pazzi devotee

no requests pls—including additional plotlines for my fics

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oneshots

fluff: airport crush; azzi and her bad day; jacuzzi; daisy; would you rather; so i like this girl; bluey is a girl; gardener? i hardly know ‘er!

pwp (lol): i want you to be mine again; addiction

angst/misc: always the bridesmaid; can she taste me now? (i'm bitter); don't speak

series

you gonna come to my senses? (rivals to lovers, 3/3 chapters, 31k, post link)

if we're going to be wanted (collab fic with @buffalo1221, 3/3 chapters, 11k, synopsis, 1, 2, 3)

dear miss azzi (teacher au, 10/12 chapters, 22k, post link)

the daughter of jupiter (percabeth au, 2/6 chapters, 8k, post link)

paige’s piercings leaving indents on azzi’s thigh when she takes a nap on her

paige knowing when azzi wants a kiss by the way she looks at her

one more night by maroon 5

azzi leaves movie night and asks paige to walk her out so they can kiss

azzi being overconfident/unbothered bc she knows paige is obsessed with her. “what’s she gonna do? it’s me.” about another girl trying to get paige

enemies to lovers where their friends know they'd be so good together because they have the exact same opinions but every time they cross paths they just piss each other off

“azzi privileges”: paige flexing or betting that she can get azzi to do things other people can’t

"who's gonna..." as an angst prompt

paige being jealous based on "who texting you bruh???" and “who got you in your feelings?”

netflix and chill paige trying to make a move on azzi during one of their movie nights. kissing scene where azzi is looking away and paige uses 2 fingers to turn her head by her chin and kiss her for the first time ever

established relationship azzi brushing crumbs off paige mouth, paige coming behind her to pepper her neck in kisses, one of them being clingy and wanting to cuddle, especially if the other one was busy on her phone or reading

wip im never finishing

september 17th

dear pbfg (paige bueckers’ future girlfriend),

hi, im azzi! i assume by the time i give you this little booklet we’ll know each other at least a little bit, but it feels weird to not start by introducing myself. as you know, i’m paige’s best friend. last night she told our friend group that she has a crush on someone, and if you know anything about paige, it’s that she’s VERY picky. i honestly think the last time she told me she had a crush on someone was in middle school and it was a boy. girls have been throwing themselves at her since she was, like, 15 years old, so just know that a lot of women would give anything to be you.

maybe it’s a little presumptuous to be doing this so early since she only said she has a crush on you, but i’m just assuming she’ll get you because. i mean. it’s paige. she gets what she wants.

anyway! given how special and amazing paige is, i wanted to make a little booklet of… advice, i guess. my thoughts and suggestions. things i think are important to know about paige. she really is the best girl in the world, and it’s important to me that she’s treated as well as she deserves to be. please don’t hurt her.

if you do, i’ll murder you. 😇 see you in the next letter!

sincerely,

azzi

list of letters:

second letter is advice on how not to steal her best friend from her, lowkey threatening, talks about how much time they spend together and tries to acknowledge that it will have to decrease once paige starts dating someone else but whatever

third letter is a story time that azzi uses as a representative example of all the good things about paige and makes the crush promise to treat her well and do good by her

fourth letter azzi is like lemme tell you all the things i know about paige’s childhood that demonstrate how special she is as a girl and how perfect she is

fifth letter azzi rereads over her letters and realizes she’s being too threatening and decides she can’t actually send these to the person who it is. she’s still trying to decide what to do about all the things she wants to say

@azzifiedgottago

“signs your friend is talking to her ex again,” caroline said. “one, she’s always on her phone.”

“check,” kk noted.

“two, she seems—temporarily—happier.”

“check.”

“three, she’s been having mood swings.”

“hmm… check.”

[description of scene]

“i have not been having mood swings,” azzi grumbles.

kk’s jaw drops, and she points at her. “you’re having one right now! you’re being grumpy!”

“because my friends are calling my happiness temporary,” azzi snapped.

“i’m worried about you,” caroline said, voice softening. “i hate that girl. i hate what she did to you.”

“i know,” azzi said. “i didn’t forget. i’m not… i don’t trust her, either. i just. i don’t know.”

paige broke up with her because she wanted to go back to being just friends because being in a relationship was too demanding. she didn’t realize it would break azzi’s heart and make her hate her. she missed azzi’s friendship terribly at first, for years, until azzi’s first public relationship as a popstar, and jealousy took over her entire life. she was angry at the world, at the new partner, at herself. she was azzi’s best friend. how could someone else have any claim to her? she tried to push it down, knowing it was her own fault for fumbling, but the birthday party opportunity had landed so perfectly in her lap, she couldn’t say no. also the tall beautiful woman she was with was angel.

outline:

azzi scene with friends

paige scene with friends

azzi and paige see each other at azzi’s concert; caroline threatens to fight her; insight into how silly and easy it is between them; paige does a whole spiel about why she wants azzi back; brings up some kind of proof that she’s for real (a necklace azzi got her that she wore to the draft); azzi says she has to see it demonstrated but that she’s willing to try

-writer* not reader anon

firstly im coming out as an accidental picnic lesbian or whatever it’s called i hope that’s right but yes I think i kind of inherited those kind of thoughts when i started coming to terms with my sexuality - i always tell myself i am fem4fem, i want to date a girly girl and i am not attracted to masculinity at alllll because that’s boys and the whole point of me being lesbian is for nothing boy to be in this world - and this is a very bad thing i don’t want to have. i do not even notice i have these thoughts until they’re there but it’s like they pop up as soon as i start to maybe enjoy other butchfemme public couples or reading about those kind of dynamics.

im not sure what the reason for this is. im very confused with my mind, like i still am struggling with comphet and yet when im alone and able to be my gay little self i cannot for the life of me allow myself to fully understand and accept that certain aspect of lesbian relationships, even though i know deep down theres a side of me that loves that.

ugh anon you are so sweet!! the vulnerability and strength it takes to admit semi publicly that you are struggling with something like this is so admirable. it sounds to be really hard for you, and i'm going to do my best to help.

it sounds to me like those thoughts are a reaction to some kind of fear you have. my theory would be that it has something to do with the comphet you struggle with. if you found masculinity attractive, what would that say about you? and if it were true, why would that be bad? those are the questions i would ask to try and get at the core fear behind these thoughts. once you understand the fear behind the thoughts, you'll be able to address it from a place of health and love and acceptance. ignoring and suppressing your thoughts doesn't work because there's still that fear in the back of your mind that's like wait but if we don't think these things then ________!!