Healthy Loss

This is not a pro account. I do not endorse or promote any unhealthy weight loss methods of any kind, nor do I intend to.

This blog is solely for the purpose of tracking my mood/thoughts/milestones as I try to lose weight.

DMs and asks are open, but any asks for “body checks” will be ignored.

ABOUT ME

I'm 23, 5'8 (1.72m), sw of 153lbs (69kg), cw of 140 (63kg) lbs, gw of 130lbs (59kg). I will track my measurements with both a scale and a tape measure.

Current measurements: 27.5" waist (72cm), 31” hips (79cm), 13" neck (33cm)

Goal measurements: 24-25" waist (61-63cm), 31" hips (79cm)

I ended up blending

- 1 scoop protein powder (130)

- 2 cups of fruit mix (banana, strawberries, and blueberries) (80/cup, so 160)

I’m back, not dead. Life was shit. Still kinda is, and I fell off for a bit.

BUT

- my weight stagnated, basically I’ve been between 140-145lbs and I want to get lower

- I realized that if I put my feet together, I don’t have a thigh gap. So now I want to”feet together, thighs apart”

- Still need to lose weight off my waist (still 27”)

So. Scale is ordered, hasn’t even shipped yet but it should be on its way soon. My goal is still the same, but I do want to know when I hit it because my current biggest fear is that I will hit my gw and still not have my goal measurements for my waist.

I have cans of pineapple tropical cider (it’s delicious) and low calorie rosé (85 cal per glass). I love my cider, but it’s like. 200kcal per can, which, after a long day, puts me over my calorie limit.

Which reminds me, about what this post is really about: I keep eating over my limit. I think I’m still burning enough to be at a deficit, but still. Drinking my calories isn’t helping, but at least I’m drinking more water now (to counteract my drinking).

I went to my parents’ house and was able to use their scale. Turns out, I’m 142lbs/64kg!! My initial estimate was 152lbs/69kg, so I’m very happy about this. I do want to retest on a second scale, just to confirm and make sure it’s correct, but yay!!!! I’m a lot closer to my gw than I thought!!

I’m also starting to get muscle. Like, damn, my thighs and butt are starting to filling out, probably from walking and work. I need to work on my arms/chest/back/upper abdomen, but my waist has been staying at a solid 27in/66cm. Which is good, considering I’ve been eating so much all week.

And I tell them, it’s not about my self image. I literally said that I thought I looked fine before I started trying to lose weight, and even if I gain it all back, I’ll be mad, but not shame myself. I’m doing this because I’ve been trying to lose the same weight forever, not because I think I need to. I’m just tired of telling myself that I’ll lose those 10-15lbs (5-7 kg) later. I’m over it.

Wild update, kinda. I went from feeling kinda stagnate a few days ago (my waist has shrunk, yes, but overall I looked the same) to looking and feeling way better and thinner over a few days. On Monday (the 12th), I kinda said “fuck it I’ll deal with it later” about my diet, because I had my mother’s birthday, my birthday, and Valentine’s Day back to back, which meant a lot of drinking, take out, and cake. I was totally expecting to gain weight, but I tried to only eat when I was hungry, and maybe that did something? Either way, I definitely ate over 1200 calories for those three days.

But I feel great. Maybe that’s what I needed— a metabolism boost? My thighs look and feel thinner, my waist is the same, my face was swollen this morning from drinking but I’m already feeling better. I felt like shit before my mom’s birthday, and I was dreading eating so much over a few days, but maybe that’s just what I needed.

Idk. I’ll have to see about formulating my week to include more metabolism days, because my thighs are leaner than they were before. Keep in mind, I was so busy spending time with family, I didn’t work out. So. Maybe that was something I needed all along.

Either way, food update as of right now:

Two rice cakes with PB (250 kcal)

Black bean burrito bowl (aka bed of greens, salsa, black beans, and spices, or 494 kcal)

10 Am breakfast shake with almond milk (150)

One KitKat (20)

Protein bar (220)

4 rice cakes (280)

Protein shake with almond milk (150)

Bowl of veggies (280)

3 cups cranberry juice (15)

Total: 1,115 kcal

Burned: 1500 (BMR) + 350 (walking + work) = 1850kcal. Today, I’m in a deficit of 735 kcal.

Anyway. Went out for a walk this morning because my cat had me up at 5AM and I had nothing else to do at the time. I want to play Sims, but I’m spending all day with my brother and then the evening at work, so maybe another time. I’m glad I got my steps in this morning though. What I’m going to eat today is a mystery.

And in terms of weight loss successes. My shoulders feel a bit more pronounced, and my waist is slowly shrinking. I’ve been able to measure my waist at 27.5 inches (70cm) the past few days, so it’s working. I’ve been at this whole diet thing for almost two weeks now, and I know I probably haven’t lost much weight, but I feel it working.

I’ve also thought a lot about what I want my body to look like. I don’t have anything concrete yet, and I know a lot of it is up to my genetics, but I can choose where muscle goes on my body. I need to build more upper body and thigh strength for my job, but I want a flat (toned) stomach. I don’t really care about whether or not someone can see my abs, because I probably won’t show them off anyway, but I do want a smaller and flatter waist/stomach.

Food diary of the day:

Breakfast (protein shake + almond milk, 150kcal)

Coffee from home (coffee with almond milk, 15kcal)

Coffee from the coffee shop (coffee with almond milk, 50 kcal)

Handful of Reeces Pieces (40kcal)

Dinner (protein shake, 150kcal, Chana Masala, 300 kcal)

I’m so tired. Like, physically. I’m going to go for a walk today, but today was draining fr.

EDIT: walked! Was pretty tired though so I got kinda lazy with it at the end. Burned about 250 cal roughly, so I think my total burned was around 1750 today.

Damn munchies got me again 😭 updated food diary to stay honest

Ponyo drink (120kcal)

4 rice cakes (70 kcal each, 280 total)

Breakfast: chocolate protein shake + almond milk (yall know this one, 150kcal)

Lunch: homemade Chana masala!!! (300~ kcal)

Dinner and dessert: Thai tofu pineapple curry (600kcal) plus a banana (120kcal)

Might have a Ponyo drink later (1 cup almond milk, 30 calories, plus water and cinnamon and zero-cal sweetener) but I’m feeling really good! Today was the first day in a while that I was actually happy! Maybe it was because I socialized and got decent sleep, but today was great.