Trying to be a positive person, but just been in a slump lately and I can’t get out of it.

Times are always getting harder, but when do they get easier?

Feeling alone.

Losing friends, losing pets. It’s getting too hard. We weren’t taught this in school. We weren’t really taught this by our parents. You don’t know what it feels like until it hits you one by one. You feel like you can’t catch a break. You feel like you can’t breath. Life. Life is hard. Living in this world is hard. The heartbreak hurts too much. How do you lose someone or a pet, and everyone expects you to just move on? You’re supposed to just go about your day like nothing happened. Yes it’s the past, but it hurts every single day. It never gets better. Sam, I miss you so much. I wish you didn’t choose to leave us so soon. It’s almost been a year, and I still remember the day they told me like it was just yesterday. That feeling where your stomach drops and your heart shatters. It’s such an awful feeling. I was here for you, we all were. I wish you knew that. I still think about you everyday. Ace, oh my Ace. I still remember the day going to see you and your brothers and sisters. They handed me you, but I could’ve chosen any other dog. I knew you were the one though. The happiness you brought into my life, gosh I’ll never forget that feeling. Coming home everyday, and getting greeted by you at the door. The way you used to jump up to where we could see your face, and you would start scratching the door like crazy. I could see the excitement in your face. That’s what brought joy to me. I won’t be able to see that anymore, and it breaks my heart. Going to mom and dads won’t feel the same because you’re not there. The way you would sit on the corner of the couch, and it made the couch sink in from you sitting on it all these years. Gosh I’m going to miss that view. Why can’t dogs or animals in general live a longer life. Why do they always have to get old, or get cancer, or some medical problem. They bring so much happiness in our life, and we just get that taken away from us after so many years. It’s not fair. When does the heartbreak go away? Does it ever? It’s starting to get too hard.

Please let everything go as planned

No one ever prepares you for life. All the obstacles that just hit you all at once. It gets hard. It gets really hard, but I have so much to live for and so many people that care about me. At least I hope so. But it’s definitely getting harder.

Sometimes, I hate technology. Cause you’re always on your phone, and I can feel you not paying attention to me. I just feel ignored so often. I just feel unwanted

Sometimes I wonder how it would be if I was alone. I’m by myself so much that I already feel halfway there. How are you ever so sure something is meant to be?

I wish you would help me more. I feel so much weight on my shoulders, that I’m slowly falling down.

My heart hurts for you. It doesn’t feel real. How can you be gone? It can’t be true. I didn’t think I would lose a friend so young. A part of me wishes I kept trying. I should’ve checked on you more. But the other part knows that no matter what, you were in such a dark place that you had this planned. I wish I would’ve known. You pushed us all away, that was the first sign. I wish I would’ve known that. We’re all going through our own sh*t that we get so off guard. But I should’ve known. I just wish this wasn’t true. You were such a great friend. You made my day anytime I saw you. You lit up the room. You made sure everyone was okay no matter what. I miss you so much. It’s hard for me to accept it, but one day I will.

It feels like once things are going great, something comes along and ruins it

I hate not speaking what’s on my mind. I want the next step in my relationship. I want to live together. You keep hinting it, but I feel like you’re not gonna go through with it

Sometimes I wonder if it’s even worth it anymore

I feel like your video games are more important than me, and it’s starting to make me want to distant myself

It’s one thing after another, how do I know when enough is enough?

Knowing you’re fine over this really hurts