It’s been a hell of a long time since I got the chance to scroll these blue pages. It feels as though my life is settling into a new phase, a new stage, a developing me and it is so thrilling.
So I think it’s time to part ways with this tumblr of mine, although nowadays I don’t think anyone really keeps up with me :(
I began this blog 6 years ago, I never knew what the purpose was, although throughout the years it had many purposes. At first, I liked doing challenges, and then I had a photography phase, it heard me when no one was there to listen to me, I shared many doubts on here, I even shared my first dating (& kiss?) experience, and many times it was the perfect way to procrastinate and not get my things done. It was a perfect way for me to fill in-between time, and I made many friends on here now, who seem to have all grown from the site too.
In a sense I grew through some funky young adult years and now I am getting the chance to step into my grown-up years that I’ve always felt I fit.
But before I go I’d like to share where I am at currently, as I don’t plan on deleting but simply going on a hiatus and looking back on the blog in some years:
After 5 years of community college, I accepted my admission to my 4-year University. This in itself was a little hard to grasp, as this was the choice my heart was screaming for back in 2010, but I silenced it and heard the whispers of those around me, I learned to doubt myself, I learned to play victim, I learned to drop out and fail of too many classes beating myself over the mistake I made. But this fall, I finally get to continue my higher education journey, and pursue my bachelor of arts in English: Education. I am beyond excited to start this piece of me that I paused for too long, a place where I thought was simply a failure to me.
I have a job at an office now, my title? Office Administrator & Manager Assistant. It’s definitely new, and it’s fun! Better than slicing meats, frying chickens, cleaning, and raising other’s kids.
I am currently commuting, it’s the only part I have left to figure out in this transition.
I am in love, with a man who treats me like I wish. A man who has stood through with me when I pushed, a man who has learned to love me as I have loved him, I have become ever more confidant in our relationship- not just in us but in myself. I am truly lucky to be growing up with him.
I am leaving my volunteer position at church as the coordinator of a beautiful ministry, but what I take with me is the faith and love that I learned through this ministry. The ability to learn patience (not master it, but hell I’ve definitely grown in patience), to see things through His eyes, and see that if I reach out, He will be there, He believes in me, and thats why He planned for me.
I am going to college, I am moving forward.
With that, farewell blue site.
