✧ ☾ — ° i know the sound of your heart

none of it was stupid in rowan’s eyes. it mattered to her. she figured that valeria was far from understanding what made her so upset, so she just sat there and listened to what the girl had to say, crossing her arms and looking away from her. she couldn’t change much about how things were, but she didn’t like it. she hated having to watch val kiss another girl and clearly feeling excited about it. she hated having to read all the things her girlfriend’s fans say about her and about how much better her girlfriend would be with her co star. she hated having to hear it from paps as well. she hated having their relationship so exposed to the everyone. she didn’t expect the actress to understand, but it made her miserable. and yet, she was willing to go through all that just because of how much love she had for valeria. which was why the last thing she needed was to sit there after a long day and fight with her girlfriend. “ glad you’re happy about the scripts and the new season, at least one of us is. ” she said, getting up. “ i think i’ll go home to let you go over them quietly. ”

rowan sighed, listening to the girl talking. she played with her fingers, nodding every once in a while. “ sounds fun. ” she murmured, letting the other pull her closer. she forced a smile, nodding. a part of her was upset, another part was angry with the other, and another part of her just really wanted to go back home and be alone for a bit. she didn’t want to confront val about the new scripts, but she was upset with her, and she couldn’t help the words that left her lips. “ you know i don’t like having to see you doing all those love scenes with that girl, or watching you nearly dying for a stupid fucking tv show. maybe you can at least pretend that you don’t like having to kiss that girl and whatnot on screen, y’know, just to make your girlfriend - you know her, it’s that costume designer that all your fans hate - happy, or at least a bit less upset. ” she sighed, releasing herself from the other’s hold and moving away from her a little.

rowan was relieved as the door finally opened and revealed her girlfriend. she let the girl pull her inside, only finally relaxing once the door was closed. she melted into the other’s touch, eyes closing momentarily, trying to get herself back together. “ i’m okay. ” she mumbled, releasing a sigh. she pulled away from val, eyes falling to the piles of papers. she sighed again, flopping down on the couch. “ yeah, realized you’d probably like it. ” she murmured, watching the girl cleaning up. rowan admittedly read a little bit of the scripts for the next season, because the director that she slept with always let her do whatever she wanted. 

rowan was on her way to val’s apartment after a long day of work, having to repair some costumes. it’s not that she didn’t expect any paps at all outside of her girlfriend’s house, sometimes there were a few out there, waiting in hopes of getting some photos. but as she got closer to val’s house, she realized that this time there were more than just one or two. at least six people with cameras were standing outside of the actress’ house, and rowan could feel her fear rising within her. she wasn’t used to all the attention and it made her feel rather overwhelmed. and there was quite a lot of negative attention she was getting as well, because people obviously didn’t like rowan and val together, and it only made rowan more upset and overwhelmed. still, she took a deep breath as she kept walking towards val’s front door, her steps quick. the paps quickly noticed her and soon enough she could hear cameras clicking and all kinds of comments being thrown at her. she tried to block them, but by the time she reached the door, she could feel her eyes getting wattery. she knocked the door quickly, waiting for val to finally let her in.

rowan nodded at her girlfriend. “ yeah, that’s right. better remember it. ” she said, wrapping her arms around valeria’s neck. “ okay, i think i might spend the night now that i know you learned your lesson. ” she murmured, a smile playing on her lips.

rowan crossed her arms over her chest. “ i forgave you, but you still don’t get to threaten me. and we’ll see about me spending the night. ” she said, accepting the kiss.

“ why ? because i want a kiss from my girlfriend ? ” rowan said, raising an eyebrow. “ excuse me ? you don’t get to threaten me, hun, not after the way you just talked about a girl who isn’t me. you’re lucky you still get kisses. ”

rowan smiled. “ good. will it hurt to give me another damn kiss ? ” she said chuckling, raising an eyebrow. “ i don’t know if you deserve that after the way you talked about that girl. but i’ll think about it. ” she teased.

rowan ran a hand through her hair, sighing. “ yeah, that’s right. ” she let out a tiny chuckle. “ i mean, that’d be nice, but like, a kiss and spending the rest of your day with me would make me forgive you more easily. ”

rowan couldn’t help the tiny smile that was playing on her lips, letting the girl take her hand. “ i know. i’d still appreciate it if you didn’t talk about other girls like that.”

“ yeah, you really should’ve. ” rowan said, just rolling her eyes a bit. she accepted the short kiss, letting out a scoff. “ maybe stop giving me reasons to be jealous, before i check how hot you are when you’re jealous.”

rowan nodded, releasing a sigh, arms still crossed. “ i’d love to hear that apology right now. ” in all honesty, rowan was more upset, or disappointed than mad -because of the way valeria talked of that other girl, despite truly trusting her.

“ yeah i bet she is. ” rowan said, narrowing her eyes at the girl. “ right, nice save. if she heard the way you talked earlier she probably would’ve wanted to slap you across your face, so you’re lucky she’s not here and that she’s chill. ”

rowan rolled her eyes at the other. “ i bet she’s beautiful. you sure she’s chill ? because, i don’t know, if i were her, i’d be pissed hearing my girlfriend talk about other girls like that. ”

rowan raised an eyebrow listening to the girl, her arms crossed over her chest. “ aw, cute. sounds like you have a little crush. want me to test the water for you ? maybe be your wingwoman ? ”

“ i’m not an actress so i don’t think there’s much to explore in my tag on tumblr. you read fan fiction about yourself ? if that upsets you maybe just don’t read those stuff. unfortunately i don’t think commenting on them would change much, people will just keep doing that shit, it sucks. ”

“ you’re a slytherin, huh ? well, you’re looking at a gryffindor, so there’s that. don’t feel bad, though, no one can compete against hermione granger. ” rowan shrugged, chuckling. she smiled as she felt the girl kissing her back eagerly. “ oh well. don’t tell her. ”