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TIMELINE:Â post endgame divergent/blog canon DEFAULT STATUS:Â yes. unless pre-endgame. then resort to canon unless AU or plotted otherwise with partners for headcanon/plot purposes! In this timeline, all canon MCU events are taken into Tonyâs history. Except how things ended with Endgame. credit and special shout outs at bottom of post! WARNING:Â loss of limb / amputation, suicidal thoughts, mental disorders
DIVERGENCE:
They say your life flashes before your eyes before you die.
What if it doesnât? Or you only get a blip or two? Does that meanâYOU MADE IT?
As the energy ripped through Tonyâs body, doing damage with each passing second? There was only a moment of hesitation as the pain tore across each limb, muscle, nerve. Only a split second where he made the decision. this is it. Through tears of pain and acceptance of whatever fate might be handed to him. No time to think. No time to pause. No time for goodbyes or to meet anyoneâs eyes other than his.
SNAP!
And his world went brilliantly white before pitch black before his hand fell to the ground. Surely he was on fire, he thought. Burning up from the inside out. He could smell his skin. Sweat and muck. Blood and burning. Moving? No, not really. The last thing he wanted to do was move. Voices. They were all rushing towards him and he saw a set of blue, round eyes swinging in way too close. His lips wobbled. Was he going to cry, laugh or scream? Wasnât until he felt a pair of strong arms lifting him up? He found out it was the latter.
Steve Rogers carried him off the battlefield that day through a portal hastily crafted by a disbelieving of his own eyes Strange. Wakanda received Tony without question. Steve Rogers didnât leave his side as he was lead back from the brink by the hands of those who fought beside him in their final hour. Some returned from ash and dust from sacrifice, hope, and a whole lot of faith and a prayer they were right and didnât lose anyone in vain.
Tony spent months in Wakanda. Having lost his arm, too much damage for even their skill to bring back, and suffered nerve and muscle damage that is permanentâphysiotherapy was a long and tedious route for the rest. For someone who was so used to never asking for help until it was practically too late? Admitting he needed it was the hardest step he took.
Delving into work, once his body was healed enough to try, helped drag him away from the very edge. His arm has been replaced. Assisted in itâs conception and fabrication by Shuri, the arm is an extension of a new suit. One that is permanently part of his body.
CURRENT:
Tony hasnât fully come back from that day mentally. Throughout his timeline the degrees of that vary from person to person and timeline to timeline. Physically? He is mended for the most part. Improving bit by bit but there are some parts of the damage that will be permanent. Aches and pains in his shoulder, back and neck. Anxiety, PTSD as well as headaches that can cause vertigo are something he treats with medications when needed.
FAMILY:Â
He has yet to go home. Working through the issues he has as well as his mental state? His love for his family is too great to let them see him in the shape he can be when the worst of it gets to him. He has visited Morgan and Pepper. Mostly at the cabin or one of the safe houses. However, the first time he saw fear in his daughter's eyes when she looked at him? He began to pull away, not wanting to ever see that again. She's slowly gotten used to his condition but his fear of putting them through any more pain will, inevitably, lead to a separation between him and Pepper. Both for Morgan's benefit and the fact that Tony wants the best for his family. Even if he can't be part of that. Especially mentally.
His plotlines can veer off here depending on partner and plotting. As far as default? He can be mostly found in New Asgard or in one of his safe houses where his workshop is located that heâs kept off the grid. There are trips to Wakanda as research into his existing conditions is brought to his attention. Tony keeps in contact with loved ones but it is on good days and for their peace of mind. Steve, Thor and others show up from time to time to keep him taking care of himself. He was reluctant to let even them in at first. Though heâs become more easy with it considering they were the ones near him at his âworstâ. Other than those working to get him better, they are the ones he doesnât feel the need to protect from him. Especially those he lost during the Snap. In his opinion? Theyâve been through enough already.
PERMANENT CHANGES:
* missing right arm. replaced by suit/permanent prosthetic. details in a new post soon! * light scarring around his shoulder and spine. * very faint white markings that run along the side of his throat and temple. * major muscle damage in shoulder, light muscle damage in neck area. both are being treated with physiotherapy to alleviate the symptoms. some damage is permanent. research is being done further improve his condition. he willfully submits to being his own test subject in order to see what works and what doesnât. * body aches, pains, headaches with occasional vertigo (severity comes and goes via therapy and if he overuses his muscles while working or not) * ptsd // anxiety // major depressive disorder // suicidal thoughts â triggers have become more apparent. he can be sporadic with his medication usage. though heâs getting better at taking it. his mdd can manifest in withdraw from those around him, restlessness, lack of (or too much) sleep and drop in appetite, becoming obsessed with work and nothing but work, as well as random other symptoms. usually manifesting changes depending on current situation. he'd never admit to any suicidal thoughts that he has had. mostly in the beginning when he felt like a burden to those caring for him. or when he saw his daughter afraid of him. they still come and go on his worst days, though they happen less and less. * MORE TO ADD LATER!
