welcome to my personal hell

part of me is still waiting for my baby to come back

i had a dream of you and another girl and my heart broke all over again

life so private no one knows how close they actually are to loosing me forever

never felt so lost in my entire fucking life.

the devil couldn't reach me so he sent a boy who treated me perfectly and then decided to break my heart into a thousand pieces on a random thursday.

pretty but not pretty enough to make him stop looking at other women

you call me pretty but you look at other women, and i wonder why i'm not pretty enough to keep your eyes on just me

even though we can never celebrate together as a complete family again, i sincerely hope that you have a happy and carefree christmas in heaven and that god gives you countless gifts. i love you so much, my baby. the holidays are pure torture for me - i miss you so much and can hardly bear to be without you. i think of you every second of my life. merry christmas, my beautiful little angel.