@onision stop justifying your shitty behavior by pointing out that other people do shitty things. It doesn't make you a good person by default. Just accept that ways you have behaved (not how they reacted to your behavior) have caused serious psychological damage to people. That's YOURS to deal with. It's not anyone else's fault for being around you, not listening to you, believing you, whatever high and mighty thing you want to use as an excuse (like how you blamed Billie for putting her private life on YouTube because it's her own fault for getting involved with you). Hold yourself accountable for how you fucking treat people.