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rosie: so i noticed we have a class together this semester anddddd

rosie: i was just hoping things won’t be weird considering ya know...jude?

jude: don't you fucking get it?? i don't care about the girl! i care about YOU, and sometimes it feels like i am the only one here that does.

jude: just remember that you were the one that told me i needed to do more things for myself. and don't compare playing an instrument to doing coke. one is a hobby and one is a serious problem.

jude: even sienna has gone to one. do you even think about that? someone i fuck from time to time gives more of a shit about me than you do. it's not just about the dinner! it's about EVERYTHING else. we live in the same fucking apartment and you're never home. always out with someone doing god knows what. and you really want to say i'm the one that hasn't been around?

jude: that's the first fucking time you've apologized. and if you don't get why it bothers me so much then i guess you never will.

rosie: then why are you out looking to get your dick wet with her instead of doing everything you can to fix things with me?

rosie: of fucking course i want you to do things for yourself. i’m not the selfish bitch that you make me out to be. maybe you should take some notes and be a little more empathetic to my life decisions instead of judging me for something that YOU DO TOO. we do coke together all the time?? if i recall correctly, we did lines the night we hooked up so how about going ahead and climbing off of that high horse of yours.

rosie: oh my god, fuck sienna. are you fucking serious right now? you honestly think that manipulative piece of shit cares about you more than i do? you’re delusional. no, seriously you need to check yourself. because as far as i’m concerned how i spend my nights isn’t any of your business. nor do i think it would really bother you unless maybe just maybe you’re holding onto some kind of grudge that you’re not telling me about.

jude: whatever ro.

jude: are you fucking serious??? you really want to get into that whole debate with me?? after everything he's done to you, you think i'm worse than him because i'm upset about you not keeping your word??? you're so fucking out of line it's not even funny.

jude: not once have i ever blown you off, rosie. don't try and make this about me. just because i have a commitment to something that makes me happy doesn't mean i forgot about you. for the first time in my life i found something that i want to do that makes ME happy, and you really want to shit on me for that??

jude: last time i checked you haven't even been to one show to support me. and you really want to talk about me being a hypocrite. i told you that night that i would always be there for you, no matter what. and it seems like you're asking for a whole lot more than what you're giving.

rosie: oh i'm out of line now?? you've been out of line this entire conversation, jude. why are you even texting me right now? shouldn't you be tonsil deep in your date??

rosie: and don't you dare make it seem like i'm some selfish bitch that doesn't want you to be passionate about anything bc that is NOT what i said at all. of course i'm happy for you. of course i want you to be around the people who bring you so much joy and happiness. i'm not about to sit here and explain to you what i mean by that because i already did. i told you all of this that night. i respect your hobby so fucking respect mine.

jude: so what are you saying? you're glad it happened? we've been friends for years and you think sleeping together was the right idea???

jude: i'm not slut shaming you. are you fucking serious rn??? i am telling you that you chose sex and drugs over me. that's just a fact. and don't ever compare me to that asshole ever again because we both know i am NOTHING like him.

jude: you could avoided THIS if you just kept your word. i don't regret what happened rosie. jesus christ. all i'm saying is that it was a line we shouldn't have crossed.

jude: but whatever. like you said, it was just sex.

rosie: i'm saying you're making a bigger deal out of it than it really needs to be. either you wanted to do it or you didn't. end of story. that's it. figure it out.

rosie: i didn't choose sex and drugs over you. what the actual fuck?? i literally told you that i was alone for pretty much the entire night. so what if i decided to go out LATER, POST FESTIVITIES, TO DO A BUMP OR TWO WITH A FRIEND??

rosie: and fine, you're not like jagger. you're actually kind of worse because with you i expect so much more.

Luana nodded in confirmation as a bright smile curved up on her lips at how she could immediately get what she meant. “Exactly.” She didn’t mean to be so cheerful about it but she had never one to hold back on any glee or feelings of happiness. “Like hickeys in hidden places – I’m kind of weak for that,” she admitted, knowing that it was indeed a little personal but she had basically just shown her butt to her friend so there was no reason to withhold simple information like that. However, brows furrowed slightly at her following words as she blinked at her a couple of times. “ You mean – you got any weird birthmarks ? ”