Thinking Out Loud...

I no longer see you like someone I can trust

Someone I can rely

Someone I would see as my soulmate sister

Only if you knew

I don’t trust you anymore

That I only my see you just like a relative.

The word sister for me is long gone

Your hurt me and lied to me…

Snd blame it on me.

I know I messed up that day .. so I don’t blame you

Maybe I will never get to change it

But now that I know who you are…

I felt like I never knew you

There had to be some truth but some where along the years you started to lie and treat me like just like dad

I really thought you wouldn’t hurt me but you did.

I don’t know if I like it but I always secretly knew.

I begged you.

I asked you

I pleaded for you

But you never cared.

I wiped the tears and looked around the broken glass we both broke.

I realized I was the only one here. The only one that still cared.

The only one that tried gluing them back

The only one with blood in my hands

The only that cut them selves with glass trying to fix the impossible

I

Was

Alone.

So I walked away.

I left it all behind and only carried the pain in my hearts.

Only carried the tears in my eyes.

But now the rope is pulled by you so far that it hurts. I pull and tug but nothing works to get you to turn. I hope and scream. Nothing. I just need you to take one glance.

Just a glance

The rope is cutting into my skin. I can see it leaving marks and I pray it leaves no scars.

Your pulling so hard it hurts …I want to let go

But I promised you

And now I’m here screaming for you to turn

To see me… please see me!

Please turn

Right now

I need