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I went to this work program that helps young adults. I took the mock interview and I was laughing with the lady and then she got serious, and I always fall for the switch and bait first they are nice and then they switch up. I bombed my mock interview and I feel like shit and why did I go unprepared and allow myself to laugh knowing I shouldn't

I've been bored for a long time. When people say social media has messed up their memory, I can't relate my memory has gone done hill from at least 10. Everything has sucked since the beginning of my life sometimes I think i would be used to it but I'm not

I've been bored for a long time. When people say social media has messed up their memory, I can't relate my memory has gone done hill from at least 10. Everything has sucked since the beginning of my life sometimes I think i would be used to it but I'm not

Today is pretty boring as usual tho. I ordered Uber eats the order took 3 hrs and same change. I ate ice cream until I throw up. I haven't eaten in a few hours. Weirdly I want to eat to point to throwing. My odd thinking is maybe it will get me to decide to eat healthier and grow dislike for unhealthy food

I'm at work and I hate it. The fact that my parents brought me into this world and are complete idiots is why I have to work. GREAT NEVER BETTER EHHH

Today has sucked as usual. Sometimes when I'm not on my phone and I actually have to pay attention to my thoughts about myself and I feels a sort of melancholy moment I usually don't let myself feel it but when I allow myself to feel it I let it sit but it usually goes away on itself but even a second of it feel empty and I sometimes am half asleep and I feel so down and out about myself I think it won't ever go away and if it did maybe I would miss it because it makes me feel like a person a little and connected to other people

I'm pretty certain some people lack empathy or have selective empathy for themselves and people that are deemed worthy, but they don't automatically have it for anyone besides 5 that is sad. If that were me, I wouldn't feel like a person. I'm A okay being labeled sensitive it just means I'm in tune with myself.

I'm around my mom and siblings but I cant talk with them because they are fake. My brother Eddie for years has pretended to be empathic and I've told him multiple times that I feel he's being fake and pretending to have empathy. He flat out said he's not here for my feelings but to listen, and his tramua has caused him to not be able to be empathic. However, my oldest brother molested me, and he still is in contact with him. I asked him if he would ever stop talking to him, and he said no. Ibe not said one word to him in days. I feel better. I always known but it was too tough to just be lonely. Anyway, I feel so alone. I started massaging my toxic dad, and I feel somewhat better, actually.

I tried getting my moms attention but nothing. A fond memory popped up and I remembered that I would be so disappointed because she would lie to me about little things that got my hopes up and my dad would lie about us going over his house when were younger. VERY DISAPPOINTING to me as a child and now I'm a DISAPPOINTMENT :)))

School is okay.. but I’m all alone._.

School is a tad bit better-.- Met a few ppl

Today has been so DEPRESSING. School is only making things worse:|

I went to school for the first time in FOREVER. I literally can’t stand these annoying rich girls.They will passive aggressive as hell and have everything like DAMN bitch you bitter. Go snort coke or something bitch.

Hi going to pretend this is my journal because why not