I’m going to go blind. Within 10 years.

This is what happens when you neglect your diabetes for 15 years. I knew like…it was a risk but I always thought it would happen later in life. Life when i’m 50…not 30. And like. I didn’t really think I would’ve been here this long? I never really thought about my preservation.I really don’t have much to live for and can’t find reasons at times. But this really, really got me.

My entire system is very confused on how to react. Part of me is, gotta preserve the body and health!. Another is, it’s fine, short but enjoyable life. And the last part is, i should just end it soon (please don’t call to detain me….i’m not doing anything tonight).