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Hi, I write sometimes -> Iphigeanie on ao3

Me 🤝 Joshua

I don't know man, I keep thinking about Joshua and how isolated he was when growing up and then later in life. I can't help but think about the fact that the only persistent and overbearing presence in his life was his mother. How he's simultaneously the golden child and the black sheep of the family. Bearer of the Phoenix, but too weak. Healer whilst having a very fragile health. How Anabella projected her own self hatred onto him ever since he was a child because they are just so similar, while still preaching about the fact that he was her most precious thing. Of how lonely after Phoenix gate his life must have been. Surrounded by people who worshipped him but did not know him as a person. His own family, or what's left of it, doesn't actually know him. Yes, Clive might have gotten the short end of the stick in many ways, but he had people that loved him for who he was- while Joshua, not really. Revered maybe, respect even, but not loved. True affection feels scarce in his life, which does make the relationship he has with his brother that much more painful, for sure.