RANDOM BLAHS

“Being cheated on isn’t a feeling that disappears. Its not a feeling that goes away when you find someone new. Eight years later, I’m still having problems trusting partners. I’m still wondering what it was about me that wasn’t worth your time. I’ve been looking everywhere under my skin to see the reasons that I wasn’t good enough. And no amount of comfort from anyone else will ever give me that reassurance that I’m good enough for them. You broke a part of me that no one will ever be able to fix. Not even me.”

the hardest thing i had to do this year was not to remember you as the person who loved me in ways no one else ever had before but to remember you as the person who left me broken in ways i didn’t think i could break.