We will reveal the four castaways that received the most votes. 

In fourth place we have.... Sarah!

In third place we have.... Masen!

...and the runner-up for Fan Favorite of Rebels & Rogues is.... Isabelle!

Which means....

Congratulations, Callie! You have won the Fan Favorite Award for Tumblr Survivor: Rebels & Rogues! 

asdfgghjkhjgfssd final five!!!! Simon played his idol on me last round... iconic! i'm feeling like a huge target in this game, but i feel like i've engineered it in a way that means people would be silly to come for me considering the other people still around. I jumped the pecking order by leaving Christine, Isabelle and Nick W in the game and going after Callie and Masen. Simon and Jeremy are now set in stone that Nick W and Connor would win in a FTC so hopefully they're going to be sticking by me for a while. We just learnt it's a F2 tho....... Just when I though I had it all figured out!! I feel like I'm in an okay position though?? like, Jeremy would take me maybe and so would Simon if he was trying to be like an honourable player or whatever. It's so weird thinking about the end of the game coming closer bc I really have no idea how i'm coming across to the Jury.. like.. I've been called a flip-flopper, but people have spent the last few rounds trying to take me out.. do i even have a shot at all?? Regardless, i have to play the best game I can at this point - using other people to get ahead and not fall into the background. Simon's ego is pretty huge atm and he's the one playing the middle so I need to remind the jury that I'm the one in control. Admittedly I have been a bit relaxed lately knowing that idol after idol was coming my way. That has to stop though because i need to stay consistent - I've been playing hard since very early on in this game and I'm so close that I can't stop now! For now my targets are Connor and Nick W, because if either of them made it to the end I can see them walking all over me because people would do nothing but insult me for being too wishy-washy. I wonder if there's a way i can remedy that perception? I kinda have two options: play loyal to the end and stick by Jeremy and Simon no matter what, or get my hands dirty and try to get to F2 with Jeremy... Sigh idk I was happy to go to F3 with Simon bc it'd be a good fight, but now I'm not sure if I made it F2 against him I could win? The superfan in me wants to duke it out player against player, but the veteran in me wants to just lock in the win.. I guess I have a while to make up my mind, or maybe my decision will be made for me! First up, I have to make it there - I realise how important it is to keep my head out of the clouds bc we're getting down to wire... whew.. Never thought I'd come this far!

WHO IS READY FOR A CONNOR COMPLAINING CONFESSIONAL!!!! i'm literally. all my plans have changed because 1. sole is STILL!!! HERE!! and 2. it's a final 2 so literally i will die. i have no idea if i'll even make final four at this point. i was so confident and that lasted for about .2 seconds. and so, i was like oh man it would make a lot of sense to vote me the fuck out because that'll mean sole, nick w or simon win and i think they know that. tbh at this point jeremy can not win and if he does i will deny any involvement that i had with this season because i will be ashamed. i just. sole or nick just need to go. if either of them go next i'll be in at leat f3 i think. I THINK!!!! oh my goddddddd and then!!! anD THEN!!!! i legit love nick w (not like actually) but the more i've gotten to know him the more i like him and NOW!!! i keep having to debate if i let him stay here because i like him OR if i vote him out because he will!!! beat me!!!! he is too good!!! he has such a great story!!!! oh my god!!!! also like first few days of merge i said mean shit about him in confessionals which i now feel really bad about and gOD and then, if and when he goes, WHEN DOES HE GO? like f5 would be ideal because if jeremy simon and sole vote for him i can throw a vote onto jeremy and tel them it was because i promised him i wouldn't write his name down (which is true) and then maybe they won't get too pissed??? but i also feel pretty good in thinking that nick would bring me past final 4 or at least tie it to let me fight to stay. i think he would. i hope he would. i would. i just i feel like i have lost all control that i had and SIMON!!! playing an idol on SOLE!!! after an hour long call of us talking about how sole NEEDS to go out at final five because if he made it any further he WILL!!!! WIN!!!! oh my GOD!!!! WHYYYYYYYYYYY SIMON WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY jesuSSSS. UGH!!IJÏ´€IOW GOD. like. it's a great move and seeing as he hadn't made too many moves post merge it looks GREAT to jury. but he could, and may have, screwed his own game in the process. i need a nap

i'm literally so happy to be at this point into the in the fiNAL FIVE!! people told me i deserved to go further in palawan and now here i am pretty diddly darn far and my game is faLLING APART!!!! i've come too far to go out at 5, damn it. too much time, too many emotions, and too much stress for fifth place. i'm annoyed and of course, me knowing i can go soon, messes up an hour into an immunity challenge that is super duperity duper important. iconic!!!

im legit the biggest flop CHRISTINE AND ISABELLE GOING BACK TO BACK IS THE UGLIEST THING EVER KNOW THAT KNOW THAT THIS UGLY @SS MENINIST SEASON ARE YA'LL EVEN PLAYING FOR THE FANS OMGGGG i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hatehate hatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehate everything atm so https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kkPiCYwi538 "thanks a lot dan/sole/what ever the fuck your name is" "thanks a lot goat, i mean jeremy" "thanks a lot simon" nOW ITS JUST ME AND CONNOR AND SOLE WON FUCKING IMMUNITY AND SIMON WOULD HAVE VOTED HIM OFF AND NOW IM LEGIT FIIIIGGGHHHHTTTTING TO STAY HERE i hate hate hate it. connor and i discussed targetting simon but like that will ever work. it defs wont. so i gotta turn my back on connor, which i know he has done as well. so not to big of an issue there all im trying to tell simon especially is that HE can not win with both jeremy and dan here. dan is simply using him for a vote, and will take jeremy to the end. thats a fact. dan is an amazing player and i give him all the credit in the world, however, i am speaking WAAAYYYYY to highly if he choses to take out me over connor. BECAUSE - connor has played a better game then me. kNOW THAT - connor has crafted blindsides, lead alliances, played an amazing under-dog game - he WILL win if sole doesn't wind up in the finals. the only way connor can lose is if sole is sitting next to him in the f2 if dan choses to take me out, that will be an emotional response. he'll think it's smart, but it's not. and im not just saying that coz im me. if he choses to keep me, im and easy beat. callie is convinced i bullied her and is probs giving me bad rep on that jury. all i got going for me on that jury is isabelle and christine. even christine might not vote for me yieks idk for simon, if he was smart would take out connor. i know he wants to take out sole, but connor has the second best chances of winning. idk if i could beat him, but idk if he could beat me either, but i'd much rather him think he could beat me. SOOOOOO im just gonna use ma magic and see what i can do. this could very well be my last confessional and i might cry if it is coz yeah this game has been amazing. i have enjoyed it so much, and i just feel so privelleged to play! yay okay bye

ALSO, CONNOR KEEPS GETTING SYMPATHY FROM FUCKIN SIMON AND DAN N SHIT, coz he keeps crying to them ON CALLLLLL and like MESSIN G  G WITH THEIR EMOTIONSSSSS. but thts so unfair omg coz i have a heart of stone and like no emotion ever im basically a robot, i can't make people feel sympathy for me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how do i do it !!!!!!! im reachin out for anything rn i might picking up some praying techniques like ill do anything at this point. hmu pls

#INB4 I get idoled out tbh.

I won immunity!! F4 is a BIG deal~ but for now i need to concentrate on doing what's best for my game at this vote. Winning immunity again so close to the end makes the target on my back even bigger, but it's put me in a good place to start up dialogue with the people who were coming for me last round. I need to do what's best for my game, and that doesn't necessarily translate to wondering how the jury will vote because I'm not going to pretend like I know how that'll go. In my mind, I need to do what will guarantee me an extra day in the game come the F4 if the situation gets dire - and rn that means Nick W has to go. This is the home stretch. The announcement that there'll be a F2 instead of a F3 makes this a little more complicated, so every decision counts. I'm here to win and I've invested too much in this to let it slide and I just don't feel confident keeping my life in Nick W's hand if it came down to it. One step at a time!

I am so close i can taste the prize money in my hand!! Just three more people gotta go. And by three i mean nick w them sole then connor. Me and simon came in here as these under dogs and now we have a good shot at being final 2

asjfskdaghjdfksdjfk I JUST WON IMMUNITY AGAIN I'm still in shock........ Final 3!!!! with great power comes great responsibility - and i have a responsibility to get myself to the end of this game. I just need to figure out the best way to do it. Right now it seems simple enough, but winning this last immunity puts the world's biggest target on my back. Simon, Jeremy and I have had a deal for a while so Connor SHOULD go home.. but now that I'm a much bigger threat, Simon and Connor might team up and force a tie 2-2 against Jeremy. If that happens, Jeremy and Connor will face off in a tiebreak and Jeremy will probably lose. If that happens, I'll go into F3 with two people who will take each other and I'll have to rely on another immunity win to make it to the F2. Honestly, it wouldn't be bad move on Simon's part because he'd probably make FTC either way - but honestly that would make him the weakest player left in the game and he probably wouldn't win in the end anyway. So, I need to convince Simon that keeping Connor is the worst decision we could make rn. This is the closest I've ever been to the end, so I need to make every move count. I feel like I've played a really balanced game - I've been social across the board, won some immunities and used strategic planning to always keep me in the numbers and the game. Is this my game to lose??

my third (?) video confessional - sorry it's kinda long but like this is such an intense point of the game where there's only a few moves left to make but you have to make sure they're the right ones.

If this tribal goes to plan, Connor should go home. he has come out of the dark and is the one who has most distinctly made moves to better his own game. also he wrote my name down. once you come for me, i'd like to think your days are numbered. the only way this plan doesn't come together is if Simon gets freaked out by me and votes against Jeremy, forcing a tie.. Hopefully he doesn't make that call, because that will only complicate things further and i'm not in the mood for anything crazy so close to the end. Either way, I'm going to try my hardest to win F3 immunity so I can decide who goes out of Simon and Jeremy (assuming that's how F4 goes down). I've played a kinda despicable game - playing both sides, lying, blindsiding and pissing people off one by one. As much as this is true and I probably have a lot of enemies on the jury, I need to do whatever will give me the best shot come FTC. Maybe my best (or only) option is to commit to the villainous game I've played so far, not risk a bitter jury, and take Jeremy - a weaker player - to the end. Otherwise I can go with Simon, in which case I risk people feeling a strong, social and legitimate personal connection with him to the point that he beats me in the final vote. AIGHJDKSFKSFL WHY CAN'T THIS BE EASY rn is my only option to eliminate Connor and Simon?? Is that the only way I win? Do I want to win that way?? Can I beat Simon?? jfksadjl I'm so confused I guess I'll make that decision if it turns out that I win the final immunity challenge. Who knows, maybe Jeremy will win and I'll be taken to the end! I feel like I've legitimately come as far as I can strategically and all i can do is fight for my life. I've played a solid strategic game up to this point, and it'll either be my downfall or my crowning glory. only time will tell i guess. See you on the battlefield xoxo

I love this game!! I have learned so much about myself and i grew as a person. I do think i have a better shot at winning then everyone else left. Look at sandra me and her are the same. We both cant win challenges yet our social game is one of the bests and we manage to get to the end. I hope everything tonight goes to plan and connor goes and i can win the final challenge and gaurantee myself a spot in the final 2. But in case i cant, i am droping hints to simon and dan how they cant be the other one in the final 2. And you know me the ultimate goat in this game, they will be silly not to take me to the final 2. I am basically guarantee final 2 so i might as well just start writing my speech now

FINAL WORDS:

WHEW the game I thought was so perfect was unravelled completely in the blink of an eye. As much as it sucks to be worthy of the title and have it snatched away so close to the end, I'm proud of the way I played and I can walk away from this season knowing I left it all out there. Thank you so much to the hosts for an incredibly well-run season, I had so much fun! Here's to hoping I get a chance to seal the deal somewhere down the road <3 Sole out xo

tag yourself, i'm jeremy being the first ever player to be google-drived out of the game im in final 2??? how the fucKKK but ok wow literally i did everything i could and i am only here because jeremy messed up. ALL because it's ragan with an a. damn. oh my god. how am i here?? wasn't i supposed to go out like??? 11th??? and im in final two??/ what??? literally tho the main reason i stayed was because of simon and the relationship i had made with simon since merge because literally it's what kept me and i will actually be ok if he beats me. obviously i'd like to win but he played a good game. OR DID HE??? LADIES AND GENTLEMEN MY JURY SPEECH!!!! (buhm buhM BUUUUUHHMMM) simon's moves consisted of: playing an idol, playing an idol, voting with me and having me do all the work, and winning a challenge. ok??? lets get that clear because if he beats me i SWEAR because i actually did social AND strategic plays so ok hun have fun i kinda super hope i actually do beat simon because it was be funny as SHIT if he voted to keep me in the jeremy vote and then AGAIN at final two and if i BEAT HIM??? iconic

final number of ejections: ryan 7 callie 7 masen 5 connor 5 sarah 3 nick h 3 jeremy 2 ari 2 nick w 1 simon 1 christine 1 isabelle 1 sole 0

the fact that jeremy 1. thinks he played a STRONG game and 2. thinks his game is BETTER than mine is actually insulting 

PONDEROSA VLOG:

(Isabelle & Nick)

instant tribal meant I had to play my idol just to make sure i made it to the F6 - In my last season, I had the opportunity to play my advantages and I ended up going home by 1 vote, so I definitely wasn't making that mistake again. Jeremy, Simon and I are all in the F6 and I think no matter what happens, we'll be voting together. Worst case scenario is there's a tie vote and we go to rocks, but I don't know if Connor would make that happen. We managed to take Isabelle out finally at the last tribal. It was really sad because she and I were close throughout this whole game - but it just didn't make sense for my game to stick with the Noodles. Christine is on her own now, but she's not to be underestimated. She managed to rally the votes against Nick H and wasn't afraid to use her nullifier on me. She's also pretty strong at flash games so I feel like she should go next idk.. Nick W is nothing but a pain at this stage - he's messy, he lies and we fought last round so we're definitely through in this game. I can see that translating into me getting votes for the next few rounds - I just need to hope my alliance pulls through. That being said, I'm wondering if it's best that I don't win immunity this round? Bc the three of them (Nick W, Christine and Connor) might force a tie, and if it's me they're coming for I'd be safe in the case of rocks... The risk there is that they find an idol in the meantime. We'll see how this pans out - I'm on the home stretch I just really have to keep a finger on the pulse and then hopefully I'll survive! One step at a time!

This is really just for Teddy:

Tag yourself I'm me winning every merge reward challenge I've ever competed in this season and still not getting any closer to getting an idol...Literally me, Connor and Nick went to check the beach and Dan comes along. None of us got the idol but Connor thought it would be a good idea to tell him exactly where we didn't look...I don't know if he meant to do that or what but Dan probably has ANOTHER idol and we're all screwed. It's been fun guys!!! I just...I'm so annoyed in every single way possible. If Dan does have another idol, I think the best possible thing for me and Nick would be to get Jeremy out. Jeremy isn't necessarily too much of a threat compared to people like Dan or maybe even Connor but at this rate, he's probably gonna get to the end. It doesn't matter with who, there's no way nobody's not considering taking him. I just feel like he's the ultimate goat, maybe I'm wrong? Maybe he's a strategic mastermind or something, who knows. The kid doesn't talk to me and I don't talk to him so I don't know what to make of him or his game...I just think at this point people wanna take him to the end, hopefully I'm wrong? But I want him out ASAP. I'm just so worried about the idol now though, like if Dan actually has it again...I can't believe it. Hopefully something good comes out of this immunity, I'm gonna need it.

All i know is sh*t's about to go down... I see connor. I know he's playing the middle. I know he wants to vote me out so he can go to F5 with a pair of people on each side vying for his vote. But to do that, he needs Simon, Jeremy and I to not vote together. If I have anything to do with it, that's not gonna work. I want Christine or Nick W out this round. If either of them make it to F4 and win immunity then no one else has a shot in hell, simply bc they're such underdogs. also side note; THIS SEASON IS JUST LIKE CAMBODIA??? In my last season, I was in a power couple alliance with Candace - I was voted out at F9 and she want all the way (sounds like Jeremy and Natalie to me....) But now I'm back in a season about 'voting blocks' and I'm in the F6 with what should be a tight 4 (me, connor, simon and jeremy) against 2 likeable/challenge-ready underdogs (christine aka keith and nick w aka kelley) but LORD KNOWS that Connor (aka Kimmi) is going to flip and force a tie... So long as me, simon and jeremy stick together, we have a fighting chance - especially if they vote for me! If that happens, I'll be safe when it comes to rocks and through to the F5 to fight for my life in immunity. The end is so close now, and people are really desperately playing an individual game at this point... Connor is a rebel gone rogue - he's SO keen to just play the middle and be in a power position until the end. Up until last round, I was the one in the middle, but I recognised the importance of taking a side when you're so close to the end. The only way Connor makes it to the end at this point is if he wins every immunity. If I have anything to do with it, I'm not going to let that happen.

Me?? A target???! I would never have guessed! As expected, Nick W and Christine are coming for me yet again - only this time they actually have Connor on their side. Their proposal is to scare Simon out of going to rocks. Little do they know that Simon has the Otago idol from way back when - and he's going to play it on me! (now that I think about it, i never asked for receipts from Simon, but it would be silly of him to play me like this when he can't win against Connor, Nick or Christine...) Anyway.. if that happens - it'll be a 3-0 vote for Christine and we'll be through to F5. Connor is playing the middle too hard rn and the power is going to his head. He's losing sight of the importance of picking a side and it has pissed off the people he's trying to manipulate. Hopefully that will benefit me if we get closer to FTC but for now I still have to keep my cool. I'm not really sure how much of social game I can afford to be playing with Christine and Nick W - they're both kinda done with me and I understand why, but I don't want that to work against me if I find myself at finals. That's a problem for future Sole ! Fingers crossed I come out on top of this tribal and I can get one step closer to the win!

ok so basically I've been talking to Simon nick w and Christine a lot and they all want some out and I want sole out. he wants final three with Simon and I but??? I won't beat him in final three??? and I'm 70% sure I can beat Jeremy and Simon at final three so basically here is the plan: sole out this round (6th) Nick w (5th) Christine (4th) I think can beat Christine at final three too so I think I'm set and I'm pretty sure????? I'll be getting to final three which is YAY YAYA YAY knock on wood tho like oh man I just need to win immunity as much as I can

Basically, all I need now is for dan to go and I'm in a more comfortable position. He is after me which makes me über uncomfortable. I'm trying to get the numbers with Simon, Christine and Connor, I'm just so PARANOID THEY'RE LYING TO ME AND I REALLY DON'T WANNA GO HOME. I'm confident Connor will at least vote with us which will result in rocks and I SHOULD BE SAFE????? Other then that I'm ready to bring hell to this Tribal.

I feel really good about sole me and simon. the plan is for the other side to vote dan off, then simon going to use his idol, and then we are gonna blindside christine. Worst case is we go to rocks but how iconic is that to go out on rocks!! Anyways i am so proud of myself so making it this far i beat 14 people and 13 of them being returnees. If this pulls and i make finals that will be iconic

PONDEROSA VLOGS:

Ok I feel like such a terrible person because I really did want to work with Masen and I didn't even vote for him but I didnt vote "with" him and I just feel so cruddy. Like...I hate this. He was probably the only person that could've helped me make my own move but the numbers just weren't there. Is it bad that I regretted voting for Jeremy? Like I honestly wanted to go back and say I wanted to change my vote I hate this, I hate this so much. Masen I'm so sorry. I really am. I honestly don't know what I'm gonna do, like, touchy subjects has me so paranoid that I'm not doing enough and it's just like, that challenge shouldn't be effecting me this much, right? But I came to win and it's just so frustrating because I guess I'm not coming across that way to people and I don't know what to do about it. 

a trio game. are. are you for real. who the. how the. what the. what. how. does that make. WHAT SOLE NICK H AND I???? oh ohhhhhh oohhhhhhhhhhhhh my god

first off, what the fuck is this trio bullshit masen was blabbering about. the only trio is me, isabelle and christine. then i dont even think dan and nick h are a pair, because i know nick h might wanna make a move against dan. then connor doesn't fit into that very well, because everyone blindsided connor. then simon and jeremy, i don't think are working together but they could that'd be iconic. im so glad masen is out now! he was trying to convince me 20ish minutes before tribal to get rid of dan, but our plan is to get rid of dan after him, so i had to keep my mouth shut! but he tried, it wasn't ever really going to work. he promised he would do whatever it took for me to win and to give me immunity if he ever won. take him the the ftc and he'll insult the jury for me. but seriously, im not that dumb. no one gives up in this game, especially if you have come this far. your not going to give your game away like that and im insulted he'd think im that naive and unintelligent. but he's gone so he is no longer an issue the plan for next tribal is to take out either dan or simon. basically, dan needs to go! he's a huge threat and a strategic force in this game. im actually in awe of dan, if i was watching this game as a viewer, id be rooting so hard for dan coz he's the best. he flipped of the UGLY alliance and is making moves. its great. but because im a player, i cant have that around!! he needs to goooooooo but the thing is, we're at f8 and thats such a tricky place with even numbers and a lot of people. i know for sure id have 4 votes in myself, isabelle, christine and connor. i thought simon could join as fifth, but i honestly have no idea if he'd do it or just lie to me again?? so isabelle had the great idea to maybe take simon out first. now i lloooooovvveeeee simon, and tbh i think i have bonded with him the most, but he is to wishy washy if i cant trust simon with that vote, maybe isabelle and i can influence our alliance at the moment, of nick h, dan, christine and isabelle to just keep voting off simon. however, my only worry about this is that dan might make a move against isabelle or i. even chrisitne! and if he gets to us before we get to him, that could be an issue. so i definitely think if we can solidify dan going this round, that'd be best! all i need to do that is a receipt from dan saying he wants to target simon. coz simon gets sSUPER paranoid, so i think i could get him against dan because dan tries to turn him against us. its gonna be hard, but im up for the challenge. just gotta really really really stay normal and seem super passionate about working with dan, when in actuality, im coming for him. gotta keep my lips sealed and hope for the best because i'm getting so close now, i can taste it!!!!! i really wanna win, and like touchy subjects showed us, i'll do anything to do it!  

ok but literally how am i still here how are people still telling me whats going on in this game why do people vote for me but tell me 5 minutes after tribal all the shit that happened with the vote i didn't know about ok but also at this point Pippa, Sam, and Callie have all been voted out because people were afraid of how close i was with them but never me. i am still here. 10 votes later, and connor is in the final 8. what. what. what

so i won a reward??? i actually WON an individual challenge??? ohhhh my god. and sole got the immunity advantage so i know where everything is except the vote nullifier which is spooky but its one vote, so i don't think it would change things all too much just as long as the votes ACTUALLY go where people say they're going to go i do think i still have a good thing going nick h, simon tells me what is going on most of the time, and i have a good relationship going on with sole so thats nice. i also think it would be possible for me to maybe work with christine or isabelle once nick w is gone because they'll be seeking another number and if i can set it up to work for me i will

there is SO much going through my mind right now.. this confessional might be a long one because this is a lot.. First up.. I WON IMMUNITY! It's a two-edged sword bc on the one hand i'm safe but on the other hand i'm a bona fide threat. People have already been throwing my name around as someone you can't sit next to in the end because of my strategic decisions in the game in the last few rounds. Winning immunity doesn't help with that but it takes the target off my back for this vote and gives me some wiggle room to try and set me up for the future. Because i'm a 'threat' i need to keep myself crucial to the game. The minute I'm expendable, I'll be gone. Tonight was one of those nights so I'm glad I won immunity but I'd really like to make sure it doesn't happen again. Right now, the game is split into two halves: the trio (Isabelle, Christine, and Nick W) on one side and the loose ends (Simon, Connor and Jeremy) on the other. That leaves Nick H and I in the middle - with strong links to both camps and a decision to make as to which way we vote this round. Atm, the trio has an idol and probably a vote nullifier, which makes this round even trickier than before. The instinctive decision is to take one of them out before they have all the power in the game, because a trio with those powers in the F7 is a death warrant. But there's another decision I'm weighing up... I have played this game with Nick H by my side since Day One. He's not my biggest competition, but he has the same connections as I do. Unfortunately, this is an individual game. If one member of the trio goes home tonight, then my situation gets really bad because I know that in a 5-2 scenario in the F7, I become very expendable and they could get me out and move on with 4-2 numbers. That's not good for me. I need to find a way to stay so important to both sides of the game that no one can afford to take me out. Whether they like having me around or not, I want them to need me. There's another layer to all of this: I've been in an alliance called the 'Noodles' with Christine and Isabelle since Day One too. They trust me, I trust them and I can use them going forward. To do this, I need to flush Nick W's idol and take out Nick H this round.That way, I'll be in the F7 with the Aroha trio on one side, and three people on the other. If the Aroha trio would like to cancel my vote for example, then they risk forcing a 3-3 tie and going to rocks. But, I might be able to convince Christine to hold on to her nullifier, going into the F6 with 3 noodles against 3 loose ends, use the nullifier and move forward into the F5 with majority. Really, what I'd rather do, is have the noodles then go home around the F6/F5 because they're both super likeable, strong underdogs in this game. Something that doesn't make you feel comfortable with the jury looking on. Nick W is a wild card at the moment and his gameplay has been super duper messy. He's a bit of a mercenary when it comes to the vote, so I think I could get him on side with voting for Nick H, especially if he knows he'll be going home if he doesn't. For this plan to work, I need him to play the idol on himself (cancelling 4 votes) and then voting for Nick H. To have him keep his idol into the F7 would be disastrous. As tight as I've been with Nick H this whole game, keeping him around makes me expendable. This is probably the riskiest strategy I've ever considered using, but it might be all I have at this point in the game. It relies really strongly on Connor and Simon NOT forming relationships with Christine and Isabelle because come F6 I could be toast. There is SO much that could go wrong, but from here I'm going it alone. I need to keep my position in the centre of the tribe and play both ends against the middle. I've done it before, I hope I can do it again. this all starts this round, so as soon as it looks like it's not achievable i might abandon ship. then again, risks are more fun!

okay this is going to be very anti-climatic but apparently Nick W's idol is fake and now I want him gone.... rip my over-strategising mind... im such a mess i swear to god. the mess will happen next round methinks. I got really excited about that plan but sometimes you gotta check yourself.

I am pissed off. Isabelle and Christine are dead to me. One of them has gtg. It will be easy to convince sole and simon. Connor will be easy. Nick h can be the wildcard. Idk where his head is at. I know he voted me off but i think it was more to protect Masen, but still from now on you are either with me or against me.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK so we were gonna make a move against dan/sole and he won immunity so thats yikessss NOWWWWW we're screwed ahahahahahahahahahaah i think its isabelle or i, but all i got going for me is my fake idol. i just got back with simon and we're super close now, we had like an hour chat and just talked about everything we knew. i told him.... mY IDOL WAS FAKE YIKES!!! it just felt right to tell him. i thought he was on to me, and i just wanted to be 100% real with him especially since isabelle might go this round i need someone to fall onto essentially, i told him im willing to vote isabelle, my #1 off, which look............ i am, but i will do anything to save her. but i just feel after that heart to heart with simon that i cant break any promises in the near future with him bc he was so truthful to ME basically tho, he says the vote could go at me. so he is gonna tell dan and nick h, and jeremy will find out thru goat association that im gonna play my idol and that they'll just vote isabelle. which breAKS MY HEART BUT ITS LEGIT MY BEST OPTION i spoke to connor tho, and idk if he's lying BUT he actually sounds willing to go to rocks wow me, him, christine, isabelle VERSUS simon, nick h, dan and jeremy. I JUST DONT WANT TO BETRAY SIMON. I REALLY REALLY REAALYYYYY DONT but i always NEED isabelle in this game. i wish i didn't love her so much because our three is so threatening to everyone especially this close to the end. a solid three is hard to find, and we have that. so I TOOOOOOOTALLY hate this

i dont even know what tf is happening... i feel like its either me or nick w going home so we'll see how this unfolds hasta la vista 

I just keep telling myself: compromise where you can. I can't push anything too hard.. no matter how angry it makes me. It looks like Isabelle will actually be going home and I'm like 85% sure it'll come back to bite me in the A$$ but what is boy to do?? i'll switch back into my lay-low worried gather information mode next round and hopefully I'll be able to protect myself if it comes to it.

so me and connor are deciding right now, if we risk everything and vote nick h then go to rocks or we vote isabelle honestly, voting isabelle is the hardest thing anyone has asked me to do. i fear i am going to have to do it and legit i might cry. isabelle, not only just in the game, but outside is an amazing friend! i love talking to her so much, and getting to know all her amazing friends. i legit am so glad i got to meet her back in bali, because she's the best! her gameplay and strategy always amazes me. she's so freaking intellegent and switched on i wish i oculd be half the player she is!! so if ya read this isabelle, thankyou for being literally the best! the ugly ugly UGLY people in this game are making me do the worst thing ever and i honestly have no other choice. i hate it. so thankyou for playing this game with me, and if you go, ill cry and never forgive myself  :( so fuck you dan fuck you connor fuck you simon for making me vote out my BFF. 

https://youtu.be/umPO_r536gY a recycled but relevant confessional i seriously have to pray for a miracle if i dont want to be voted out tonight i cant

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rrxIscMpzwM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmY8OyW7Q_g Pre-Getting-Screwed-Over-By-My-Allies-AGAIN

a summary of last 36 hours: 1. i wanted to make a move and didn't feel comfortable in my group 2. the only way that had been presented to me over the last 12 hours was going to rocks and that was 2spooky4me 3. christine told me like 16 minutes before tribal she had the vote nulifier and they (nick w isabelle and her) would vote out whoever i wanted 4. those three + me vote nick h out of the game 5. sole: is pissed. simon: is sad and pissed. jeremy: doesn't know what christine's name is???? 6. there are now two groups of three. nick w, isabelle, and christine and then simon, sole, and jeremey. both think they have my vote for majority. 7. oh man

:///////////// so after much deliberation (and hatching a plan to take out Nick H) I voted for Isabelle with what I thought would be majority... but then connor flipped, my votes was nullified and Nick H went home :~~~~] im a little frustrated but i do understand why it happened. Connor is in like the best position ever so it all comes down to his vote this tribal... or does it??! I won the Hidden Immunity Idol last round, which gives me some added security going into Tribal. I think there are votes coming my way so I may just use it to guarantee myself a place in the Final 6. OMFG I'm currently at treemail with Connor and Simon and it SUMS UP THE GAME. Everyone in a chat like ':~~)heywhatsup' and sharing information bc it would be shady not to. They don't know I have it but... Treemail and Chill... always a good time! So that's the tea - this game is savage so I hope Isabelle will understand that this is a game and we sometimes have to go in different directions. The Noodles fell apart last round so I don't see much point in defending her any more. The worst part is that I can't vote out a Rogue this round. My vote has been dictated by Connor, and my only option is to follow him and hope he mirrors me!

Ok so before I go into any detail about what happened I wanna take a second to apologize about anything I've ever said about Connor because he literally just saved my life ok here we go. WHEW. Ok...so that tribal was so crazy and I'm just in shock. I lowkey didn't expect to use the vote nullifier so early? I didn't know if it would be a waste or what but Isabelle's still here so I'm ecstatic! I really wanted to blindside Sole but with his immunity win it made things kind of complicated...I'm also not sure how I feel about taking out Nick H. Like, I loved the move, but I feel like Nick H. was someone who wanted to work with me and I genuinely enjoyed talking to him about stuff. I don't know...hopefully that doesn't come back to haunt me or something...It's just complicated cause I would never know if he was lying to me or what and I know that wouldn't happen with Isabelle so saving her was definitely better for me. But yeah, now with tonight's tribal everyone's vulnerable which is terrifying. I want to get Sole out and so at that point the Aroha's would make it to F6 but that's exactly what scares me because if any of the other four catch on to that, which I'm sure they will if they haven't already, one of us could be in trouble and I'm not here for that...I don't know, hopefully Connor wants to stick with us but I guess we'll just have to see!

https://youtu.be/6Zxt4nwT4Ec teddy literally fuck u i say other stuff in this confessional dw

FINAL WORDS

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIh4F0UpiTQ&feature=youtu.be

i feel like im actually going this time whew

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IhhtdU6p_WQ

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i basically am so scaled right now I CANT BELIEVE IT WORKED i thought for sure nick h wouldn't vote callie with us, and that i'd get 4 votes and it'd be a tie between callie and i and that i'd be taken out in a revote not only however, did callie leave with 5 votes including nick h, CONNOR GOT 4 VOTES INSTEAD OF ME ICONIC apparently someone said connor had thought about flipping over to isabelle, christine and i. connor was NEVER in a million years going to do that, his plan was to work with me if i voted out isabelle, but honey that was not happening. simon told me however, that CALLIE told him THAT I TOLD HER CONNOR WAS FLIPPING WHAT A MESS CALLIE WAS. i didn't say anything its extremely funny, because with my fake "bat stew" idol FVCK, i showed callie the receipts thinking she'd hold them to herself, and that i'd have to tell someone like jeremy later so he'd spill to everyone about this fake idol i have BUT CALLIE FUCKING TOLD EVERYONE. she told simon and masen for sure. she probably told connor but idk. this is a good thing tho!! i wanted people to think i have this idol! any sort of doubt they have is good, they are always going to have to split the vote when coming for me, so thats something that can be taken advantage of. or they might trick me into "playing" it, like masen tried to do, but i have no idol to play so whoever they vote instead will go before they come for me. but fucking masen this prick, AT TRIBAL COUNCIL SAID "oh ye im voting nick w" trying to get me to play this "idol" aAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA i hate him i dont give a shit what i say to him, ill shade him til the ends of the earth, because at least i have the balls to say something unlike him. i'd never vote for him at the end to win, but he'd still vote for me at the end. sigh also, more bat stew idol goss. since simon know all about it, he sort of confronted me about it. i had a lot of animosity towards simon, but it has definitely left now. i realised its now even, we've screwed each other, and he is probably feeling the same hatred towards me right now. he keeps bringing up in pm's that i have an idol. BUT IDK IF HE BELIEVES OR NOT. i think he'd believe if callie showed him my iconic receipts that i crafted, but if she just told him "hey, nick has an idol", idk if thats believable????? so im in an interesting place now. i have people who have all this angst towards connor that i could take advantage of, however, masen is part of that group and i dont see him ever working with me again. but i also have my new alliance with dan, nick h, isabelle and christine. i know isabelle christine and i have a lot of faith in that alliance, but i think its a different story for dan and nick h. i don't think they'd be as enthused as we are, because they have other options. so what the 4 people that they turned on are gonna be mad, but they're also desperate and if they have to rely on people that just turnt on them, then they will if it means safety. i mean, i trusted nick h after i voted for him. but my perfect scenario right now, is sticking with the 5 that voted callie, and pulling connor in, and taking out m*sen. i think that'd be the best thing for my game and my ego ahahah! we'll see what happens tho

so i came clean to Simon about everything. My secret is out to him. now he knows about my twitter and the fact i am gay. I never really talk about my sexuality. I am a really private person so to tell him took a lot for me. I know me and him are not in a good spot rn. it is crazy how the game can change like that. I just am praying for a miracle this week because if not i am toast.  

when i try to change the game to save someone who i think deserves to be in this game and i try to set up a good situation with my f2 but they bail on me and im left in the dark but still in this game and im just so so sososososos osso sos ossos this is how i felt when i got voted out of palawan but im still in the game i dont know what what WHAT

........blindside successful......... Callie went home! I'm.. proud of myself, but I know I have a lot of work to do to make sure the numbers stay on my side. Nick H has been my confidante in this game for as long as i can remember, so we're in the hot seat re: public opinion because we flipped together. Masen, Jeremy and Simon were left in the dark - thankfully I think my relationships with them are salvageable (except for Masen ofc bc he's now officially as salty as the pacific ocean so..). Connor is another person i really want to connect with bc he was targeted by Masen but left out of my Callie plan. For now I'm really worried about idols... like.. lots of people have clues now and idk where they are. Since Masen is clearly on the block I really don't want someone to play an idol on him bc he might be targeting me! Touchy Subjects is like the worst idea for a challenge rn because my game is so up in the air and everyone is confused - i really don't know how it'll turn out! I came 9th in my last game so to be eliminated now would be a hard pill to swallow - especially since i'm seemingly in an okay position information-wise! i'm currently working out the best way to navigate my position in the middle - i've made good connections to a lot of the people left in the game, but they're not all on the same side so I need to find a way to move through each vote without making myself un-trust-able. i'm still very much trying to take it one vote at a time because to think too far ahead legitimately skews your perspective on things!!

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1aygbkaOcB4AXraEFYpeUIbw8T7-Mr4lxWxQ02KClQr0/edit

Touchy Subjects is always a shit show, but it does suck to come second for like millionth time in that challenge... Masen didn't win tho and that's the main thing. I want him gone. Nick W also got a sufficient amount of shade thrown at him in that challenge to the point that he should be a target in the coming rounds. But there's something else that just started bothering me... People are STILL UNDERESTIMATING ME! like... cut me some slack i just took control of this game do you not realise that??? Simon is talking me like breaking down the 'trio being too powerful' and im like 'yes thank you okay yeah that's so true im with you' like??? Simon I love you but I do have a brain?? I do have Nick H, Connor, Jeremy, you and the trio all on my side right now! Thank you for caring, but I can handle myself! I guess as much as it's frustrating it's better to be underestimated than to be the biggest target in the game so as long as I prove myself time and time again as being in control of this game then I hopefully can make it through with the jury's respect. Right now, though, my priority is getting Masen out and making sure I don't go home if he plays an idol. Most people seem to be on board with that for now but you really never know :p I think it's important for me to solidify a proper alliance that I'm actually going to stick to pretty soon so I'm set up for later on!

I am so honored to win biggest goat and playing for second. I am so touched. But how did sole play game that surprise people so far? If people are surpise that he never knows whats going on 75 percent ot the time then and sucking then yes he is playing the best game. And masen? He just cut me off so saddly i gotta cut him lose tonight. Im just sick of the fake ass people here. But i am not gonna give up like masen did i am gonna fight and i will win this season

This turn around from being the most likely to be a bitter juror to becoming too nice for this game. How cute. I love touchy subjects sometimes. :) But me playing for second place...? I've already done that before and I certainly don't need to do it again...Yikes. I don't know, I guess I'm just waiting for the perfect time to strike, is that such a bad thing? I hope not, like if the opportunity arises for me to make a change, I will but right now I feel like I'm in a good spot so I don't necessarily feel like now is the time to ruin that... Anyway, the plan tonight is to finally get rid of Masen. Like, it's time. I really did want to work with him but at this point I don't think it's gonna work out. It could be possible that he has an idol so we're splitting the vote on Jeremy, which isn't really a bad thing. Honestly I'd rather see Jeremy go at this point so I'm hoping Masen kinda does have an idol but we'll see. Idk splitting the vote always scares me cause anything could go wrong, but I trust my alliance right now so as long as nothing crazy happens...I'm pretty sure this will work out.

apparently masen has decided to show up and is campaigning against me 30 minutes before tribal... im hoping i can rely on the relationships i've made but for some reason this has me pretty nervous! Of all people he decided to talk to Nick W... the shadiest playa out... makes me feel gr8. If Masen has an idol and the split on Jeremy doesn't work, it could be me! To go out 9th again, but this time when I have legitimate options.. ded!! BUT I have faith in the people im surrounded by for this vote at least and I'm sending positive vibes out to the universe that i can hopefully stay in the game! I'm sure everyone has had a moment where they're like.. please no not the same placement i got last time,, this is me having a moment! asfgfhjk

[10:38 am] Masen: Also- please just tell me if you're voting for me. I don't have anyone else to run to so it's not like you'd be risking anything by telling me but I'd rather just know.   <<< when masen finally replies with this regan teas

So according to Dan, Masen apparently brought my name up? I don't know what's going on but if Masen is my actual downfall...I just...Yikes. I hope nothing goes wrong with this split vote and if it does...I don't know what to think. So Masen's side is probably either voting me or Sole and so I'm just really nervous right now and I hope tonight goes right but everytime I say that something goes wrong so I guess we'll just have to see...Just please don't let it be me omg.

My aesthetic tbh

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i've made it to the Final 10 and i'm stoked! my game is almost unrecognisable from the last few times i've played. by this stage, i would be one of the biggest targets left in the game with little to no chance of making the final three but this time around i think people are seriously underestimating me! i need to stay focused though, because lately some of my relationships have dropped away after Ryan went home so i need to keep my ear to the ground. as long as i know where the votes are going i'm happy because i know i have the relationships to change it up if i hear something not going to my plan. I've kinda enjoyed taking the back seat for once, it's not my first choice but the difference is that i can see myself moving forward through the game with my options open. the F10 is tricky already - i know the 7 is kinda tight, but really no one knows who's on the bottom and there are 3 free votes floating around in Nick W, Christine and Isabelle. i'm glad they tried to target Masen last round because that puts him above me on their list. I'd be tempted to make a move this round but it's the consequences of that move that make me hesitate. Callie, Masen and Nick W they're my picks for next boot. Is now the right time to strike?? I'm keeping a finger in every pie and my ear to the ground so hopefully i'll catch wind of anything scary that might go down! fingers crossed i can make it through the next few rounds into the real end-game!

The game is weird now that sarah is gone. I am the only newbie left. I voted out someone who i know outside this game. but to win you have to sometimes backstab your best friend if it means getting ahead. I think sticking with masen and riding out this storm then cutting him at like final 5 is my best move going forward. If anyone is gonna get credit with getting masen out it is going to be me not some other newbie so sarah i am sorry but i voted you out so i can get credit for the masen blindside about to come.

i sent them to callie and i think they worked ???? http://prnt.sc/b00gtc http://prnt.sc/b00gxd http://prnt.sc/b00h5z

I'm pissed. SO, like I said before - i predicted Callie, Masen or Nick W going home tonight. obviously masen won immunity, and he immediately started throwing out Nick W's name being like 'the seven has to stick together, we should put 4 on Nick W and 3 on Isabelle'. That works perfectly for me because I want Callie out this round. I'll vote with Isabelle, Christine and Nick W to make it 4-3-3 for Callie if I have to... BUT then I was talking to Simon, and apparently Masen has been talking about taking me out as the 'swing vote' and leaving the trio in the game and that's why he wants to split the vote... The reason I'm pissed is not because Masen wants me out - but it's because now the move I always wanted to make will look desperate and out of necessity to the rest of the players, and the jury. Callie is playing under the radar, keeping everyone on side and winning challenges. That's why I want her out, not because I need to make a move to save myself. To be honest I don't give a shit about what the others have to say about me - I know that connor, jeremy and masen can't win this game and they're in an alliance of supposedly weak players. I used to think it was a great thing that people were underestimating me, especially considering how dangerous I have been in the past. I would call myself a big player, and now it's time for me to play big. It looks like my road to the end will be rough, but I have to take it one tribal at a time. I'm really don't want to go home having laid back waiting for right time only for that time never to come. It's now or never and I'm just hoping I can pull this one off without Nick W or someone leaking my plan to the other side. F10 is a tricky time to make a move because people may force a tie but i don't care. It's game time now in my eyes.

ok so super low key i may have just set myself up for final 5 nick w sent me this message and there were real tears in my eyes while i read it: On 5/3/16, at 9:48 PM, Nick Wentworth wrote: > hey im sorry things havent really worked out between us in this game. like, i always have been truthful about wanting working with you, and i would still love to, because i have never wanted to target you! literally, first merge vote i heard your name, i tried to flip it on to nick h! yikes! but i always want to work with you, and i know your in a super comfortable position right now, but please use me to benefit your game. like if you need a vote, i'd legit love to help you, because we both know my chances of getting to the end are very slim. out of anyone here, your like the person i'd love to see win. like!!! how fuckin SWEET!!!!! even if he is just playing me it won me over so i got on call for like an hour with callie because rn we're just playing Masen's game and im not really happy with how my game play is going to i was like "ok what i best for me and callie keeps nick here and dethrowns masen" so HERE IS THE PLAN and i hope this works the vote is being split 4 nick w 3 isaballe or christine, so in talking to callie we figured out that, if nick played and idol OR he and the girl who wasn't getting the votes voted for the other girl, we would be down to nine and there would be two of them left. callie, simon and i would then go on board with remaining aroha-girl and nick, we have majority of the votes (5 to 4) AND then a majority in that alliance. it's insane, but it just might work.

my life in this game is so high up in the air right now.. like WHEW it could go one way or the other. I think the time is right to make this move, and talking to isabelle and Nick W has actually reassured me a fair bit - Nick was so on board, he tried to tell me that he 'only really speaks to Simon' from our side but then I told him that Callie was actually leaking a lot of their conversations and he 'doesn't have to lie to me' LOL. He really bought it then and was like 'now she on my list'. i stressed to him 10000TIMES don't tell Callie what's going down because we'll both be screwed if he does and he promised me up and down that he wouldn't. For right now it looks like I have 5 votes for Callie... so long as nothing goes wrong... which it very easily could... HHHHHH im so nervous. i feel a little bit bad bc Callie might actually be on board to split votes and take out Nick W but I just can't have my game left in their hands next round. The temptation of turning on the 7 next round would be too strong - there are odd numbers, masen's the easy target but is under Callie's control and apparently I'm a shady swing vote so I really need to get in first with this one. This round has been a big one for me so far and I'm hoping that in the next like 18 hours or so it all holds together. I'll be working hard to make sure it does I just hope no one f*cks it up for me..

im SCREAMING shit has just turned pretty amazingly. so in that call with connor, i was pretty content with working with him and callie. i love callie to bits, i do too love connor, but eeehhh he is SOOO cocky in this game, i just gotta keep smiling and milking his ego. so i was content with working with these guys, it wasn't until connor revealed in a call what his plan was AND THE SNEAKY BINCH I AM, i recorded the call for all to hear and see oMG https://youtu.be/IoBheRO4Urg no waayaaaayyyyyy am i just gonna let isabelle or christine leave. my BAES <3 i aint ditching them, ill fall on the sword for either of those two. so i was quite anti-connors idea. prior to this conversation with connor, isabelle told me this hectic plan her and dan had spoken about, it was about getting callie out !!!! the catch was dan didn't want me to know about the plan because he thought i was tight af with callie now i LOOOOOOOOOOOOVE callie and i knew at the time i wanted to join that plan and take her out, because it was far more reassuring then taking out isababe and babestine. connor told me this which i basically leaked to everyone now http://prnt.sc/b01xpy HE thinks himself, callie, nick and simon are in charge. whoops i just spilt all this tea over so i gave that to isabelle to send to dan, and now dan knows he's on the bottom and is more inclinded to make a move. so dan's plan (rhyme omg) to get rid of callie seems like the go to me, and so we started messaging, and very hesitantly, he revealed the plan to me! and we been chatting ever since! im super solid on this idea, i just wish it was simon or connor going to be honest. just got back talking with dan than and he said nick h might even be solid on the plan, its amazing! im gonna try get either myself or someone else to show jeremy the connor receipts of him talking about who is incharge, just to scare jeremy into voting callie also. he kinda idk expressed interest in working with me, but it was super rushed and awkward idk then the majority is probs splitting the vote as well between isabelle and myself. 4 on myself and 3 on isa, so even if we dont get enough numbers, 4 will be enough! 4-3-3 vote, howzat if there is one thing im learning from this game is that you can never be content. just because connor's plan allows me to be safe, doesn't mean im content with it. i need to keep as many of my people around as possible, and make my own path. if your gonna make a move, it has to be beneficial. so when your trying to get others to make a move, you gotta show them the benefits of that move. that is what miss sarah missed, she just told people "this is whats gonna happen. you should probs follow suit", she never showed people what was in it for them. no one is going to leave a spot in the game just to help you out, you gotta get them to help you, by helping them. and thats what i've learnt aaawww so i HOPE THIS callie plan works. i feel bad voting out callie, buuutttt she betrayed me TWICE. what goes around comes around, I guess!

ALSO I SHOWED CALLIE MY IDOL RECEIPTS AND SHE BARELY REACTED WHAT THE FUCK. i wanted a whole cabaret performance when i showed them to her, not a fucking white crayon reaction. aw well ILY CALLIE OX

i am nervous as fuck for the vote right now bc if dan screws us over, then it might be me or nick going home and i am not for that.. nick also has the chance to screw me over bc he started talking to connor again and so im sorta nervous, but as far as i know, it looks like majority is splitting the vote 4-3 nick-me. however dan came to us and said he wants callie out, so hopefully he'll be in the 4 and can make it 4-3-3 callie-nick-me instead... i feel like lots of things can go wrong w this plan, but at this point im all out of options yikes ALSO MASEN SNATCHING IMMUNITY FROM ME WAS EOIFJEoijfoejfOEIRJOIEjrfoiefr i literally didnt use my computer for the whole day bc of autoclicker and i still lost how ugly oh yeah i also helped nick fake an idol bc i remembered he got the bat stew from the auction and i was like.. we can make up some random ass bat idol that was a secret item from the option that u found in ur stew and he was like YEAH, so we ended up doing that an making funny receipts that are actually p believable. i hope i did justice in my amelia impression fake receipts: http://prntscr.com/b0cnte http://prntscr.com/b0cnz2 #PekaPekaIdol perhaps my last legacy b4 my possible departure tonight  

Tag yourself I'm me winning both rewards and getting absolutely nothing useful out of them. Literally...I'm so done. The idol's probably gone anyway so it's like, why do I even bother? I mean, advantages are nice and all...Except for this one because Masen literally killed it. Isabelle was so close I can't omg. We could've gotten the numbers to get him out but noooo. I know I said I wanted to keep Masen around...but he literally doesn't even respond to my messages anymore so I'm just so confused. He says he'll tell me everything and then tells me absolutely nothing...So I don't exactly know what to do with that...yikes. Anyway, apparently they're going to split the votes between Nick W. and Isabelle. I don't really understand why? Because it makes that entire group so vulnerable if someone decides to flip so it's like...what a mess. And it actually looks like Dan wants to flip back with me and Isabelle!? Which is great and it makes me very happy if he's actually telling the truth this time. Hopefully everything works out this time, like I feel like the Aroha's are due for at least one good tribal about now, right? Right.

Nevermind....

I have been underestimated in this game for too long - which is why I had to pull together this move. Sure, I've been playing under the radar, but these people have been talking to me like I don't have a mind of my own or the connections to pull anything off????? Masen, Callie, Simon. Hopefully, they have a shock coming their way. They've started throwing Connor under bus which unfortunately won't earn them anything but fewer options next round. Also, I really do like Simon, but I need to keep this from him because it's not in his best interest - I'll have to convince him otherwise, though. The tight three of Nick, Christine and Isabelle will still be a threat in the game, along with Masen, which gives me options for next round if I'm around to see it. I'm really trying not to think too far ahead like I usually do and just take it one tribal at a time. Callie is the centre of the spider's web, though. She knows almost as much as I do and people respect her a lot so she has to go. This round is where my game really starts and I know it'll be a long rocky one from here!

So the plan is to blindside connor. I support it but i have a plan next week. I was put on the rebel tribe but to win i gotta go rouge. I am gonna have to flip on masen eventually so i think his right hand man nick h needs to go next week and if the vote goes right tonight. Callie isabel and nick w will be on my side and if i get sole. Bye bye :)

Confessional 7: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1zAZadNALNEa4XEaGcEOJycmAR34SJDQ-NSNNgik-D44/edit?usp=sharing

WHEN NICK SAYS EVERYONE IS VOTING ISABELLE OR SIMON AND THERE ARE 0 VOTES ISABELLE OR SIMON!!! CLEARLY A LOT OF VOTES YOU'RE SUCH A GREAT ALLY NICK!!!! bitch ass might have outplayed me before but not this time.

@isabelle @nick w @christine

When you think you have all the options in the world and it turns out you're just a flop trying to survive...*Sigh* I should've known better, obviously Connor is just the perfect goat at this point and unfortunately Ryan had to pay the price. He didn't even make jury I literally hate this so much. Here's what gets me though, Sole voted out Ryan. He betrayed me and Isabelle, AGAIN. Like, at first it was a stab in the back with the Isabelle vote but voting out Ryan was such an unnecessary move? He didn't even bother gaining our trust back, he just went in for the kill and did it again. He says he wants the rebel numbers to stay strong but Aroha was just too tight. I mean that's reasonable...Except for the fact Ryan wasn't even on Aroha??? I'm just speechless. I honestly lost it at that point so I went to Masen and spilled our alliance with Sole and all the tea that went along with him. It was interesting though because apparently Masen and Callie knew about splitting the votes between Connor and Nick H. before I did, because Isabelle literally mentioned it to me like 30 minutes before tribal and so I guess I was left out of the loop...At this point the only people I really trust are Isabelle and Masen. I don't even know if I can trust Masen completely but he's literally the only rogue that wants to talk strategy with me, so I'll roll with it for now and just hope he's being genuine with me. Also Nick H. screwed me over AGAIN. This is like, the third time, I think? Like, I'm over it but I know I have to keep trying with him because I really do need the numbers at this point. I obviously can't keep targeting Connor, because these people obviously want to keep him around. Him and Jeremy are literally the biggest goats here and it's just so frustrating because no one is gonna get them out until it's too late. My plan as of now is to win reward and hopefully get an idol clue, that's all I want. I just want something to work out this round.

I am completly against majority of the rebels now. I went rouge and turned on them and it was evident in the last vote. I feel super guilty having to lie to sarah but she also lied to me so my trust with her is destroyed sadly. And her and nick w are strong contenders to go this week so if i have to wrote her name down so be it. You are either with me or you against me and she chose her side and now she will have to deal witn the consequences.

Confessional #7: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1ZJI4AS9QnprSHkWgachRnoMjZg1cAY9mYTDtGfVfQes/edit?usp=sharing

Tag yourself I'm me not really wanting Masen out but the Aroha's wanting to and it's just...yikes. They're trying to get Simon and Callie along with us and I'm just like...Idk. I'm probably being stupid because Masen probably is lying to me? But it's like if people know Aroha is tight...I just don't know if it's a good thing to stick with them but at the same time, where am I gonna go if I do decide to ditch them? Because if I go with Masen's side I'm obviously gonna be on the bottom. Connor and Jeremy don't even talk to me and Nick H. lies to me every single vote. It's ridiculous. I'd be such a hypocrite flipping when I literally have spent the past few days dragging Sole for doing the same exact thing. It's just...Aroha's weird because like we were literally trying to think of ways we could make people think we weren't tight and then in the immunity challenge me, Isabelle and Sarah choose to be paired together and I didn't even realize until afterwards that that just looks so sketchy like...whoops. But yeah, back to the main point at hand. I don't want Masen to go...I really don't. He's a big threat but a nice shield tbh. I'd rather keep that along a little longer if I can...Anything could go wrong tbh, if Callie and Simon don't vote with us I don't want to be on Masen's bad side...It also depends who they actually decide to target...I'm just so torn...Ugh. I just want to make a big move, but maybe it's just too early for that. Idk, voting out Masen would just be a bad move for me like he's one of the only people who actually talks strategy with me? But at the same time he could totally be lying to me and it's just like...I hate this. Literally the only person I feel like I can trust in this game is Isabelle. Oh and btw that reward challenge robbed me. I tried so hard in that challenge just to get absolutely nothing. I just can't catch a break this week, huh?

sO ryan left last round which sucks because it means that aroha is on the bottom and supposedly everyone was scared of us?? but we're super non threatening so ok but yeah sole ended up calling me and christine saying he flipped and we were both like.... this ugly lowkey aroha is really tight but we pretending we aint even though i LOVe everyone in this alliance... people were spreading rumours that me christine and nick have an irl friendship and we were all like what ????? i mean technically me and nick have a p tight friendship outside of this game bc we facetime and snapchat a lot but he literally lives in australia i dont understand where the logic is christine is seriously my number one though like she is hilarious and my love for her grows everyday?? some hella cute reciepts from her: [4/29/16, 7:55:24 PM] Christine Wentworth: Right? Like, literally everything is such a mess I'm just gonna roll with it. It's more fun that way asdfghjk [4/29/16, 7:57:45 PM] Christine Wentworth: Also I'm looking up noodle memes to make me happy and this one is my fav so far: [4/29/16, 7:57:54 PM] Christine Wentworth: [Image of a meme that says: "I stopped eating ramen for a month after burning myself with a noodle"] [4/29/16, 7:58:24 PM] Christine Wentworth: What has my life become asdfghjkl ~ [4/30/16, 8:20:11 PM] isabelle han: i have a secret.. [4/30/16, 8:20:16 PM] isabelle han: he's my sock yikes [4/30/16, 8:20:54 PM] Christine Wentworth: Ok but is he your sock or Elizabeth's? [4/30/16, 8:21:01 PM] isabelle han: FUCK [4/30/16, 8:21:02 PM] Christine Wentworth: OR RAINAS??? [4/30/16, 8:21:03 PM] isabelle han: CHRISTINE [4/30/16, 8:21:05 PM] isabelle han: IM CRYING [4/30/16, 8:21:17 PM] isabelle han: OR SHOULD I SAY [4/30/16, 8:21:20 PM] isabelle han: CHRISTINA [4/30/16, 8:21:26 PM] isabelle han: HMMMM [4/30/16, 8:21:28 PM] Christine Wentworth: GASP [4/30/16, 8:21:30 PM] Christine Wentworth: ISABELLE [4/30/16, 8:22:31 PM] Christine Wentworth: Tbh I'm neither, Sarah spilled the beans in the main chat...my real name...is... [4/30/16, 8:22:33 PM] Christine Wentworth: On 4/30/16, at 5:42 PM, Sarah wrote: > christime [4/30/16, 8:23:56 PM] isabelle han: ISIDBWKEIJRNEKWIDH so yeaH #chrisabelle for the win honestly... also sarah has been trying to win me over lowkey bc she started talking about going against aroha w me and i was like.... ok hunny i see ur true colors we had this weird ass encounter w nick h while trying to look for the idol and basically she leaked our plan about wanting to get masen out and i was like yikes ok supposedly simon and callie are flipping to get out masen but masen might have an idol??? and might vote me?? so yeah im gonna go investigate that shit #prayforisabellep2

my game this time around is very different from how i've played in the past. i used to want to be in control for the entire game, but now i understand that not being in total control in this early merge stage is possibly best for my long-term game. letting people like Masen and Callie run the show keeps the heat off my back, and lets me form relationships that i can use against them. I can stay in the middle of the pack, with knowledge about both sides of the game, and then rise to top when the time is right. I've been trying to preserve my relationships with Christine and Isabelle after I betrayed them last round, because I know I'll need them when it comes time to make a move. Simon and Nick H have become my primary sounding boards, and I'm trying to work on Connor and Jeremy to pull them away from Callie and Masen when I need to go against them. Right now I'm letting Masen scramble for the votes and dig himself a hole or two by instructing people how to vote. At this stage, the group of 7 from last round is targeting Sarah, but I just want to make sure than neither side is targeting me. If I hear that Masen is telling the other side to vote for me, then I'll consider a switch-up and taking him out of the game. If not, I want to know where they're putting their votes so I'm not shocked if anything goes down. My social game is really coming to the forefront in this game and it's overshadowing my strategic game (even though they're often linked). It's a change because I'm not so paranoid and I think it's less likely I'll overplay my way out of the game... which tends to happen too much... For now I'm going to let the game take its course (so long as I know what course that is) and continue to build my base for when I want to make a move. As I've said a million time though, it doesn't look like we can have a straightforward tribal this game so Lord know what will go down after I submit this confessional....

Ok, so I'm kinda happy right now. I finally got the chance to straighten things out with Nick H. and it looks like we could potentially work together after this vote. I told him that I wasn't too sure about the Masen vote and I think he agrees. Apparently the other target is Sarah and it's just like...Ugh. Obviously I don't want Sarah to go so I'm definitely voting for Masen at this point. It's just such a difficult situation because Masen is such a big threat but I feel like it's too early to make that move. I feel like tonight's just going to be a lose-lose situation so I'm not getting my hopes up for anything. We'll see how things go I guess, and hopefully me and Nick H. can finally work together when this vote is over because I definitely need to start distancing myself from Aroha.

Before last tribal I found an idol so I have that just in case I need it later on. I haven't told anyone about it and I don't think anyone thinks I have it so that's a plus. Ryan ended up going which was so good for us because we established a large majority and was someone I was not close too. I spoke with Masen last night and pretended to be open to Nick W or Sarah while trying to make sure to sway him to Sarah. I am slightly worried because I slipped up and told him about an alliance thing between Nick W, Sarah, Simon and myself but also that they had an alliance chat without me because Sarah didn't trust me. I feel like I've been telling him a lot of stuff going on so hopefully he doesn't try to use anything against me. I woke up this morning and called with Simon then Sarah then Simon then Nick W then Simon then Nick H and then Connor and then finally a group call/alliance was made with Nick H, Simon, Connor but also one without Nick H. Sarah told me basically that is was "them 4" aka Nick W, Isabelle, Christine and herself and that Simon and I would be able to join them to vote out Masen which realistically just spells out that we're on the bottom of that alliance.... no surprise there. Simon, Connor and Nick H were quite uncertain on who to vote for and everyone sees Masen and I as a duo so I had to talk with them and convince them we aren't and that I was open to voting him out which realistically I am after the things he's said to me not adding up to the stuff people have shown me, just not this vote. Honestly, they were really keen on voting out Masen so I had to keep telling them that the best thing was to vote out Sarah with her advantages because if she believes she has all of us, she won't use her extra vote and that gives that group 5 votes next tribal and they would only have to swing one person which wouldn't be that hard. I told Simon, Nick W and Connor that I was really hurt by Masen using my emotions to further his gameplay which I mean is true if what I've been hearing is correct so they think I don't like him and would be open to voting him out at any time and therefore I think Nick W may believe I'm voting with him tonight and Simon and Connor agreed to voting out Sarah. I had to make sure it wasn't too aggressive and that they would believe that they thought of this plan as the best plan themselves all the while thinking I wasn't close to Masen. During my last call with Simon we made a f2 so now I have three f2s with all the people who are most likely not going to tell each other. I don't know if they'd stay loyal to me though but I'm trying to make it seem like I'm a goat at this point and would do whatever they wanted. I did win immunity when I didn't need to but at least I'm safe just in case Sarah and her group find out we lied before tribal. Oh and Simon had told me awhile ago that Sam was the one who gave him an idol but I have this lowkey feeling it was Masen because he seems like the type to make a chaotic move for no reason and probably thought the 3 of us girls were tight at that point. So if everything works out then Sarah will go today and I'm hoping that she doesn't play an idol or that no one flips but from when I spoke with everyone today the consensus ended up being that she was the best option.

Sorry this was supposed to be sent before tribal

me when i still havent moved from where i was from tribal because i was cryin

https://youtu.be/6NMLHOMZ1P4

ok literally im going to get voted out this round i can feel it ive been a target everytime i will be gone rip connor second chance is gone i- help

https://youtu.be/yIA3UEDDnws

okay this is where the game gets really complicated.. merge time is 12 people scrambling for alliances and to survive this first vote you really need 7. I'm talking with Ryan who seems to be in the know so I'll take his word for what's going down - it looks like Aroha and NuMaori are mostly making a new alliance. Sarah, Nick W, Isabelle, Christine, Ryan and Callie are in a multi-layered group from Aroha/Noodles/Otago/NuMaori so honestly that group of 6 is worrysome. Jeremy is probably in there too somewhere so long as he and Ryan kept their relationship up on NuMaori. That leaves me, Nick H, Masen, Simon and Connor on the outs - but when you put it like that there's no way the 5 of us would ever link up because we're so separate. And what's worse is we all have important connections to different people in that group so the only way to break it up would be for someone to compromise and take out an ally. The group of 6 really has a strong advantage rn and my decision now has to be: 1) how do i break it up, or if i can't do that 2) how do i get in there enough that i won't be an easy 8th or 7th place.

"Those who do not learn history are doomed to repeat it." The quote is most likely due to George Santayana, and in its original form it read, 'Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it.' The phrasing itself certainly is catchy. @nickw trying to take me out AGAIN. not this time, bucko

[4/26/16, 10:16:15 PM] Nick Wentworth: who u voting now? [4/26/16, 10:16:46 PM] connor: dude its insane [4/26/16, 10:17:00 PM] connor: isabelle and christen keep changing between me and dan [4/26/16, 10:17:15 PM] connor: i think I'm still going to vote for isabelle??? and so are nick sole and sam??? [4/26/16, 10:17:17 PM] connor: no idea [4/26/16, 10:17:19 PM] connor: help [4/26/16, 10:17:50 PM] Nick Wentworth: just do it dude [4/26/16, 10:18:12 PM] Nick Wentworth: i reckon isabelle coz its gonna get to messy otherwise [4/26/16, 10:19:14 PM] connor: dan is voting with us for isabelle [4/26/16, 10:19:17 PM] connor: as far as i know [4/26/16, 10:19:25 PM] Nick Wentworth: more votes the merriee THEN HE TELL ISABELLE TO PLAY THE IDOL i can't belive i let him lie to my face for two seasons im so-

When I was really excited to finally work with Masen and the first name he brings up is Sarah's. :~) When Masen goes into the alliance chat of me, him, Isabelle, Nick W and Callie and says he's only been talking to me about the vote within our group. :~) When Masen also drags my name in the alliance chat through a plan I literally despised but agreed to in PM's cause I didn't have an argument not to go with it. :~) When I potentially fuck myself over and Masen maybe screws my game up. :~) I just...yikes. I shouldn't be allowed to make decisions when I'm this tired, like, really. I'm just so worried Nick W. will go back to Sarah and spill everything, like I need to talk to Sarah about this so she doesn't get the wrong impression. I should've said I didn't agree with the plan, like I just want Connor out, that's all I want in life but nooooo. People just have to go and make things so gosh darn complicated and it's just so frustrating. Like Masen wants to keep Nick H. safe for now, which I'm fine with and understand, but Connor? I don't see the logic. I don't get it. I don't like it. I'm so stupid I should've fought for it more. But the votes not over yet so hopefully I can fix this I'm just...ugh. Also apparently Simon wants to align with me and Isabelle so at this point we're pretty much aligned with everyone except Jeremy, Nick H. and Connor. I can't. We're in such a mess and I don't know what to make of it. OH And I started talking to Callie and she seems really sweet and adorable but this alliance I have with her and some of the other rogues is starting to scare me. Hopefully things can work themselves out before Tribal because I'm not prepared for another disaster. Unless Isabelle has another idol or something magical but for now...I just wanted Connor gone why me.

i literally just canceled plans to try and stay in this game

This merge is game changing. I am basically playing both sides. I am leading howecer to flip and join the rouges aka callie and masen. While i wanna remain loyal to my rebels they basically cut me out and are gonna form an army. So if i have to flip on them i will. I guess i am alittle rouge after all

Confessional 6 https://docs.google.com/document/d/1KjIQKVp1Gp_MWjRhp77mUZkXuIubS8W9XYuUF-alLLo/edit?usp=sharing

literally nick w i CAN NOT!!! i have given this kid the benefit of the doubt since DAY!!!! 1!!!! and he literally has only lied to me thus far in the game i ACTUALLY CAN NOT

connors name and simons are up in the air. simon and connor are both messaging me freakin out and im tellimg both to both the other. everybody is saying the aroha tribe is really close which is starting to scare me..we might be targerted. isabelle and nick w ate voting nick h just incase of immunity everything is gr8 ppl are saying ryan is flipping fuck me up

https://youtu.be/zwHdUKEhqZM

K so it appears to be everyone BUT connor and nick h in on the plan to have connor leave this evening i sort of suggested to isabelle and masen that we should have two people, probs me and isabelle, just vote nick h incase connor pulls a quick one on us with an idol. i doubt he will. connor just seems a little out of his league in this game. but we'll see how it goes i think i had somehting else to say, but i forgot, ill hit up the confessionals again if i remember

why do all these binches want me to go home?? everyone is supposedly "locked" on connor but im not so sure smh so im gonna do some snooping and hopefully i wont be out tonight (not guarenteed) !!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Do-URE1zpgc

Another day, another sh*tstorm! So initially it started off as basically unanimous for Connor (coming from the tight 5 of Nick W, Sarah, Christine, Isabelle and Ryan - Aroha/Noodles) but like.. per my goals from earlier this round I either wanted to 1) break it up or 2) infiltrate it. I don't see that 5 letting me near the top. Thankfully, Connor and Nick H started fighting back and Callie and Masen were happy to open the floodgates. The four of them came to me, Jeremy and Simon to make an alliance of 7 misfits. We're going for the jugular. I was shocked to hear Ryan's name was the one they were targeting, but honestly I don't really have an option right now. It leaves some big threats (the Isabelle, Christine, Nick W trio and Sarah with her advantages) in the game as targets for later on, but also gives me breathing room where I don't have to worry about playing both sides as hard. Ryan has been a loyal ally, but he has clearly been keeping me on the back foot lately. He said i better 'get talking ;)' if i wanted to not be 7th on the totem pole of that alliance and it really didn't sit well with me. For the future, I want Connor, Nick, Simon, Jeremy and I to stick together. Thankfully I think I have strong working relationships across the board and can see myself keeping a finger on the pulse of this game like I have been. WHEW THAT'S A LOT but hopefully it all works out - this has been another crazy tribal and probably the hardest decision yet. I think it's what has to be done though.

ok i think a miracle may have actually happened. as far as i know, Ryan is going home tonight thanks to Callie, Simon, Sole, Jeremy, Nick H., Masen, and myself. I just hope this is what is actually happening. I seriously hope I can get Nick out of this game. me, my photoshop skills, and my fake little ta keo idol will get nick out of this game. :)

i literally owe some of these people my life in this game if i stay tonight oh man

Okay so last tribal on Otago they idoled out Sam when I told them the best thing was to split the votes. Messy. We merged and there was a feast where everyone could pick a food item so I'm assuming someone got the clue to the location of an idol. I'm in the middle of two sides right now. Nick W, Isabelle, Christine, Ryan and Sarah are on one side. Then Connor and Nick H. are on one side. Masen and I talked to everyone else and got them to vote Ryan or at least that's what they said. Also Nick W. said him and Isabelle are going to vote Nick H. just in case Connor has an idol so the vote should be 7-3-2. Right now, I'm in an alliance with Masen, Connor and Nick H. Then Masen, Jeremy and I. Also, Simon is willing to work with us so I'm assuming me him, Masen and possibly Connor will make something. Christine, Isabelle, Nick W, Masen and I also have an alliance. Then Nick W, Sarah, Simon, and I have had the alliance from the swap so realistically I'm covered by everyone but if they find out about each other then I'm screwed. At this point Connor, Masen and Simon all trust me the most or so they have said so I think I have 3 f2s essentially with them. I hope the aftermath from Nick W.'s side isn't too bad but I think I'll be able to manage... hopefully.

Masen was a Rogue through and through. Nobody can deny how much of an influence he had pre and early merge and on the season as a whole. He won numerous challenges (yes, even the color based ones) And even threw a challenge or....three.... to get his enemies out. His one sided showmance with Nick H. also stole viewer’s hearts. Masen’s bold, unpredictable, and entertaining gameplay was fun to watch and always had everybody (in the game and out) talking. Congratulations, Masen!

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There was a reward challenge and as much as I wanted to go for the last item which I knew would be an extra vote thing, I couldn't let it put a target on my back. I ended up getting a buff for the other tribe and Connor got the other one so we're on different tribes again AND I don't have Karen on my tribe either... and y'all are telling me that Teddy didn't plan this?? hmm okay

So as soon as I saw the tribes I felt somewhat in a good position just because my tribe is mostly people I've been trying to stay aligned with. I have Masen on my side and I also have Nick. I have Simon somewhat I think, since I tried to make it seem like I was flipping on Karen and Masen before the swap but he might just be playing along, I'm not sure how much he trusts me honestly. Sarah always seems nice and I heard she's fond of me so I think we're on good terms too. The only person on my tribe right now I'm not sure about is Jeremy. I haven't spoken to him much and he doesn't even seem like he's trying to make bonds which is kind of odd but I'm pretty sure Nick and Simon will talk to him since they speak to everyone. Their overly social games can be used against them later anyways. Simon seems to be close with a lot of people based on the fact that he was on the bottom on our other tribe and everyone wanted to reach out to him for a number which is slightly scary just because I know he's not fond of Karen or Masen and by association, I don't know how much he trusts me. As of right now I know that I won't be targeted most likely but when we start getting rid of everyone else then I'd be at the bottom of their little group. Nick and Simon aren't telling me much about anything so I don't know how far I'm going to go with them but we'll see. I don't want to do anything to mess with the balance of our tribe until I have to. I completely forgot about the two people in exile, I'm hoping Nick H. comes to our tribe based on the fact that Masen is close with him and I trust Masen slightly more right now but that changes from time to time so we'll see. I can't tell him about the alliance chat Nick, Simon, Sarah and I have because they hate him and if he needs to save himself, he could throw me under the bus by saying I leaked it to him. I have a feeling Ryan is close with Simon and Sole is as well because during the auction Simon said he knew their bids. We won immunity which is cute because I didn't want to vote anyone out on our tribe yet and I have to work to get some votes on one side still so that buys me some time. The other tribe had a girls alliance which left Connor and Sole being at the bottom and then Karen was at the bottom of that alliance so I wanted to save them so I got Karen to talk to Connor so they'd work together. I tried getting them to flip the votes against the 2 at the top aka Christine and Isabelle but I just found out before tribal that they're voting out Karen so I'm literally losing my closest ally and I'm getting left with a really tight, huge ass alliance still in the game because everyone is either thinking they're aligned with that group or are just afraid to go against them. ANYWAYS I should have let them vote out Sole and then tried to flip the 3 next tribal but anyways, I have to work even harder than before. Not having any pre-established friendships like everyone else is just AMAZING! My motto is it doesn't matter which placing you get if you can't set yourself up for the best possible position to get to the end. Connor is acting really shady so I don't even know if I can trust anyone else left in this game but yolo I'm fucked so I'm just going to try and flip things in a different way. I have to be more social though... disgusting... I'm literally so annoyed when people want to play the game for other people but whatever! I just have to try something else. I feel like MJ put it best about how I feel having to talk to this many people all at once... On 4/7/16, at 7:46 PM, MJ wrote: > me in the one world chat if I was in this cast: > > look. I do not have the patience, nor the mental/emotional capacity to talk to 19 other people everyday. just because this is one world does not mean I'm going to feel obligated to talk to each and every single one of your asses everyday. if you're not on my tribe, do NOT message me with some BULLSHIT small talk or I SWEAR I will get ur ass voted out so quick!!! #HotTeaOrNoTeaAtAll Me pretty soon:

(Y'all are ugly for doing that to my mom Karen tbh!!!!!)

i really did not want to vote karen :( i liked her a lot and now there is still a pair in this game and im just ugh

WOW. Um. Ok. I'm so glad that tribal's over with. Obviously I feel terrible for voting out Karen, especially with it being a unanimous vote? Like, that's a little sketchy for all that drama and than for everyone to just vote for Karen. A little annoying but moving on. That tribal pretty much made me realize I can't trust Connor under any circumstance, he's just so shady and with him throwing me and Isabelle's names under the bus as a duo and than Dan's name as well...I'm not here for it. If we lose this next immunity challenge I hope we can get him out ASAP. Also! We got a new member! Nick H. is now on Otago and Ryan is on Maori, which I mean, I was hoping we could get Ryan so that our old alliance could actually reunite, but Nick H. is fine too...I hope. I don't know exactly what he's thinking right now and honestly that's a little scary with what happened, but we'll go with it for now and hope for the best.

ok so i think if i were to make it to merge, which is probably soon like within a vote or two, i'm going to have a lot of options which is good! Isabelle, Sam, Sole (tho i don't trust him at all oops), Nick H, Callie, and Nick W. (it was a while ago but still) have all said they wan't to work with me and I have f2 with Callie so that is v dank. I've also been having some good conversations with Simon so there could be an option there as well. I dO nOt LiKe MaSeN aT aLl AnD i DoN't UnDeRsTaNd WhY hE hAsN't BeEn VoTeD OUT@!!!!@#EU he's so annoying in the one world chat i just.... i can't handle him he is too much for me

UGH this challenge is too easy to do well in!!! im not usually for throwing challenges, i usually see it as a cop out. but at this point in the game, the strategic sense in THROWING THIS CHALLENGE TO GET MASEN OUT IS ADFEBGHRBEHBEHGBERBFESBFE literally, he NEEDS to goooooo. and it's infuriating that people aren't seeing it. i approached simon and he said that "he doesn't want to be at risk" brah, the risk is when we're at merge next and masen has all the numbers AGAINST YOU! the risk is taking MASEN to the MERGE ! sarah would be the only person that would actually join me in doing this, but she has to sit out ugh im gonna try talk to callie, but she has been offline for like 6 hours, its weird, callie is never offline. i hope she is okay :/ so if this challenge is gonna get thrown, im gonna have to try something. so basically, the challenge is to find the episode of survivor that corresponds to the gifs. so what im doing is putting down the wrong episode in some catergories. i also plan on sending isabelle a sreenshot of our answers so she can correct her tribes, but that is on the cards to do tomorrow. ugh, lets just pray it works. and honestly, i LOVE masen, he is HILARIOUS!! i just really really wanna win this game LMAO and he has to much control of whether i win or not. because when he goes, i become closer to those such as ryan, calle and nick h maybe. also, after the call sarah and simon and i had the other day, i just went on call with simon and we touched base on a few things such as sarah's concern for callies trust. sarah said callie never responds to her or anything, and that is red flag GALORE for me. i NEEED callie to be more social with sarah, because i cant have sarah being rogue (pun aye) and making a move against callie. callie is my ride or die at this point and i might have to start doing some maneuvering, perhaps approaching masen if sarah is going to do something fishy. i LOVE sarah, but i can tell she is dangerous as heck, and she says im her #1, i just cant tell if she means it! she is an amazing liar (its kinda scary how good she is) so i hope im not one being lied to. i trust her tho, i do! i've blabbered on a lot her, so i may as well continue. ryan joined our tribe which im SOOOO thankful for! if nick h came, that would have been a tick for masen and masen must be weakened at this point. so having ryan come is great, even though i don't fully know where his head is at, i know it'd be easier to persuade him to be against masen as opposed to nick h. masen has told me that he plans on getting himself, callie, ryan and i together to take out simon, honey nooo, so even if ryan doesn't vote to take out masen, we'll still have numbers since callie and i wont be sticking by masens plan. i'd just prefer to not have any strain on the relationship between ryan and myself, and just have it feel really easy-going. because ryan has a lot of connection with the rebels, and they;re a danger at this point, even tho ryan has expressed how uninterested he is in working with them, if i betray him like they betrayed him, he could switch back to them on the DROP of a DDIME. i think that is all i got going on, sorry cooking with nick hasn't been here in a while, im on a diet where i starve myself, so eating and cooking isn't a part of my daily routine anymore. k bye.

oops I suck at confessionals sorry! So I've now lost two people who I really trust right in a row, Pippa and Karen. Aroha won immunity which was awesome but Maori lost and Pippa went home. Nick asked me what my opinion was on his vote but he was going between Ryan and Connor. In my opinion I would have just voted Ryan and not given it a second thought. But he felt more comfortable going with Sole, Ryan, and Jeremy who all told him he was voting Connor so that's what he did. Which prevented a tie since them three voted Pippa, Nick voted Connor, and the other two voted Ryan. To me that seemed so stupid but I told him that he should just go with his gut. Apparently my gut and his gut were on different pages and it completely screwed him over. Also, this just proves me to how much I CAN'T trust Dan. Which I kind of already knew but this solidified it. So after that we had the auction which big shock, I won nothing. My third auction and I've still never won anything. How upsetting. But we did end up swapping tribes again. Aroha was dissolved, how sad :( and it was once again just Otago and Maori. This time I ended up on Otago with Christine, Isabelle, Connor, Sole, and Karen. Pretty much immediately Karen approached me Isabelle and Christine wanting an all girls alliance which I was all about. Especially since I trust Karen and didn't want to see her just picked off because she was a rogue and we were all rebels. So us four girls decided to vote for Dan and Connor was also on board. Everything was all nice and dandy and whatever. Then the next day Karen came to me with these receipts of Isabelle basically being a cocky ass bitch. She thinks she's running this whole show and she thinks that her and Christine control my vote. Me? You think you're controlling me? We've literally had two votes. The first one I voted for Kiersten who you definitely did NOT tell me to vote for. The second one was Regan and we all agreed upon it. I didn't do it because you told me to. And even though I went to them asking if they'd want to flip the vote, I didn't do it because we didn't have numbers. So Karen suggested we take out Isabelle which honestly, I was all for. If Karen, Connor, and I all voted for Isabelle, Dan voted for whoever, and Isabelle and Christine voted for Dan it could have worked out. But I ended up having to tell Dan which was a terrible idea, since as I said earlier... I don't trust that binch for shit, but it kind of slipped out. Then immediately afterwards Isabelle and Christine began messaging... 

If Dan DIDN'T tell them then strike me down now with lightning because I DO NOT believe him when he says "of course he didn't tell them!" It was literally the most suspicious thing I've ever experienced ever. So then Dan reminds me about the idol that HAS to be played this tribal (and I'm also reminded that he still thinks I got the idol the first round oops). While talking to Simon about it he brings up the fact that it probably has to be someone who didn't get anything at the auction. That would leave me, Isabelle, Christine and Connor. So there's a 50% chance that if they know about the plan the idol is being played on Isabelle which could literally ruin everything. 

Then Dan is talking about how we're stuck in the middle again and need to decide what to do. Clearly, he's not on board with the Isabelle plan. For someone who says he trusts me he sure doesn't know how to just say "I don't think we should do that." Like damn dude if you just say, "I really think we should keep Isabelle around" I'd be LESS suspicious than when you're all wellllll I don't know! here are our options! What should we do? blah blah blah I'm being a bitch and dragging this thing out because I don't wanna say a name. In the end, everyone decides they wanna vote Karen. Dan tells me that Isabelle wants and she doesn't even tell me about it. I had to ask her if that was just what she was telling Dan or if it was serious. She was like "well at first it was just what I was telling him but I think we should?" which was honestly such bull. She was not planning on telling me about it and probably didn't want me to know. Then Christine came to me and was like "hey so I heard about this other plan to vote out Karen? would you be on board? I just wanna make sure you're comfortable" which was probably just a way to cover her ass since she didn't tell me either but like damn at least it was nice. Christine is honestly such a sweetheart so like at least her way of coming to me is nice and seems at least somewhat genuine. But anyways... Karen left on a unanimous vote which I felt awful about. She was so mad when she found out but I think she was also a little drunk so that could have been part of it. 

So while all of this was going on, Nick and Ryan were on exile waiting to come back to a tribe. After Karen's departure we get Nick!! Which is honestly best case scenario because I would so much rather work with Nick and Connor than Isabelle and Christine. Like Isabelle is fake and cocky as fuck and Christine seems to be wrapped around her finger. I'm honestly hoping we can merge after this immunity (that we hopefully win) and me, Nick, Connor, Simon, and some others can come together to take down the Isabelle, Ryan, Christine trio that Dan seems to think "won't be an issue". fhldskjflks some of these people are blind idiots. What we should have done once the Isabelle thing was leaked was flip our votes to Christine then convince Sole to vote with us on the revote and now I'm so mad we didn't. 

[4/25/16, 10:17:40 PM] connor: y'all wait for my confessionals, I have dragged some of them like no other [4/25/16, 10:18:59 PM] Dan: Hahaha yassss well i dragged you too so you just wait. literally if sole or isabelle do not go home at tribal i will ACTUALLY scream and i am not kidding

the otago curse continues!! we lost immunity and now an OG Rebel has to go home :( OKAY SO where I stand rn is: Alliance w/ christine and isabelle called 'leftover noodles' and alliance w/ Sam and Nick called 'senior citizens' and some long-standing mistrust with Connor :~) Last round, I convinced Sam to take out Karen instead of the noodles by planting the seed of fear against my totally fabricated but definitely believable creation - the POWER TRIOS: KMC (Karen, Masen, Callie) and RIC: (Ryan, Isabelle, Christine). These trios are defs not so clear-cut but I had to distance myself from them to make them a big target in this game.. *NOW* comes the #complication: 10mins before tribal, Sam told Connor about the plan to target KMC.. and he voted against Karen making it 5-1. Obv this built trust between the two. and GUESS WHAT CONNOR JUST SAID TO ME: 'I'm lowkey worried about the Christine/Isabelle/Ryan trio' UM... CAN WE PLEASE... TALK ABOUT THIS. I totally made up the idea of the RIC trio to distance myself from them in case they became a sinking ship come the merge - and I ONLY told Sam! THEREFORE: sam has clearly told Connor about the threatening trios and now he's using that argument with me??? And what's more?? He's telling Isabelle/Christine that they should vote against me... Connor is once again proving himself to be a messy strategic and social player who isn't afraid to throw my name out there. What he doesn't realise is that he needs me to stay in this round. I'm really inclined to fall back to the noodles as a safety net in case Sam comes for me. I don't like that I've discovered mistrust for Sam but it was inevitable. TANGENT: Sam is playing ~EXACTLY~ how I played in Galapagos/Machu Picchu: She is addicted to consensus, talks to everyone, gets overly paranoid, has the most connections in the game and plays both sides almost as well as I do. What I have that she doesn't is that I've learnt from my experiences and am changing the way I play. She'll be a target and I know exactly how to take her down when the time is right. Unfortunately, that time isn't now bc I have Nick to keep happy. 

So the rouges on my tribe are not the one big family everyone thought. On one side their is sarah and nick and they both want masen out. On the other side its masen and the other girl forgot her name who want nick out. Amd there is me and ryan in the middle. Um dont they realize they have the numbers together and can easily get me and ryan out. But hey their stupidity is my gain. And the best is masen and sarah and ryan all have 100 percent loyalty in me. So guess who is sitting pretty. This newbie right here. So lets let the rouges eat eachother alive because ill be there with the knife to stab them all in the back!! 

wow how unlike me to do a typing/text confessional but here i am! there are firsts for everything! i was uber positive that otago was gonna win the challenge yesterday just bc nick w literally leaked maori's list to me so he can throw the challenge and vote masen out. didnt work!! yikes!! so now here we are and im super nervous tbh bc i knew i was on the chopping block for the karen vote last round and apparently sam and connor were almost gonna vote me as well... here's the thing!! imma cut a binch before a binch cuts me so im ready to get rid of either of them this vote by all means oijdeowijfrf im just super nervous and if i get one inkling suspicion that im going home before the vote tonight, i will whip out this idol (~: this is literally why i dont do written confessionals (cause i am messy af) but i hope this works out!! dont wanna be last premerge boot!! 

i think i goofed and i told sole to vote isabelle but we were going to tell him christine but i def said isabelle so now if isabelle has idol lmao bye me, nick, or sam lmao

[7:12:39 PM] isabelle han: do we possibly know what nick's doing [7:13:38 PM] Sam: I have no clue? it seems like no one really  has a plan? [7:13:47 PM] Sam: but he might just do whatever majority's doing? [7:14:14 PM] isabelle han: this is so weird that noone has a plan [7:14:57 PM] Sam: right? like was today just a really busy day for everyone or something? [7:17:30 PM] Christine Wentworth: I guess so omg This seems fake but okay? I figured I should do one last confessional since I have a feeling its gunna be me tonight? I literally have no clue what the plan is and no one is really giving me anything to work with. I wish that Sole would get his head of his ass, honestly he needs to realize that Isabelle and Christine are threats, like everyone likes them, they know a lot of people, and they're tight with Ryan. If we could take one of them out I honestly think it would just be amazing! But if we can't take out one of them I honestly want it to be Sole because like he's shady and sketchy af but like if he went to them being all 'LOL SAM'S GUNNA VOTE YOU!!' I'm sure they'll do the same thing. And they're just dancing around the vote like this is the sketchiest thing ever. Apparently Dan was talking to Connor and wants to split the vote 2-2-2 and then vote on the revote in case an idol is played but like obviously he wants to split so he can flip to Isabelle and Christine and have it be a 3-2-1 vote... like yeah right guy no thank you This vote is just so stressful and I don't know what's going on but I feel like it's somehow gunna get all turned around me. Dan swears he hasn't heard my name but at the same time he swore he didn't Isabelle and Christine that I was gunna flip on Isabelle... okay sure... Anyways, its been fun, hopefully I get a chance to do another confessional (or accidentally blow off another confessional)

SO i might have to save voting out connor for a rainy day but I SWEAR TO AMELIA if he comes back to bite me in the butt ill scream. The girls, Isabelle and Christine, just have haven't been fighting enough for them both to stay. Sam and Nick need to be locked in and triple confirmed before a decision is made and the girls have simply neglected them imo.. It leaves me in a really tricky situation bc either we force a tie or I let one of them go and pray for forgiveness. It's not worth me trying to get Sam/Nick/Connor to split the vote and voting up the middle because I'll alienate Sam and her important connections to Aroha... At this stage I'm voting for Isabelle and hoping Christine will forgive me at the merge but we'll see how it goes down.. there's just a lot of uncertainty for me in this game and i dont like it. This game is all about hard decisions so I'm prepared for the consequences.

Okay so I've been trying to lay low and not talk to too many people because I don't want to be outed as playing both sides but Masen has been trying to get people to vote out Simon and Nick wants us to vote out Masen and I'm closely aligned with both of them.......... So I had to tell Masen not to campaign to Nick and Sarah because they like Simon so he went to talk to Jeremy about an alliance between them, me and Ryan. We ended up winning immunity anyways so we're safe from tribal and I'm hoping the other tribe does what I wanted last tribal but if not then at least I hope Connor is safe. He said that they were voting out Isabelle so if the whole thing from last tribal is finally working out then that would be ideal but who knows if they told him the truth. I feel like merge has to be after this possibly which isn't ideal because there's so many people I don't want here still in the game and I feel like I'm going to be at a numbers disadvantage on the side I want to be on but I'll have to try and work that out indirectly of course. The only thing I'm worried about is that Connor doesn't like Masen and I know he'd be hesitant to align with him especially if Nick W is on the other side but the thing is Nick W is aligned with a lot of people and we would be on the bottom of that alliance and targeted as soon as they get rid of the threats on Masen's side. If we're aligned with Masen then he'd always be a target over us but this game is literally full of people who would rather do what they want than listen to anyone else so I'm going to have to convince him that it's his best game move although I don't know if he would listen to me after our other season together.

20 minutes before tribal and we still dont have a name. help us

That tribal couldn't have gone any better. This newbie has been a part of two blindsides now and I am in it to win it.

So tribal happened like 5 minutes ago and I would just like to sit here for a minute while i rock back and forth thinking about how Pippa didn't deserve that.. It should've been connor but I though he had an idol so i went for the next best thing. I don't regret it as a move at all but Pippa is just so nice and funny etcetc and i feel bad it was her. That said I have to move on, namely to damage control. Nick was left out of the loop and he actually voted for Connor (which part of me doubted).. I'll need to work to regain his trust and hopefully he doesn't turn on me RIP. Even though I had to organise an underground coup, I now have control of Maori. I'm praying that the swap falls in my favour because I'm not ready to be screwed over by a twist! As for Connor, he should be scared rn but I hope he doesn't find the idol :~)

tag yourself, i'm one of connor's alliance members getting voted out while the other "alliance" member lied to him the whole time foR THE SECOND TIME IN A ROW. So, pippa and i voted ryan, ryan jeremy and sole said they were voting me to nick, so nick voted me, and then jeremy, ryan, and sole all voted pippa. like ok i cant be mad because i lied to them too but??? the fuck nick??? like we had an hour long call talking about loyalty and after tonights vote it'll show the loyalty and then nick bails the moment something may go wrong because he was afraid of a tie??? like go to tie city damn it what the FUCK.

So I come back from tribal just trying to sit and eat my coco puffs in peace, and out of no where Connor comes to me and is like " Why did you flip" "Why did you lie". Shut up Connor i know damn straight you and Pippa where telling everyone to do me at the beginning of the week. But I will lie and be like, “Oh, they manipulated me. I didn't want to vote Pippa out.” But in reality, Connor you gotta go next and you are my number one target. 

ft. bianca again cause why not

Sarah and i knowing each other really helps. Its nice having a familiar face at camp. We have game talks and once we are together this rebel and this rouge will take over this game. Returnees watch out these newbies are here to stay.

On 4/21/16, at 9:10 PM, Masen wrote: > Nick H and I are in LOVE and it will survive this exile mess. only if you're annoying bitch ass hasn't agitated everyone in the one world chat and you get voted out!!!! lets PRAY!!!!!

Bad news: i am on a tribe with all rouges Good news: i have sarah my ride or die and im away from psycho connor who i am pretty sure wants me dead. This swap can either help or hurt my game. But hey thats survivor for ya.

Confessional 5 https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Ub8y2YxFU0xVqs8mPRwexlEBf6pwgfVFSXz22ocDX1I/edit?usp=sharing

another idol! tribe swap! what!

I'm obsessed with this tribe swap honestly. Being with Isabelle again is amazing, I love her with all my heart and I'm so happy we still get to work together. Sam is amazing as well and I'm also reunited with Sole which is super exciting! Connor's iffy because we haven't talked in awhile. Finally we have Karen! I'm so excited to be on a tribe with her. Out of all the members of Otago, she was the one I talked to the most so this is amazing. If I actually got the idol at the auction I would play it on her in a heartbeat but unfortunately someone else must've bid on it. So...hopefully nothing crazy happens with that. But yeah, this swap couldn't have worked out any better for me. I really do think I'm in a good spot here and that could be my death sentence or whatever but I'm happy and I'm going with it. I can hear Pippa singing my swan song already. As of right now my goal is to make it to merge and work from there. I still need to step up my social game, as always, but I think I'm on the right path and I'm talking to the right people. I'm just hoping after this vote Ryan joins our tribe. Him and Isabelle are definitely the people I trust most here so to have us all together would be amazing. We'll just have to see how this immunity goes and hopefully I can figure things out!

more game talk has happened here than there ever was on the expand and i'm living for it. karen is a sweetheart. i really like her. she seems really nice and willing to play, but i'm not sure if she's only voting for me in order to keep herself here past this vote since she is the only OG Otago on this tribe. i hope she's being genuine, because i am sam and i are back!!! hooray!!!! love sam. sole still spooks me just because he keeps pleading loyalty to me but he does his own thing when and actual vote comes around, so i'm like???? ok??? what??? low key this tribe can be seen as two pairs (christine+isabelle and me+sam), and then sole and karen doing there own thing. i want to work with karen, but in order to get majority we would need sole too and that is just so spooky to me, considering that he has voted with the side i've voted against, twice. i might be able to be convinced to let be a number for a vote or two but him at the merge scares me and him betting back with ryan scares me. sole just in general scares me because i CaN't ReAd HiM!! still hope i am able to get to a point where i can work with Callie, because she has in my eyes proven her loyalty to me. not sure about nick??? we talked a lot in the first few days but we haven't talked a lot from there on so i'm not sure where he stands. i like him a lot as a person because he is SuPeR funny and chill but?? if you have someone who you wanna work with you keep talking to them. like he could at least snap me back once in a blue moon

Me before the results: *Says I'm in a good spot* My tribe: *loses the immunity challenge* Me now: *Is starting to panic big time*

i just really want sole gone but i have to convince literally the entire tribe to do it rip 

.....tribe swap.... okay it could have been much much worse - i've been put on a tribe of 4/5 noodles (sam, isabelle, me & christine) plus connor and then there's Karen. SO we lost immunity (which was fine for me) i feel bad for not being able to contribute but there was a big issue at my college that came up that i had to deal with. It was more important for me to be with my community than on skype so soz about it. the only wrench in the works is that an idol MUST be played this round... and Karen is the easy target for it to be used... so rn i would like to split the votes. 3 on connor (karen, and 2 noodles) and 3 on connor (connor and 2 noodles). that way if karen and connor realised they're on the bottom and link up it'll just be 2-2-2 and we can send whoever isnt saved by the idol home :~) im a bit suspect of connor just bc i voted against him last round and i feel like if he doesn't go home it'll really be the last straw for our relationship. either way whoever goes home will be replaced by either Nick or Ryan - my two closest allies in this game. I'd be totally okay with losing all immunities from here (assuming we merge at 12) bc that way karen and connor are out of the way and jeremy stays safe on NuMaori.. every tribal so far has seemed to take a turn for the worst and WHO'S TO SAY THIS WILL BE ANY DIFFERENT ???? im sitting here with fingers and toes crossed tbh

Yikes, ok so there are so many things happening at once and it's just whew. Ok, so Connor wants to vote Sole which I'm not here for. Sole wants to split the votes in case of the Haramau idol, which I'm also not here for. If I'm doing the math right, which I'm probably not but hear me out anyway, either Sam or Isabelle has the idol considering I bid all of my money on it and still didn't get it and since none of their names were on any of the bids while everyone else's were...I just hope I'm right cause I don't want anything crazy going on. At least it would be in good hands, but we'll see! Tbh I really want Connor to go but I don't know if I can get the majority on it at this point. I'm gonna see what I can do and go from there as long as it benefits Sole and the rest of the noodles moving forward.

[4/23/16, 6:50:45 PM] connor: what did the stick end up being? [4/23/16, 6:50:53 PM] connor: was it just a stick? [4/23/16, 6:51:25 PM] Dan: Ooohhh true I forgot about that! [4/23/16, 6:51:30 PM] Dan: Karen won it right? [4/23/16, 6:52:30 PM] connor: idk let me look [4/23/16, 6:53:00 PM] connor: yes it was [4/23/16, 6:53:08 PM] Dan: Oooo [4/23/16, 6:53:25 PM] Dan: I wanna know hahaha [4/23/16, 6:53:35 PM] connor: [4/23/16, 6:53:07 PM] connor: was the stick just a stick?? [4/23/16, 6:53:24 PM] karebear: yeah :/ [4/23/16, 6:53:29 PM] connor: rip [4/23/16, 6:55:27 PM] Dan: HA [4/23/16, 6:55:44 PM] Dan: Okay I'll ask later too and maybe we can get some info [4/23/16, 6:56:28 PM] connor: omg ok but i think it was literally a stick [4/23/16, 6:56:50 PM] Dan: Hahahah [4/23/16, 6:57:01 PM] Dan: It's probably an advantage in a challenge later on [4/23/16, 6:57:12 PM] Dan: They did that in my last season DUDE MOVE ON ITS PROBABLY JUST A STICK!!!!!

https://youtu.be/JUMUz_ESHU4

Ok! So, I'm back with good news and bad news. Good news: Isabelle has the special idol! Bad news bears: Both me and her are supposedly being targeted. Like, I hate this so much. Apparently we're being viewed as some kind of tight duo? And supposedly Karen is the one targeting me? THE GIRL I WANTED TO SAVE? I can't. I'm really hoping Sole stays on our side and we can actually get Connor out. I just...oh my gosh I can't even put into words how stressful this situation is. Sam is the whole stressful part of this honestly, like, I don't know what she's thinking and I don't know whose side she's actually on. She's playing a very dangerous game right now. Me and Isabelle haven't given her a reason not to trust us and so I don't understand this at all. I just don't know what it is with Sam's and not wanting to trust me tbh. Like this happened in Egypt too where another Sam would say one thing and then do the complete opposite against me. Like, this recurring pattern needs to stop please and thank you! But things keep changing so much honestly. Like even as I'm writing this Sole wants me and Isabelle to vote for Karen instead, which is fine NOW considering she wants me out but like, I just really want Connor gone. He's so sketchy and I don't wanna keep him around, especially when we're so close to the merge. I just gotta go with whatever benefits me at this point, and if that means getting Karen out, that's just what has to happen. Ugh.

wow the fuck. k so, the tribe swap happened and i pretty much had a really solid thought it was gonna happen after that auction. at the auction i won bat stew or some bullshit, and i was hoping that meant like so fucken.. idk immunity advantage but NOPE it was just bat fuckng stew. shoutout to isabelle for making me pick #6 :* tribe swap worked out PEEERRRRFECTLY tho on my tribe i have sarah (who im very solid with), callie (who iM SOLID AS FUCK WITH), simon (very solid), masen (thinks we're solid o.O but he is a huge no for me), and jeremy (never spoken to but i heard he is loyal af) and right now, since the new tribes im in 4 fucking alliance chats in 48 hours I have one with sarah, callie and simon. this is like the main one, and its basically to hatch our plan to get rid of masen i have one with sarah and jeremy, which is just an allinace to get jeremy to do what we want him to do i have one with simon and sarah. this idk about it, i prefer having callie in the mix, but it's good for now. all i want is masen gone then i have the one with masen and callie !!! masen made there coz he thinks we're solid YIKES i SOOOOOOOO badly wanted to throw the challenge and dispose of masen for good, but everyone was like "nah hold up on that" which i was like, okay, but we're throwing the next one. i think its important if we stay in tribes after this, that we throw for 2 reasons. 1- masen needs to be out before merge. he has too much pull on to many people 2- my #1 isabelle :* has the harimau idol for this round only, she's in deep shit this tribal but is thankfully gonna play that idol. if that tribe goes to tribal again, isabelle could go home and i need her. but i was on call with my alliance of sarah and simon, and i realised how controlling they were. sarah was hatching all these plans which weren't as beneficial as i would have liked them to be for my game, maybe they were good for our alliance, but i have other alliances that come before this one. eg. my one with isabelle and christine, and my alliance with callie. so, i think its important to stay flexible and not get stuck up in the alliances i have now, especially with sarah and simon. i trust them 100%, don't get me wrong, but i think it's a bad move taking them far into the merge. so basically they're good for now, but they're ties im gonna have to cut away at some point also, ILY SIMON, i actually love him, but i been telling him all this juicy tea all this goss, and he tells me NOTHING. and if he does it's coded as fuck. he told me he was "hearing from someone" isabelle is a target for this tribal, and i asked him "who dis someone!!!???" and he kept changing subject. so thats shady, but i can tell he trusts me. its probs smart not telling me tho, coz i will 10/10 tell at least 3 people minimum, but its annoying for me coz i wanna know everything.. i gotta go to werk now, i hope karen goes this tribal due to isabelles idol, becuase she'll never have proper convo's with me, but expects me to be in her alliance. i don't need that. if not, i hope connor goes so i don't have to deal with blindsiding him again rip. okay bye

[02:27:18] Nick Wentworth: KAREN JUST MESSAGED ME ASKING FOR AN IDOL IM TEARING UP Oh, how the turns have tabled.

https://youtu.be/LTgK0vYxBco

Also this was filmed before I knew any tea on the other tribe.

Reegan: Pippa where my idol at? Me: Awww I dont have one I'm sorry but thanks for having faith in me lol Me: Maniacal Laugh Gotta play for yourselves kids!

Maori keeps on winning, so I keep on relaxing! I'm trying to work on the new idol now that Nick has told me the clue - ideally i can get him, Ryan and I into an alliance so i don't need to worry about playing both sides or anything.. The noodles are still alive on Aroha and Sam didn't do anything crazy so that's a plus! all i want is for Aroha to lose again and either Sarah or Nick to go home... I don't want Otago to lose bc Simon is on the bottom and he's just waiting to break out of there. Regan was just sent home and im happy about it - the Rogues are flopping!! Is anyone surprised???

Not going to tribal i think is making everyone go crazy. No one knows where they are in the tribe. Tribals are good to showing if you are on top or the bottom. So not going is terrifying. Idol mania is real.

that vote im-

fhdshfksal not miss me getting the INVISIBLE AS HELL edit! Yikes Okay so honestly not too much has happened. Aroha won a couple in a row so we didn't really do much and it was pretty boring. I made no alliance chats, which scares the hell out of me, and no one was super active or anything. But anyways so Aroha = boring oh well. Otago though seems messy af. From what I've gathered, Masen SEEMS to be running the whole show over there but it's actually Karen. Masen has put a massive target on his back already and it seems like they threw two challenges in a row. When Austin got voted out apparently whoever (Masen I think) submitted the list of songs they sent in a different list than the one they originally had and ended up losing by 1 point. So yeah Austin was obviously on the bottom so they got rid of him. To me that seems dumb because the best move is always to scoop up the people on the bottom. They've got no where to go and they're gunna be super loyal to you? Austin and Simon were together so all they needed were two people (Kendall and Callie perhaps?) to flip and vote with them. But obviously that didn't happen. 

Then Masen started the counting challenge when NO ONE WAS ONLINE! It took them over 23 hours and they never finished!! Like seriously? If they weren't throwing it that's just so pathetic. Simon thinks they did it to vote him out. But lucky for Simon "someone" gave him an idol! He asked in the one world chat for someone to give him and idol and apparently they did. He played it on himself but still kinda got screwed over. He voted for Karen, Karen voted for Kendall, and Kendall voted for Simon, despite Simon trying to save her by telling her to vote for Callie. So after everything went down and Kendall got voted out , I talked to Simon about what had happened. He ended up telling me that what happened. The idol he played WAS HIS IDOL! I'm snatched. He said someone else gave him an idol but at one point he also said that his idol was the only one? I think he's pretending someone gave him one so he can still have another one up his sleeve if he needs it. But we've decided we're gunna work together because 1. no one would see it coming. Like when have we EVER interacted?! 2. we have some kind of strange bond where we both really trust each other and I really do trust him. He told me all the stuff about the idol and I didn't tell anyone about it. When he was telling me I thought I would actually tell Nick Hammond about it because he's pretty much my number 1 but I didn't. I've decided I'm gunna keep him secret. I've got Simon and Nick and they're both really great. I 100% trust both of them and I hope they both feel the same about me. 

So anyways Aroha did finally lose so we're off to tribal. Nick had mentioned to me that he wanted to work with me once we finally went to tribal and Regan told me that I had better work with her. Then I had Isabelle and Christine which honestly kind of worried me. I had lied to them after the first vote so I wasn't sure if they were really gunna vote with me or try to vote me out. I figure either way Nick or Regan would tell me if my name came up. Sarah seemed really sweet but I really never talked to her much so I don't know where her head is at. So anyways, after we lost I was talking to Nick he pretty immediately was throwing Regan under the bus which to me I was all for. I didn't wanna be the one to throw out a name and I didn't wanna have to flip on my fellow rebels. If a rogue was willing to get rid of another rogue I'm all for it. So yeah it was all nice and dandy minus Regan freaking out to everyone asking for an idol and trying to get people to flip but NOT giving a name! She kept asking me to vote for someone else but wouldn't tell me who. Like I can't switch if you don't have a plan sorry. So finally like twenty minutes before tribal I'm just out with friends and Regan starts trying to put a plan together to save herself and asks me to ask Isabelle or Christine about voting out Nick so I'm like running around trying to ask Isabelle and Christine if they want to save Regan or not. It kind of turned into a mess but like we all voted for Regan in the end and she ended going home after for Christine (not even Nick like she asked me to!). *sorry this confessional was super messy and disorganized 

a little anecdote for u

lowkeyyyyy cant stand pippa rn coz fashionist is a word just because it comes up on one unreliable af website, but DICTIONARY.COM AND OXFORD AND MAC ALL SAID IT WAS NOOOOTTTTTT HA lucky we still won coz i would have rioted the fuck out. i think sam will go if we go to tribal in our tribes rn. the alliance between me, isabelle and christine is SOLID AS, and i know sarah would stick with us. i looveeee but i love sam, it'd be sad to see her go if we stay in our tribes and this happens. but i think a tribe swap is coming next. rip i really dont want any rogues on my tribe

Maybe this tribal is what this tribe needs. Its time for games to be exposed and i cant wait to taste the tea

I'm so pissed right now for many reasons 1. Fashionist is a word so forget you go home goodbye 2. Masen needs to stop being an arrogant asshole because it's getting tiring. We KNOW your tribe did well now shut the fuck up (when these are posted ill probably not be mad so lets forget im saying this) 3. We lost immunity by one point. ONE FUCKING POINT. They could've done 15 more of the word games in 5 minutes but basically refused to and we lost by one point. If I didn't know teddy, connor, and amelia and I didn't know they had sense, I would accuse them of rigging since my tribe hasn't been to tribal yet. There were some BS words in that game and man oh man and I just livid. 4. I want Ryan gone but he's a big help in challenges and such. If everyone conveniently agrees on Jeremy, I'd probably say yes. It's not because he's inactive because that's not the case, It's just because he's an easy target which is unfortunate. Nick also scares the shit out of me because im 99% sure that he's aligned with Ryan but don't wanna make any assumptions. 5. I s2g if one more person says I sound like a goat when I sing (even when im messing around) I'm going to flip my shit. Its stupid to get mad at but I have this complex where, if you tell me I suck at something, I'll just throw back my talent at your dumb face. I can actually sing really well but I'm not gonna throw it back at you like a prissy princess. This especially applies to stupid Masen. 6. I DONT WANNA VOTE ANYONE OUT GD

We won immunity!! Thank god because if we had lost I would have been PISSED! I'm not gunna lie, I'm still pretty pissed about how long I was the only one doing the challenge. And even closer towards the end when it was SO CLOSE one or two people would try every now and then but they were never anywhere close to getting a point. Like okay I ended up sleeping all of 2 hours because I started doing this challenge and couldn't let myself go back to sleep since Sarah was leaving and it's best to have 2 people so there's a possibility to get 3 points per round. But apparently no one cared about leaving alone for like 12 hours. But I guess it doesn't matter because we won and this hopefully proves that I'm an asset to my tribe (and not put a target on my back). I'm glad we won but I'm definitely bummed that Maori has to go to tribal since Nick H is on that tribe and I definitely don't want him to go home. Then the rest of my alliance, Pippa and Connor, but I don't talk to them or click with them as much as I do with Nick. But obviously I don't want them to go home either. From the sounds of it, it'll either be Ryan or Jeremy. Ryan would be their smartest move in terms of long run future game but Jeremy is dead weight. He doesn't do much, he doesn't talk much, he's definitely the opposite of the other newbie Sarah. Plus Ryan put a lot of effort into the challenge today so they feel bad voting him out which I get. I was honestly trying to figure out what I would do if we lose (because it really looked like it was gunna happen since we were down by 10 not one but two separate times). I've got Christine and Isabelle now and we easily have numbers but  honestly it seemed like Christine put in no effort to this challenge especially after she said she had the day off so she'd be around all day. Like okay but where were you Christine? And Nick and Sarah put in a lot of effort the night it started going into the morning. I'm just glad we won so I didn't have to worry about it. I'm just really hoping that we swap next and that I DON'T get screwed over by it. I'm just glad I don't have to worry about going to tribal because frankly I'm tired as fuck and would not be able to handle figuring out what to do. 

So not much has happened after Aroha voted out Regan. She asked for an idol to which I honestly replied that I didn't have one. Then there was the reward challenge which Simon won and he never shared the clue so I followed him since I knew everyone else would be asleep and it'd be him. There's a 25% chance that he may have found another idol. http://images.yuku.com.s3.amazonaws.com/image/gif/bc6368619c3bad1da036f84dc31c9d9fc21faabc_r.gif I made an offer of working with him and dumping Karen and Masen but mostly just because I just want to make sure I'm aligned with as many people as possible when a swap or merge comes which will help me connect with even more people. We won the immunity challenge so we won't have to worry about tribal but I'm a little worried about Connor. I'm hoping he'll make it through. I feel like the swap could be after this tribal since it'd be an even amount to make two tribes and I'm kind of nervous but I hope I'll be on a tribe with majority, if not then I can talk my way out of it hopefully. I'm really close with 4 people (group 1), then good with another 3 (group 2) and from those 7, I can assume that they're close with each other and another 4 people (group 3) leaving out 3 people (group 4). I feel like I'd be in danger if there's not atleast one person from the first group on my tribe and also if it's a majority of the third and fourth groups. Highkey, I don't feel confident at all in my position since most of these people have prior friendships coming into the season but..... we'll see. http://33.media.tumblr.com/4294e823e573379c3ed08229d3426118/tumblr_inline_nooczaEtDg1sbxwx7_500.gif

soooo my tribe finally lost ! i saw it coming a mile away bc i really wasnt trying uber hard, i actually wasnt opposed to the idea of losing because it's important to lock in some trust before a swap happens (which im assuming will happen next round at F14). BUT just because i was expecting it, doesn't make it easy. As it stands, Ryan and Nick seem to have my back, and I have a good working relationship with Jeremy too. Connor and Pippa are still suss of me bc of what went down when Kiersten went home (and that i actually voted against pippa lol). Talking to everyone, I think Jeremy is the easy vote; he's not super active and he doesn't help a whole lot in challenges.. which is sad but also keeps me safe without any blood on my hands! Connor is SO SHADY and tbh i'm **thiiis** close to gunning for him. He apparently said to Ryan it's either 'sole or jeremy' in his opinion and so im like...okay.... PLUS he's super close to Pippa (power couple???), may have the idol, is generally shady, and seems to want to really play the game.. All of this makes him stand out so i guess he has a right to be scared. The only down side to taking Connor out is that it would piss Pippa off going into a potential swap, and I think people underestimate the power of unity in a game that's still very tribe-based. At this stage, I'm all about mounting a well-coordinated attack on the rogues later in the game so i kinda want an alliance that can fend for itself on an individual level. Plus i guess the more threats i keep in the game, the more cover i have for later on. FOR NOW imma sleep and then make sure i'm safe for later on. ideally pippa would say 'oh hey let's take out connor' but since that is ~just a little~ unlikely, i might have to make a decision between making waves or going with the flow! PRAY FOR ME

so after teddy called me out for not doing more confessionals im doing one everyday from here on out even if it's just a meme ok literally me alliance of nick an pippa still haven't decided how we're voting tonight in FIVE HOURS like ohhhhh my god we're such a mess. sam was the only who could really see into the future of the game and she's not voting with us so that's super spooky and idk. i think it's going to be jeremy or sole, and i feel bad if it were to be jeremy because he is a new player (maybe) so SUPER SPOOKY!!!! but Sole hasn't really contributed as much to our tribe but neither has jeremy too much so literally who knows whats going to happen also i can't believe tribal is live i have to do my hair now :/

To me its down to pippa or ryan tonight. I dont trust ryan he just gave me a bad vibe that i dont trust and Pippa has too many allies and if their is a tribe swap that is scary to me but i need to be smart about this. But oh how the game has changed. I have pippa and connor telling me to vote out ryan and i have sole and ryan coming to me wanting to get connor out. Me and nick have the power tonight so game on

oooookay so Sole is in motion baby! I didn't want to play this hard so early but if you kick a hornet's nest expect to be stung. I was all for taking Jeremy out peacefully - like i said: unity is underestimated - but then Connor and Pippa have decided to change it to Ryan. No bueno. Now I'm using the time I put into Jeremy (I seem to be the only one???) to keep him on my side as a 3rd vote with myself and Ryan. There are a few things I need to lock down now: 1- will Nick force a tie or side with me and 2- out of Connor (who is shady etc) and Pippa (who isnt responding to me), who do I target? I think Nick is more likely to vote Connor but I think he's more likely to have the idol so we'd have to take him out quietly. Honestly I'm confident there will be three votes for Connor and it'll be up to Nick to flip. tbh I just hope I'm not swapped into a tribe with only Pippa to rely on... because we all know how that would turn out.. (not well for me).. That's the tea on the Maori tribe rn - i just hope ryan comes online so i can fill him on how to not go home this round :) 

Ok! So thankfully everything worked out at the last tribal and Regan went home. Was I surprised Regan voted for me? I mean, a little bit. Like, Sarah told me that she mentioned me and Nick's names but then Sam put me and Isabelle in a group chat saying she was going after Nick and so I was just like??? Thankfully she didn't have an idol and thankfully I don't have to go to tribal again to deal with another mess like that. I'm just worried that Ryan and Sole are going to get targeted, like they're the only ones I really trust over there so hopefully they're able to pull something together. I'm also kinda freaking out cause the merge is coming up soon (or maybe a swap idk) and I feel like I need to talk to a lot more people than I have been honestly. I kinda really want to talk to Masen and see where his head is at because apparently he's leading everything over at Otago and I'm just kinda curious. On the other hand I feel like I should probably focus on the rebels for now though, especially after this tribal. But yeah, for now I'm just hoping everything works out for Ryan and Sole and I'll work from there I guess!

rip ryan 2k16?

If this blindside works it will be beautiful. Bye pippa. 

My heart hurts for Kendall and I promise I will try to avenge her. I hope I have the chance to eliminate Karen or Masen because I'd certainly take that opportunity. I really wanna know who was generous enough to give Simon an idol???? I hope they're in a really good position in their tribe to be able to do that. I am praying to god that there is no swap....I don't want to get out Ryan right away anymore as I'm sure everyone else wants Jeremy gone. I feel bad because he's a newbie, but I can't go against anyone this early. I know that if I'm actually in a really bad position, I have my idol to use but I was hoping to save that for merge. G O D this game is so stressful please snap me in half.

Okay so that tribal was ugly like all the others ones. I mean I like Simon but I don't think he would include me in any of his plans. Literally, all he had to do at the beginning was give me any sort of information that showed he trusted me because now he's just telling me stuff cause he literally has nothing to lose. He did say that he wanted to vote out Karen just because he knew I was close with her and that I'd vote with her over him. Anyways! I feel so bad that Kendall ended up leaving,

she was so nice and I found her hilarious!!!! :( The thing is she kind of knew that she was in trouble because Simon told me that Masen once said to Simon "you're leaving before Kendall" and that's why she tried campaigning to me by telling me that I was on the bottom along with her. Also, why would anyone go around telling people they're next... I don't get it. First, I heard it from Austin and now from Simon saying that Masen said it to them... mess. Simon posted a speech asking for an idol in the one world chat and that the person would "secure a future ally" so he's basically just confirming the obvious thing that he's flipping, I mean why would he not when he's obviously on the bottom of our tribe. I don't get why someone would give him an idol when there's no guarantee that he makes it through to a swap or merge but there's a slim chance we might win immunity for once unless someone throws it. :| I feel like there's the small chance that Kendall could've told Simon that when she was campaigning to me that I wasn't very receptive towards the idea of voting with Simon so I think he's onto me but is playing it off like he doesn't know. I'm going to try and see if he'll spill who gave him the idol. Also, I want to distance myself from Karen and Masen a little so I'll just pretend like I had a small argument with Karen cause I'm extra like that and I'm hoping Simon will believe that and open up a little more. Hypothetically, if it came down to the 3 of us, Masen would try to get rid of me but I'm not sure about Karen. She did ask if we should keep Kendall or Masen if it did tie this time but it could be to throw me off about being at the bottom of the 3. I'd think it'd be dumb for her to keep Masen over me just for the fact that I've been completely honest with her and Masen hasn't at least from what we've been hearing but then again he's like a shield come swap/merge. Also if we go to tribal again, I'm a little nervous because if they think Simon has an idol then Simon would vote Masen (or Karen) and Masen would tell me and Karen to vote for Simon while Masen would vote for me just in case of the idol. Then if he did have an idol, it'd be a tie between me and Masen or me and Karen. Simon would keep me I think and Masen would keep Karen unless he can't sway Simon to change his vote because then Masen would be rocked out by default//and Karen would keep me just so we wouldn't have to go to rocks. Unless, Simon votes Masen or Karen and I vote Simon but then Karen and Masen vote for me for the fear of another idol. I think I'd be okay hopefully, also I might just vote out Masen with Simon if I feel like they're being shady and then if Masen doesn't vote Simon out with Karen and votes for me instead then it'd be his own fault for getting voted out. I've been able to avoid getting votes at all the tribals so far because I've been playing the middle just for the fact that I need all of them to think I'm on their side come swap/merge time so I'm covered on all sides and they'll go after each other. Kendall thought I was the newbie in the game for the longest time. jfhdaghfja I mean if I'm really that irrelevant that no one knows anything about me then my strategy is working whew. Anyways, me overanalyzing every little thing makes me look crackdt in here. Although, I feel like everyone in this game is becoming slightly less sane day by day.

Part 1: https://youtu.be/D1_2UWooVZg

Part 2: https://youtu.be/wNC6jbYVv-g

ITS FINE IM FINE HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHiwJIEJwofWIJROFIjewovhriuvjfiowe

Not playing in a challenge is hard. I am really competitive and i feel like a fire that is about to explode. I also feel like if we lose i am an easy target for tribal but hey i will not go down without a fight and i am a rebel but i will be rouge if i have to. i am feeling really iffy with my position on this tribe. I feel like connor, nick, and pippa are a solid trio. I feel like sole and ryan are close. So i am gonna try and find the cracks in these groups and turn the duo against the trio. Because then i have the power to either make a tie or be part of the majority. Sometimes you have to play dirty. I am gay and not gonna lie nick is kind of hot. I am not gonna tell him of course. But pippa has been flirting with me lately so i might as well flirt back ;)

Oh gosh not Aroha finally going to tribal! We were so close too, I hate. I'm honestly so nervous about tribal. Like, I trust Isabelle 100% but the other day Sole told me that Nick and Regan wanted to work with Sam? So I'm not really sure what to think of Nick right now. Regan on the other hand....still has not responded to my earlier message from the start of the swap and it's like I don't wanna be that annoying person that piles up message after message in PM's but...I guess I'm gonna have to? I don't know at this point. OH, also I've come to the realization that Sarah is one of my favorite people in this entire cast, like she's hilarious. Hopefully we can work together on this vote or something. I guess through process of elimination, Regan would be the best person to go at this point but I'm just so paranoid about idols, especially with what happened with Simon at the last tribal. Like, I don't wanna be the one in trouble in case Regan actually does have the idol, you know? Hmm, maybe things will change but I guess we'll see.

I-Oh my gosh. Regan just messaged me saying she knows she's going and I'm just so...ugh. Tribal always makes me feel like such a terrible person, even though I obviously don't want to be the one going I still feel bad...I don't know, I need to get over it but oh well. Also I realized I haven't looked for the idol this round and I probably can't now cause that would make me look so sketchy so I don't know what to do. Like, I don't wanna waste an opportunity but at the same time I don't wanna get caught and targeted if that makes any sense...Maybe I'm just a paranoid mess at this point but whatever. 

idk if I explained that well, but basically.... 1) I use the receipts from my ACTUAL idol to pretend I found the tribe idol and scare everyone with a FAKE idol. 2) Make a group chat with Karen/Callie and tell them about the idol. Tell them I'm putting my vote on Karen, but they can save her if they put both their votes on Masen. (Cause if they voted me the idol would negate the votes and Karen would go home.) 3) Tell Masen the girls are voting him and tell him the only way he's staying is if he votes Karen and forces a tie to send Callie home. 4) All the votes are off me, but to play it safe I would then vote Masen. THEREFORE: If they tried to vote me, they'd be the ones going home cause they were at risk. I also always forget to mention, but how great a game is Callie playing? Like she's doing that UTR shit I dreamed of pre-season, so GG girl.

Ugh, I feel like such a hypocrite for not messaging Regan back but at this point there's really nothing left to say. Anytime I try to send her something positive she just shoots me down. She also called out our entire tribe in the one world chat saying that we hate her? Oh and apparently I'm kinda fake but ok. I honestly adore Regan but at this point she's not doing anything to help herself and I don't know what else to do. Like, maybe I'd consider it if the first time she started messaging me wasn't when she found out she was leaving, but oh well. Hopefully tribal actually goes the way it's supposed to this time and I don't make myself look like a total idiot through these past few confessionals like I did during the Kiersten vote, but I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

Okay so I thought I would be targeted just for submitting the list when no one else was going to? Since we lost and then there were a bunch incorrect but Austin was still campaigning to me and Kendall mostly and then somewhat to Karen to get Masen out. It's just from everything I've heard about Austin, it's a little hard to trust him based on the fact that I heard he flips a lot all the time and he's really good at campaigning. Also, Masen will always be a bigger target in front of me. 

Masen also checked in and everything just to see if we were all voting his way and Austin was also checking in with everyone. Then at tribal since it was live, I told Simon just before that we were actually voting out Austin just so he might have some trust in me although Kendall could have told him beforehand about the plan so I mean that can bite me in the ass later. I think Kendall ended up sharing the idol clue with everyone but Masen at this point. She told Austin or Simon who told the other probably and then she told Karen who told me. So that's a mess within itself. I'm hoping we don't lose soon because I honestly like Simon, we have a bunch in common, he's super nice and always tries to talk to me even though I don't know how loyal he would be to me going forward because he could always have a few friends on the other tribes. Although, from what I've heard, I know that he talked to everyone, except Masen and probably Karen since the original tribes. Also, I don't want to lose Masen because even though he's being super shady all the time, I know he wouldn't vote me out just for the fact that I've been voting with him and also if we tribe swap or merge that he would always be targeted before me I would assume. Anyways, I know as much as I'm in a good position right now, I feel like if we do swap or merge any time soon that I wouldn't fare as well but I think I can try to make stronger connections with the people I'm good with now and there's always the chance that they form bonds with the others and bring me along which I like because I can always use this against them later and always play the I'm at the bottom card to everyone which is somewhat true.

Man oh man is this game great. Dan just did our reward challenge for us and only lost by 1 point but we beat going to tribal before and I believe we can do it again. Connor is still talking about the idol but I still have it and I STILL feel bad. Sam is talking about letting Regan join our ranks but she literally left the challenge and got a 0. Also I just don't think having her with us is the best move. I'm talking to Connor on the phone but I actually cannot hear him and I'm just humming along. I pray to the lords above that the next immunity will not be survivor trivia because I cannot do it. This is a super bad confessional but there is nothing interesting going on right now. The target is still Ryan and I hope everyone else still agrees.

DID I JUST LOSE THE COLOURING-IN REWARD CHALLENGE TO A COLOURBLIND ROGUE???? okay so like no hate to Masen, and i don't mean to be ableist or anything but like it was in the palm of my hand and... imma need a stress nap. I had the right answer written down but didn't see it until after which only adds to the frustration.. *breathes deeply* but it's okay because Regan quit the challenge and i got second and an clue to the location of the idol! I shared it with Ryan and Nick (but they both think they're the only one) as a way to try and solidify trust as well as increase my chances of finding it :~) so far so good im still trying not to be voted out so fingers crossed.. OH the immunity challenge just got posted! All i got to say is BRING ON THE WINE

Confessional 3 (supes late) https://docs.google.com/document/d/1GJw6iyj60AHKsEuZn_haB3mFexDELGchKwRRnKe5OFE/edit?usp=sharing

ANYWAY i hate this challenge & i hate masens dumb ass for starting so early even tho we had like a whole day????! like he rushed right into it, its super sus if you ask me *eyes emoji*. I'm almost positive that we're going back to tribal, and as tempting as voting out masen is, he is for sure a bigger target than callie, kendall and I so keeping him would be beneficial for now at least, i mean even if we do lose again I have kendall and callies vote for sure to elim masen, hopefully he doesnt have an idol tho. also keeping simon would be (bike) bc if theres a swap coming any time soon then i'm almost certain he'd flip on old otago. I've searched almost every part of treemail so either i find it after next tribal or its in the meadow or forest somewhere. hopefully callie or kendall find it tho, bc right now they're my #1 & #2

When my tribe starts the challenge earlier than we were supposed to and Regan comes in and starts freaking out at us. Yikes. Apparently she messaged Nick and Sarah about it but not me? Like, I'm on this tribe too? I mean obviously I don't want her to freak out on me but it just makes me wonder, like, am I nonexistent to her? Or what? Who knows. I'm just super worried about this challenge though and with Sam busy I'm super scared about how she's gonna react to this. Hopefully things work out and we won't have to worry about tribal.

So after the challenge i am pretty sure my tribe thinks i am some clueless freak who has no idea what he is doing so he need directions. It just where i want them. The stupider they think i am, the less threatening i become. Something about Ryan just rubs me the wrong way. I feel really awkward talking to him and moving forward with him he makes me feel really nervous. I would really like to see him go sooner then later. 

This immunity was a mess and it's literally Masen's fault, like Kendall told us that she wouldn't be able to compete until the morning but Masen without even asking anyone if we could start just goes ahead and start it. GOD. Karen and Simon said that it seemed like he wanted to throw it which honestly makes sense since he knows that Simon doesn't like him and would align with someone else come merge time. I really wanted to win this immunity because I felt like everyone on my tribe had my back to some extent.. like Simon trusts me but that's because there isn't much for him to pick from. I really enjoy talking to Simon, like I hope we're friends outside of the game after this. I just wish we had aligned at the beginning rip. It's just that Simon hasn't given me much information before he was in trouble and now he still hasn't given me much and also there's the obvious thing that he would flip on us if there was a swap or merge. He MAY include me in his plans but I know that he wants Masen and Karen out but I need Karen because she gives me a lot of information and Masen tells her things which some of that comes back to me. I had to tell Simon he had my vote just cause of an idol so he said he was going to try and get Kendall's vote but I mean even if we tell him we're voting with him, would he really not use an idol... cause we told Austin that we were voting with him which I told Simon last minute that the plan had "changed" just for trust purposes. He also asked if I had heard the idol clue from Masen which Karen told me but I said I hadn't. He asked if he should go to the forest and I said yeah, that or the meadow and told him Nick said he checked the rock which is true, but I also said Karen said she checked the vine which is a lie because that's the only place in the meadow that hasn't been checked. He said he'd go to the meadow so there's a greater chance that he won't find an idol but would I believe anything someone's telling me in this game especially if we haven't been aligned officially, probably not. I don't want to give him too much false hope because it makes me feel bad but he keeps messaging me and I don't like ignoring messages. Me telling him he had my vote was mostly so he doesn't use an idol and he doesn't blow up my game at tribal which is going to be live for the other people to listen to, also he can probably just assume that I wanted to keep him but Kendall didn't. I feel like Kendall also feels on the bottom and is just sticking with us until a swap or something comes but Karen said that she's usually loyal if you give her a little information..... but I mean there has to be a reason she's on the rogues tribe... is anyone really trustworthy? idk Also I can't stop thinking about the time when Masen added the wrong Nick to our alliance chat... like I'm not sure if Nick H is close with Christine since they played on the same season but like there's a possibility he told someone. Also, everyone is grouping Karen, Masen and I together which could be bad for us but I think I have a plan that might work if we do get targeted but also they'd go after Masen first and that's why we're keeping him around although, everyone is smart enough to know that Masen is a big target already and target Karen or I instead. Since I have 2 people from my season also here and Karen knows a lot of people, and the fact that we look like a duo. I still have faith that in this point in time it'd be either of them 2 first before me. http://45.media.tumblr.com/18c6860c312a56badc1ddb47a9bf8d67/tumblr_nal1qonVV91sqbiv1o4_250.gif Realistically, I have absolutely no confidence in my game which I never do cause I'm a paranoid ass but in Palawan I knew that I could sway people just because there were no friendships coming into the game but we'll see. I know that one person is connected to a lot of people so I'd probably try to get them out somehow when possible. I'm just trying to think from the connections I do have, how that can connect me with others and further me. It's just that everyone in this game is more stubborn than a regular season on wanting to do what they want (rogues!) so I'm going to have to make them believe that what I'm telling them is the best thing for their own game. I'm kind of nervous if we swap or merge because the people that I'm aligned with are somewhat after each other but we'll see what happens. There's been a lot going on in my life so I've been kind of distant but I'm going to try and talk to people more now hopefully.

Top 16 baby!! Maori crushed the immunity challenge once again which is a huge relief for me, and what's even better is that Aroha won too so all of my Rebel friends are still in the game. Am I surprised that Otago lost again?? Um no bc lord knows rogues are messy anyway.. Callie and Masen scare me on a game level, and Kendall scares me on a life level, so I'm happy to see them vote someone (probs Simon) out. Our team worked really cohesively and i'm loving just being able to bond as a team rather than stress about the vote but i'm definitely not losing sight of having the numbers. The tension between Pippa and I is fading and I actually really enjoy her company but Connor is shady supremo! If we had to vote now it'd come down to Jeremy for challenges and Connor for long-term game for me. the SLIMY people tho coming up to me and being like 'omggg congratsss on reward ssso well desserveddd!! :)))))' like i see you and no i'm not telling! i don't want anyone with connections to rogues knowing clues because it's info that can be used as leverage, especially on Aroha. The Noodles on Aroha (Sam, Christine and Isabelle) are safe which is nice but i don't want anything leaking out too far away from my control. Ryan and Nick are giving me their idol guesses which is nice. So far no one has found it, and if i'm using the clue right there are only 4 more spots to check so hopefully it'll come up soon... to me. I'd hate to have to turn on an ally because they had the idol. So far I think that's where I'm at! I feel like I could be okay but also wouldn't be surprised if I'd be next so imma keep up some work! ciao for now!

so literally NOTHIG FUN has happened in our tribe because we haven't gone to tribal which is good but like, we don't know where people stand because of it. callie told me she wants to the me to f2, which is awesome, because I know after Palawan that when she makes f2 deals she keep them. I am a big fan of Pippa, and I think she's going to be a good ally along the road. WE (sam/pippa/nick/myself) don't seem to be able to get a reading on Ryan, Dan/Sole, or Jeremy. Jeremy voted with us last tribal (for Kierstan), so we think he is a possible ally but!!! we!!! don't!!! know!!!! pippa has the idea which i think is possible of Jeremy and Sarah not actually being newbies, but being returnees under an alias. she supports this with Sarah's blog shes using for the season only being made like five days before this season starts. sketch NO idea about anything with the idol, only where it isn't. Dan got an idol clue but he hasn't told anyone anything which is SUPER ANNOYING!!!! like he could at least lie about it instead of with holding all the info. rip nick? im not sure. he hasn't spoken to me too much :/

Confessional 4: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1UKngiWHIlKQ4VmzMoq-ou_oR1kDvFWi1xGYbuTYjP-g/edit?usp=sharing

I have a conspiracy theory that the intro video has clues about this game! If I'm right and the idol hasn't been found I might find it after this Tribal Council.

Ugh, ok so this whole week didn't go as planned...At all. I lost Kiersten. I lost Pat. And now I'm a tribe captain for a swap...I'm...I can't be trusted with this much responsibility! Especially when the only Otago member I ever talked to was Pat. Like, bye at this point. I mean, picking Nick W. was just my best option because we have that Kelley connection and I feel like it could work out? I don't know where I'm gonna go from there though honestly. I'm keeping Pippa and Jeremy as far away from me as possible though. I really don't trust them mainly because Jeremy barely talks to me and Pippa...Well I don't know if I can trust her at all tbh and I'm not gonna risk it. I definitely want to be with my true noodles, Isabelle, Ryan & Sole but at the same time I need to solidify my relationship with Sam. I feel like there's a little hope still there and I don't want her joining the other side for good. My head is just spinning honestly, there are so many people that I haven't talked to yet, the only outcome from here is a negative one I feel like. Gawd. Why me? Just...Why?

G O D G O D G O D. Do you realize what's happening right now? There is a constant role reversal of power and it's blowing my mind! My fam Sam got switched to the new tribe but I still have Connor and Nick (and possibly  Jeremy) on my side. Maybe even Dan if i can guilt him enough as he voted for me. Now it's considered a new round and these people are searching for the idol. I obviously don't regret my decision to tell my friends about the immunity idol as it resulted in a good place for us. I've already found the hidden immunity idol and I'm lying straight to Connor's face which is really killing me as he's searching for it the most. I AM SO SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME. I'm really weary of trusting people as I've been burned so many times before. I can't believe I'm the only girl in my tribe- but Pippa and the Boyz must live on forever.....well until I want one of you out! My next target would have to be Ryan, because he was one of the ones to try and get me and my F2 Connor out. Worst case: Nick turns on us (kinda running through my mind) or someone else does. After Ryan will be Dan but I dont want us to go to tribal AT ALL! So let's hope all works out... oh also these tribe colors are mega awesome and im gonna ask yall to send me the swatches so i can paint my room these colors!

Oh man. Ok, I take back what I said about Nick W. in my first confessional he's literally amazing omg. The tribe swap turned out better than expected honestly and I'm reunited with Isabelle which is perfect. I'm super worried about what's going to happen to Ryan and Sole though. Hopefully they can find that idol ASAP. Anyway, the Aroha tribe is literally amazing. Apparently it means love? Which is perfect? I'm obsessed. But yeah, I'm already in an alliance with Isabelle and Nick and I think we could possibly pull in Sam? I'm not entirely sure though so don't quote me on that. I need to talk to Sarah because I haven't done that yet whoops and I can't wait to talk to Regan! Hopefully we can win the next challenge and see what happens from there but I'm so happy things ended up working to my advantage. 

video summary: i say "like" way too many times but kiersten's boot )-: !! tribe swap (-: !!

Yeah this is exhausting. I'm not entirely sure what's happening half the time and my social skills don't really extend beyond making others amused. So at this rate I'll probably be a pre merge boot :/. And I now I had to skip out on going to the movies with my only real life friend so I can play in this bloody reward. It was Batman vs. Superman :( So hopefully this puts me in the tribes good graces. Or something.

YIKES. also, sarah just won idol clue info , so i am talking to her non stop, coz i nehed idols. please, im a wentworth. follow in the footsteps of my mother

@god thank you for this swap bc now I dont have to babysit regan all the time 

#PatWasPushed #FuckProduction

Truthfully, immunity idols are more trouble than they are worth. It takes hours upon hours to find them, you have to know when to use them, keeping them a secret could cause allies to betray you, and telling the wrong person can lead to your blindside. So when I won a hidden immunity idol clue and it was announced to my entire tribe, my brain was like: Fuuuuccckkkkkkkkkkkkkk. After like an hour of banging my head against the wall, I realized something. This clue, can be my bartering chip. I can share it with a select few and make them swear to secrecy. A normal person would only share the clue with those they trust, those who receive my clue are bound to realize that. However, I’m not a normal person and I don’t trust them. I just need them to trust me. This will make it easier to see who is looking for the clue. Because those who go near the water are going to be Callie or Masen. Those who are looking away from the water are most likely going to be the two people I told. I don’t need a hidden immunity idol. Well, yeah I kind of do, everyone does. But I don’t need the stress that comes with it. What I do need is watching point. A way I can observe what people are doing and how they are doing it. By receiving this idol, I got my perch. Huh, I guess skipping out on socializing was actually worth it. Who’d a thunk it?

Okay it's time to catch up on confessionals. So, Sarah's plan failed. It was meant to go to rocks, but NOPE. Pat's gone. #Robbed. I'm stuck here on a tribe full of goons with nothing to lose. To make it worse I get teased with a tribe swap, make a plan with Sam to eradicate Masen's cult, and then find out that it WASN'T a tribe swap but simply a 3rd tribe. Gee...Thanks. Now 4 of my allies are on Aroha. To make matters worse I just got people to agree to flip on Masen and it was meant to be a 5 to 4 in favor of my side moving forward. I love having my allies sucked out of the palm of my hands and placed somewhere else to compete against each other... Now Simon and I are seriously screwed on this new tribe as it completely saved Masen. Kendall gave me the idol clue, so I'm hoping to use it to my advantage in attempting to swing either her or Callie. At most I can hope to go to rocks at this point. I need to survive 'til another tribe swap. I was dealt a bad hand in this case, and I can't afford for Aroha or Otago to end up facing Tribal. I'm all for allowing the Rebels to lose. Once merge happens and if the Rebels get obliterated then I'll have a decent group waiting for me. The real concern right now is how to get myself there...

I just wanted this ICON to be documented. [01:19:50] SINmon: I'd agree, but I think Masen thinks he has the most control. [01:20:16] Kendall Duffy: His head is a few sizes too large [01:20:29] SINmon: YAS [01:20:31] SINmon: THANK YOU FOR SAYING TAHT [01:20:38] SINmon: HE LITERALLY SELLS EVERYONE OUT TO EVERYONE TO [01:21:18] Kendall Duffy: He's probably just compensating for some of his less... Prominent features

disclaimer: sorry for messy hair

https://youtu.be/BOQetz9YqGc

On 4/10/16, at 7:09 PM, Kendall Duffy wrote: > I gave everyone a fake idol clue for my own amusement ISABELLE JUST SENT ME THIS RECEIPT FROM KENDALL OMG. AUSTIN LEGIT HAS NO CHANCE NOW AHAHAHHAHAHAHAH FUCK THIS IS TO MUCH IM ALIVE austin thinks he will survive this tribal coz kendall gave him an idol clue, and its fake i cAN'T BREAHTR rip austin #SorryHun i wanna save him and defeat karen/masen, but i really dont think his odds are that great. kendall is such a queen im screaming

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X6WLiPUR7oM&feature=em-upload_owner

sorry no video this time! a LOT has gone down since I was last here so lemme fill y'all in. WE SWAPPED! I knew something was coming but i didn't expect three tribes.. on the new tribe, Ahora, there are three Rebels and three Rogues (machu picchu throwback i c u). the three rebels are Sam, Isabelle and Christine... literally 3/5 of the Noodles alliance.. Me and Ryan are just sitting on Maori like :~~~)f*#k. Thankfully i'm not in the worst position - i still have Nick H (who i'm legitimately aligned with and close to) who has my back. He has a lot of sway over Jeremy so if we needed to vote, there's a potential 4 right there. After casting my vote for Pippa last round she doesn't really talk to me but thankfully Connor is still really chatty. I feel like there's some level of hope for me but also wouldn't be surprised if I went home so i need to amp up the social game tbh. WE WON IMMUNITY THO so no need to worry for now heheh, thankfully Ahora won too so none of the Rebels are at risk tonight! tbh is anyone surprised the Rogues are messy????? not i. For now that's all i got and i just wanna win immunity and pray the rebels are safe on Ahora - there's hope for me yet!