All Roads Lead to Raqi

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i am Raqi Marr. i am not a leftist & do not follow traditional left-wing ideology in any of its forms (by that i mean: i am not a communist, an anarchist, a social democrat, a socialist, etcetera). instead, i follow my own philosophy, which does have some degree of overlap with the aforementioned, but also some pretty gigantic departures. perhaps the greatest of these being my belief that, in a lot of cases, hurting people is actually good for them; and that violence as a phenomenon is not inherently bad

i do not believe in any form of inherent kinship with the other people who i share identity-groups with (referring here to the sort of things that people tend to speak of as "trans solidarity.") i am trans, autistic, disabled, and a lesbian; if you are all of those things and you do something i do not like you, i will eat you

the only people i hold as kin are the ones i choose to

i have a neurological condition known as PDA which means that my brain produces dopamine when other people act hostilely towards me; which means that i find it delightful when other people tell me that i am a bad person or that my views are Problematic™, in that way that they do when they're trying to get them to stop. please feed me your criticisms stemming from moral philosophies that i do not subscribe to: they are delicious and i will screenshot them and share them with all of my friends and we will have a great time

you should try psychedelics. they're really really good. only do them in a safe place though; i had a minor bad experience swallowing one of my LSD tabs and now i get nauseous whenever i eat anything that my brain registers as paper (including bean husks/skin). psychs increase neuroplasticity so that kinda shit is really easy to have happen while you're on 'em

i have two pets: @dumtranskitty-3, my dear darling doll & first floret; and annabelle/annabool, my adpawable kittycat & the Hand of the Sun. @haxsystems is my deniable asset (that's why i'm not following her). they three have seen the light and now believe as i do in almost all things

house robbery is nowhere near as difficult as they make it out to be in movies; you really just wait for people to go on holiday then do whatever. also, no one ever expects you to steal shit from their gardens. i have so fucking many lumps of sandstone now, more than i know what to do with

i endeavour to turn this blog into a source of those kinds of posts that you bookmark for later because they'd be fucking impossible to find otherwise; but for stuff related to the experience of being in 5+ different marginalised groups (Subscribe For Tips On How To Buy Drugs Online!) (50,000 Follower Illegal Immigration Guide Giveaway)

i have written a story. it is Goude and you should read it. it will teach you the secrets of life. here

my doll draws banger fucking artwork and here is some artwork she drew of me. it is very good and i love it and her very much <3 <3 <3

last but not least, i am also capable of casting Raise Cortisol as a cantrip

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raqi's guide on how to get free shit on etsy

awwwww this is so sweeetttt, @anzu-marr-first-floret bibis you gotta see this <3 <3 <3

*side note* I definitely project submissiveness a bit because its my personal practice. Some of your wrtiting reads (to me) like, "Since I cant find a mechanic I trust Ill fix my car." Instead of like, "I love fixing cars, it makes me happy." Obviously you know best what your wants and needs are, but I am curious about your perspective.

sure. it's never going to happen though. i won't really get into the reasons why, it's something my anna understands very well (she's the one who first coined the phrase "i think you would kill anyone who you tried to submit to, ma'am") but it'd take too long to explain in a way that doesn't just make me sound comically arrogant, and i don't really want to

I devised an ingenious solution. I decided if I wanted something I would assume I couldnt have it. That way if I got it, nice suprise, if I didnt I wasnt crushed by disappointment.

As an adult that strategy was less effective. Children's environments are small, controlled, with rules. The world isnt. As an adult the habit was leading me to deny myself things I wanted because I perceived them as impossible.

Have you considered that you might be leaning in to the idea you arent someone who someone would keep as a submissive, because you dont want it to be true, but its easier to have it be, "true," on your terms rather than deal with the uncertainty of the possibility a dom for you is out there?

no, i just literally keep mortally wounding my owners. i've tried subbing to like 50 different people; every single one of them ran off screaming and with new traumatic memories.

i understand the desire to assume that every tgirl is secretly a sub but i am the opposite case; i grew up *thinking* i was a sub, tried subbing for around a decade, and never had any success with it. it's not that i worried there wasn't any domme who would want me, every domme under the sun wanted me; i just didn't want any of *them.* none of them were what i wanted, they weren't good enough for me