raspberryfixx

“You don’t deserve me. I can tell.”

“That’s perfect. I want someone I don’t deserve.”

“The Rule”

Yesterday, I just broke off with a so-called "friend". I liked him, a little too much. On hindsight I'm not even sure he treated me as a friend. I was just his minion, doing his bidding. And so I asked that we become strangers for a month; he didn't even ask why-- just became concerned who will he run to for his troubles. But that's not my problem. That's his. I felt a tinge of guilt. Didn't want to obviously make him feel alone as he already is. But to be truthful, he didn't really need me all that much either. And he made it hella sure that I felt replaceable.

Was the two years just him grooming me to be the perfect spy for him? I mean I don't think I could get the same service from him. Could I? I didn't need to and I didn't want to. However, from what I learned, every favor I asked of him took great strength to convince him and still ended up in disappointment. That was my loss. Not his.

I am just confused. Was I his friend? Was he my friend?

I'll find out ... Maybe. After a month. Or maybe not.