Just another fucked up soul

@rapedbythepatriarchy

We are a wonder, but behave as products and are disappointed because people look only at our packages

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Hi everybody!

This blog came out to be an ed blog lately. When I started this it used to be like a notice book for my thoughts.

So here is content about my depression, trauma, anxious, phobia, panic attacks, and anorexia. But also about anything else that is relevant to me.

This blog can and sure will trigger you if you suffer from any of this and I don't want to bother anyone. I want everyone to be safe and healthy but I know I can't force you and things are more complex then they seem and sometimes we need support or at least someone who understands and has common problems. So feel free to visit my blog and ask me anything you wanna know. I'd like you to be kind which includes no meanspo or fatphobia. Please if you're going to report this blog maybe you can just block it instead since this is my safeplace.

Sorry for bothering you and for my bad english.

Wish you all a nice day!

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Hey guys, guess who's back again (yeah, I'm in my bachelor's thesis and procrastinating af) Today I had a hiccup (I often have) and the only thing that really helps me is to eat something. Just one bite and it's gone. Don't know why, but my boyfriend told me so. I just wanted to share my experience. What are you doing if you have a hiccup?

Thought it was funny. It's from nerdswithvaginas on ig

and so only the memory of that time remains with me

I wish I had the courage to be myself and not be ashamed of who I am

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My boyfriend saw me on tumblr and asked if I have a blog and I don't lie to him so I said yes and he asked what I'm tumblring and I responded that I post sad stuff and my thoughts. And this was the moment when he realised that I'm not okay and instead of insisting to see my tumblr or asking more questions he just hugged me tight and said that he loves me.

#I don't deserve him

My boyfriend told me, I'm a very sad person but at the same time the most joyful person he knows and that's exactly how I feel

A little reminder that you don't have to reblog a post to show you're not an homophobic, racist and sexist asshole. You don't have to reblog all of these "reblog if you're against rape" or "reblog if you don't want this cute cat to die 🐈🔫"-posts. If you want to reblog that's fine. But don't feel pressured to do it. You can be a nice person without these reblog posts.

I bought some ghibli stickers to pimp up my diary and they're so cute.

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favourites tag:

sooo ive seen a lot of these posts and i find them rly fun so ive made my own lol

fav decade/era: i wanna go back to like 2000s-early 2010s but id love to experience what the 80s/90s were like

fav colour: red and black (to wear) but in general blues and purples

song/artist: anything lady gaga / MARINA (kinda obvious lol) / pop rock songs from like 2009

fav element: fire

season: summer for sure

fav place: toss up between disney world (florida) and Camden market (odd choice ik)

fav tv show: greys anatomy/american horror story/once upon a time/suits- i can’t choose just one lmao

fav number: there’s a couple lol- 3, 5, 11, 22 (idk this may be a weird question to others but i have preferences on numbers and letters cos im a synaesthete lol)

fav flower: daffodils, roses, daisies and hydrangeas

fav/most talked to mutual(s): @afuckedupghost ummm there’s probs more i just can’t think rn lol all my other ones have been d*leted

soo im tagging @burningphantomthing @afuckedupghost @ducktoswan @orghnno @swtcherryana @reaper-writes

only if u guys want lol no pressure :)

omg i love these questions ty for tagging me ily

fav decade/era: ignoring the historical problems i kinda feel like i’d wanna go to the pirate times and be a pirate arr lmao but also 70s-90s seem cool

color: purple and black

song/artist:

artists(rn): shrimp, tea, aberdeen, the jins

songs(rn): satan is your master - pill friends, fetus - oddly shrugs

element: water (proof we are an unstoppable duo @xmiss-sugar-pinkx )

season: fall n winter

fav place: beach at my grandparents

fav tv show: tokyo ghoul,,, i just <3333

fav number: 8 or 5

fav flower: pink roses

fav/most talked to mutual: @xmiss-sugar-pinkx for sure is my most talked to and favorite mutual by far like you’ve become a daily part of my life and it’s awesome<333 other than that if i like ur posts, comment, rb, tag u in things, ur a treasured mutual of mine☺️

tagging: @thinparkji @bluefingertips @feeling-kinda-sad-ngl @4norexic4sparagus @89400 @n0tthinenough @enby-is-dying @fvck-my-world @greenteaeyebagss @icedcoffeequeer @sk3lli (tagging a lot of y’all cause this lovely favorites tag is awesome)

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fav decade/era: when I wasn't alive

color: 💙

song/artist: nowadays no blueberries, so beautiful, nerves, scardy cat by dpr ian(christian yu)

element: water

season: winter

fav place: in my imagination

fav TV show: I don't have one

fav number: 3,7

fav flower : orchid

fav/most talked mutuals : @bluefingertips @thinparkji @thinningbodypls @afuckedupghost @moonchild123 @mollydollyminus50 @samgay @starvednymph3t @sil3nt-p4ing1rl

and um I can't remember others

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fav decade/era : maybe around the 90s-00s (I don't know why im just attracted to them)

color : black

song/artist : in my cold room - geometric vision (rn) // idk I have a lot

Fav element : water & earth lol

season : winter

Fav place : my room

Fav tv show : idk lol

Fav number : 9

Fav flower : lilies

Most talked : @she-is-losing & @affection-starved-starfish

Tagging : @she-is-losing @affection-starved-starfish @redbeandonut @10lbs @add1ct3d2pain @lonelystarsign @frailfallingfairy @knifuwaiifu @daintybutscary & to all who want to do it

fav decade/era: grunge 90s 😩 the good shit™️

color: dark purple / light pink

song/artist:

i have a lot rn :/... sooo

a quick one before the eternal worm devours connecticut- bloodhail

возвращайся - angel vox

Балконы - angel vox, Нюдовый Чёс

Ты и твоя тень - Увула

fav element: fire and water

fav season: tbh idk lol i think fall or winter :3

fav place: anywhere where my boyfriend is -3-

fav show: the office or the oa,,,,,, idk I don’t watch much tv

fav number: 7, 13

fav flower: forget me nots 🥺

most talked to: the mutual i spoke to most lost their account :(((

tagging: @lonelystarsign @frailfallingfairy @b4tw1ngz @angelicdollies and whoever wants to do it! :3

fav decade/era: 60′s and 70′s rock eras

color: baby blue, baby pink

song/artist: heartbreak on the dance floor by sg lewis is def on repeat lately but usually french music like videoclub or angèle

fav element: water

fav season: winter for sure and fall close second

fav place: paris or london

fav show: tbh all i watch is french shows now/kids shows due to being a nanny, but avatar the last airbender will forever be my fave tv show. hunter x hunter is close

fav number: 23

fav flower: sunflowers

most talked to: i don’t dm any of you sadly but i interact w/ @sil3nt-p4ing1rl and @10lbs the most! (any of you are always welcome to msg me)

tagging: anyone interested! @sickfaerie @whitemonsterbby

fav decade/era: that’s hard cause all the issues in each era but ignoring the icky issues I love the idea of the roaring 20’s with the flappers being baddies pushing for changes for woman and jazz and the Harlem renaissance and bootleggers selling illegal alcohol al copone fucking it up it sounds like a wild time to be alive

color: pastel purple/blue/pink

song/artist: I love so many Doja Cat is my girl tho any of her songs

fav element: earth

fav season: spring

fav place: I love nature any beautiful place in nature where you can explore or do fun/relaxing things

fav show: fav kids show-scooby do now??? I dunno I don’t watch many Vampire Diaries is a good comfort show to fall back on

fav number: I used to struggle badly w OCD numbers are triggering lmao 6 was my safe number and I guess that’s my fav

fav flower:🌻

most talked to: @delicatebruises @trippy-tall-girl @dainteababy @bruhih8this

tagging: ^^all of those I tagged right there!! Also @d1et-d0ve @rapedbythepatriarchy

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Fav decade/era: I'm kinda into history so It's very hard to choose ^^'. But I guess 233-66 million years ago (dinosaurs), early medieval times (vikings), and 1800-1920 (because many books I read are placed in this time)

Fav colour: 💚

Fav song/ artist: soooo many! As song maybe kid midnight (Iron tom) or awakening the centuries (haggard) and artists dropkick murphys and being as an ocean

Fav Element: earth

Season: summer

Fav Place: somewhere in the nature with mountains and forests and far away from civilization

Fav Show: one piece, adventure time, doctor who

Fav number: 7 or 9

Fav flower: 🌻As a kid my grandmother took care of me because my parents couldn't handle me and she had a little farm and I always wanted to help but was too small for real help. So she gave me some sunflower seeds and I was allowed to sow them around the fence every year and they became so big like 2m. It was the only thing I could be proud of.

Most talked to: @darkangeldemonbright, @hamburgertomyhelper and @dontworry-behappy1

Tagging: @wildflower-jiji @almondmilkskinnie @dontworry-behappy1 @greeninsides @psychichcat @sknnyluckycharm @toandfromnobody ( @darkangeldemonbright I guess you are too busy now. So no pressure ^^')

I'd like to tag all my mutuals but it would be too much I guess. So feel free to join if you want :3

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Wash it away - Nahko and medicine for the people

Oh this song is so good! I couldn't decide which is my fav lyrics. So I choose two:

"Holy, holy grandmother, we sing wash us clean of our pain and suffering. Give us strength for a new beginning"

"The road will teach you how to love and let go. It can be lonely but it's the only thing that we've ever known"

This song is so pure and feels so wholesome! You all should listen to it

Someone once told me if my head is a whole mess and I couldn't clean it I should try to clean my environment first and it'll help to get rid of the mess in my head.

#depression #depressiv #anxious #anxitey #ed #eating disorder #ana #anorexia

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Insanity - Rage

"How can you say it's just a point of view, it's up to you. While in the hidden grows this misery in you and me"

♾

Heaven knows - pretty reckless

"Tell them it's good, tell them okay. Don't do a goddam thing they say"

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put a "∞" in my ask box and I'll shuffle my music player and give you my favorite lyric from the song that comes up.

pls!!

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Okay, I give it a try too 🙈

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My mum just gave me this cute clip. She loved my melody as a kid. It's even older than herself. Idk but this makes me happy and wanted to share it with you <3

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