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I have dermatilomania. It’s basically a disorder that makes me want to constantly pick at my skin because I feel anxious a lot. I’ve had this since I was around seven years old but it only started to get bad once I went into public school (I was homeschooled until I was 11) and as you can see, it’s gotten worse and worse over the years. I pick basically anywhere I can reach at any given time when I feel anxious or upset (which is often) and it’s absolute hell. People at school have made fun of me for it, and asked if I have some kind of disease. It also makes it very hard to wear things that don’t cover up like shorts, skirts, dresses, swimsuits, etc. Which is frustrating cuz I live in the UAE and it’s very very hot here. My parents still don’t understand what it is and they think it’s just as simple as “just stop picking” but it’s not that easy. If I could stop, I would. BELIEVE ME, I would. But I cant because it’s like a coping mechanism. Whenever I’m not doing it, I constantly feel like I need to be doing it and it’s just this awful constant cycle of tearing myself apart over and over again. I’ve also been diagnosed with bipolar disorder which is just another thing that makes me pick a lot. Whenever I feel down I pick to make myself feel better because it’s like a release and I Black out for minutes to hours and I know it’s bad but it’s such a relief. The one thing that helps me get on is exercise and tattoos. I got two tattoos for my 16th bday and it made me want to protect my body more so I can get new ones soon. So I guess that’s good. Otherwise, things are still pretty shitty but I just have to make sure to be aware of my hands and what they’re doing and I hope things will be okay soon. But I just wanted to share my story and hope that there’s other people with the same thing because I’ve felt so alone for so long and I’d like to feel less alone.

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