Somehow this helps. Been running too.

Theres a lot of what i call running porn. Railroad tracks, tunnels, cemetaries, reservoires.

I do miss the seaport and bridges from my old hood, but i will explore more.

Found a decent music shop in hoboken but of course no omar vinyl, unless i order.

Still not speaking to my mom, does that make me terrible? I just need a moment away from triggering things.

Man oh man am i fiending for a cig, but have not touched since april and ive been patch free as well.

Ran a bit, danced.

Love it here thus far.

Today i danced at home. Mother being cray. Inhale,,exhale..trees

Did judy groceries. Back on diet, pr trip early august, not the usual town, quick uber to old san juan.

Not editing.

I dance the demons out and move on.

New bratz, tmv purchase and my fave hobby as of late; getting lost in nj on the weekends, find ways to challenge my brain.

So my cousin sarah who is younger than me, is next on the cancer scare list.

Hysterectomy 1st, they will reassess post surgery.

As i was about to climb the steps, i had a dizzy spell and wee panic attack mayhaps?

I was speaking to her as it happened.

Chris, my other cousin passed a few weeks shy of his 50th birthday. Sarah turns 49 this december.

We are all double related, so much inbreeding on my moms side.

Still cigfree since april. Its effing hot in here.

Going to read my book and pass out.