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‘Shit left to do at 3/22/99’ list written by Eric.

23-Jul-1997 -> Dylan talks about how he wouldn’t mind killing his ex-best-friends girlfriend.

03-Nov-1997 -> Dylan wants to go on his killing spree. Thinks that XXX would get him a gun.

human nature is smothered out by society, jobs, and work and school. instincts are deleted by laws.

Everyone is always making fun of me because of how I look, how fucking weak I am and shit, well I will get you all back: ultimate fucking revenge here. you people could have shown more respect, treated me better, asked for my knowledge or guidance more, treated me more like senior, and maybe I wouldn’t have been as ready to tear your fucking heads off. then again, I have always hated how I looked, I make fun of people who look like me, sometimes without even thinking sometimes just because I want to rip on myself.

I had a lot of fun at that gun show, I would have loved it if you were there dad. we would done some major bonding. would have been great. oh well.

I hate you people for leaving me out of so many fun things. And no don’t fucking say, “well that's your fault” because it isn’t, you people had my phone #, and I asked and all, but no. no no no don't let the weird looking Eric KID come along, ohh fucking nooo.

heh, get this. KMFDM’s new album is entitled “Adios” and it’s release date is in April. how fuckin appropriate, a subliminal final "Adios" tribute to Reb and Vodka. thanks KMFDM… I ripped the hell outa the system

oooh god i want to die sooo bad… such a sad, desolate, lonely, unsalvageable i feel i am….. not fair, NOT FAIR!!!! I wanted happiness!! I never got it…

I have always been hated, by everyone & everything, just never aware…. Goodbye all the crushes ive ever had, just shells…. images, no tu truths… BUT WHY? YeS, You can read this, why did god [incoherent scrawl]

I have no money, no happiness, no friends… Eric will be getting farther away soon… I’ll have less than nothing… how normal.

I don’t know & im sick of not KNOWING!! to be kept in the dark is a punishment!!!

About 26.5 hours from now the judgement will begin. Difficult, but not impossible, necessary, nervewracking & fun.

Its interesting, when im in my human form, knowing im going to die. Everything has a touch of triviality to it. like how none of this calculus shit matters. the way it shuldn’t. the truth. In 26.4 hours ill be dead, & in happiness. The little zombie human fags will know their errors, & be forever suffering & mournful, HAHAHA, of course i will miss things. not really.