awful. i have a desire to be in love but i dont want anyone to ever touch me in lust again and it makes me think i'll never find anyone because everybody wants to have sex

how the hell do you maintain friendships without sounding pathetic and desperate

I hate you so much leave me alone

incredibly racist and all around bigoted person i know is dying

loneliness 10 thousand years

i should be so happy but all i feel is fear and suicidal and emptiness what the fuck is wrong with me

im doing good. im literally doing good. i have nearly 5 digits in my bank account for the first time ever. why do i feel so scared and suicidal? fucking stop making me feel like this!! Im going to make it and Im going to be happy and im going to live

wow i feel intensely suicidal

my life is going so good right now that it feels unnatural. i have this urge to ruin it

realizing you were abused in retrospect is genuinely awful

having a group that ALL says good night we love you thanks for joining us when u hop off the game 🥰

i used to be so insecure about speaking and spoke really quiet n got made fun of for it. but nice people and friends kept telling me they like how cute or pretty or nice my voice sounds or theyre jealous of it and i guess that gave me more confidence to speak louder and be proud of how i sound

maybe i'm meant to be alone forever and never have community

i rageposted a lot recently but things have actually been super good for me. i just get angy when i think about how ppl treated me

the fact that my family took me to dozens of therapists even though most of them didnt work out is proof that they really want me to live. they exhausted every effort for me

i saw a tiny yellow and green lizard lapping up water outside.. thats cuteeeee thats so cute