Kimmy♥️

Hi, apologies that this will probably be (another) long post, but I’m struggling to adapt too!

I feel like a need to start off by saying that Alice felt a little…off…in the second episode, but thankfully she seemed to get back to normal by the third one.

I’m still deciding how I feel about the fact that Alice and John had a relationship off-screen, because whilst I’m really happy that they finally resolved their sexual tension…I still feel robbed that all we got to see of it was a few short flashbacks.

I was really intrigued by the Lake storyline, and I’m slightly annoyed that it often got shoved to the side, but at the same time I found myself wondering when Alice was going to show up again. Really I think it should have been more than 4 episodes long as then we would’ve had more time to enjoy both the Alice storyline and the Lake storyline.

Now onto the finale…

I’ve got a lot of problems with the finale, but the biggest one is just how out of character Alice seemed. I know she’s a killer and I’m not trying to erase that part of her but I really don’t think she’d kill Halliday for no reason. Alice is cold and calculated and plans out her kills, she likes to be in control and so far we haven’t seen her kill anyone without feeling her actions were justified.

I suppose you could argue that John lying to her totally broke her and made her snap, but despite this I still don’t think she’d just kill Halliday. She’d make it between her and John. There was no need to kill Halliday.

I’m gradually coming round to the John and Alice showdown at the end of the episode, because even though it emotionally destroyed me, it seems like it’s the way the writers always wanted their relationship to end.

There was so many throwbacks to S1 (mentioning Zoe and Ian, Alice falling like Henry Madsen, and of course Alice repeating what John said to her about not being able to understand love), and the more I think about it, the more I’m growing to like the sort of role reversal Alice and John went through.

I’ve mentioned it in another post and I find it really interesting that in the end, it was Alice who really understood what it was like to love someone, and it was John who still couldn’t admit that he loved Alice. I think Alice knew this and knew that he could never love her the way she loved him, and I think that’s what really broke her.

Also, I don’t think Alice had another bullet left (we heard the gun click) and even if she did I doubt she would’ve been able to kill John.

I almost think she wanted it be be this way. With Alice (supposedly) dead and John arrested, there really isn’t any other scenario that could have hurt John more.

Which leads me to think that Alice isn’t dead.

So after that (painful) disaster of a finale, I set about writing a fix-it fic where Alice and John get the happy ending they deserve. However, I’ve since decided to pull a Bandersnatch and write three different endings for my fanfic, one happy, one bittersweet, and one sad. Below is the beginning of the fanfic, which follows the finale from the point where John rescues Alice and Mark from the fridge, but with few…tweaks. I’m still writing the endings but I’ll try and get at least one of them posted by tomorrow night. Let me know what you think so far! (2480 words)

He sees Mark before he sees Alice. There’s a moment, just a split second, where he finds himself entertaining the idea that perhaps this time, Alice won’t make it out alive. And then the moment is gone, and Mark’s eyes flutter open, his arm shifting just a fraction, but it’s enough for John to catch a glimpse of the frost-covered red hair buried into Mark’s shoulder.