because I wished to live deliberately,

not to let my emotions control me

to understand that my thoughts aren’t necessarily reality

be who i am unapologetically 

and learn to compliment myself

relationships aren’t supposed to be a lot of work

self-deprecating jokes/thoughts only make things worse

it’s okay to suck at things

and not to let that stop me from doing them

Right now, recovery is miserable.

But, there a possibility that in the future recovery will bring me something better than my current misery.

The choice is between a certain misery and a potentially temporary misery, and the choice seems like an easy one to me.

In all honesty, sometimes I don’t believe in recovery. But I know at least that if I do pick recovery than there is a possibility that things will improve.