You try to build up the courage to do something big for your future. But if you aren't ready and you wait to long you're fucked in the end. Been waiting for half a decade for an opportunity.. just one more chance. But you came to find out you were never good enough in the first place so now you're stuck with memories and regret.. that's not life. That's no way to live. Maybe being a mistake has a final solution. Maybe it's just terminal.

Ma jeep

Mammals

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I work hard on bettering myself. Ever since I've been back state side. I have realized l had no opportunity to move on. Especially when everything you touch crumbles away. Not only objects but family. Ive been alone to long to heal these infectious wounds. Its better not to feed the disappointment with time. The disappointment being me

What am I suppose to do? how do you live a complete life when you have a tendency to throw everything away? It has gotten to the point where I dont care if I live another day. Nothing is easy. Nothing goes as planned. I've solely become a hermit, shut off from the world.i close myself to love and friendship. Only to not get hurt or get let down. that's why I'm forever alone..