Life update.
hey ! It's been quite some time since I last logged on... i'm still alive and kicking, haha, and.. things are looking up, actually.
I made this blog during a hard time in my life as a teen / young adult, and vented my harsher feelings into it, which it shows given the paranoia and struggles I shared. I'm glad many of you were moved by my art, and found a sense of belonging in knowing you aren't alone. For that, I wish you peace one day. π«
So, what has happened during my absence ? Well, I started university, explored my identity further and came to realize I was a transmasc butch lesbian, I started to date someone who I hadn't realized I pined for for.... forever, lmao. However, things piled up, life got stressful, and I got hospitalized twice earlier this year after some bad fall outs ( I am ok now however ) . Yet, I'm healing, and doing so much better.
In fact, I moved out of my house. I love my family, but there was constant tension to the point of frustration, anger, arguments and so much else. It was toxic, viciously so at that. I had no energy to exist after this year. Yet, my partner needed to move given their state's issues, and . . . they'll be coming in 5 days to an apartment I managed to get. It's not perfect, I had to do so many personal repairs, I had to learn how to do plumming, decorating, so on and so forth -- yet, I'm having so much fun. I even started to practice sewing, too. I've been learning so many skills, and for once, ny chronic fatigue has eased to more manageable states. For once, I feel really happy. I even started testosterone 10 days ago, something I always dreamed of since 15.
I didn't think I'd make it, yet, people are telling me I seem so much happier now. For once, I really look forward to being alive. I am at ease. I'm medicated. I'm recieving help . . . it's overwhelming in the best ways.
Thank you for your support and well wishes, dears. I hope the same for you, and that you may heal from things you don't speak of. π« You've all been so lovely, but now, it's time to log off. I'll hop in here and there and take a look at things from time to time, just please, keep living.
But, if it interests anyone, I'm working on a personal memoir of my queer journey into accepting myself and my identity. My life has always been so hectic to put it lightly ( I was double comphet as someone put it best ) , but, I've been told my words resonate well with other LGBTQ+ individuals thus far . . . who knows, maybe someone will relate to what I have to say, too. However, for now, I just wanted to update.
Thank you, everyone. β€οΈ













