mammon's hooman

Mammon didn't know what to decipher from that expression. Was it anger? Or sadness? Or just plain annoyance?

The walk back home was filled with uncomfortable silence.

Maybe not so much for you since you're suddenly back to your usual cheery self.

But the second-born couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong indeed. Although, Mammon did respect your choice and decided to let it go. His priority right now is to make sure you're okay.

But you're doing just... fine...? Mammon thought you'd be more dejected since he knew how much preparation you've done for the project, only for it to be disapproved by the lecturer because he didn't like your working methods.

Mammon watched you stay up all night for a week just to make sure this project is a success, so it's understandable if you're feeling down from the harsh critiques just now.

But you seemed okay...?

You were laughing just fine with his brothers during dinner just now. And you're well enough to cause trouble with Lucifer right after.

Huh... Maybe you really are doing just fine.

Or so he thought until he caught you sobbing in the middle of the night.

It's a good call that he offered—more like pleaded, actually—to stay with you tonight because if not, he wouldn't have witnessed this.

Turns out, you've been masking yourself from the start, only revealing your true emotions when you're alone.

Mammon lied still, not wanting to scare you if you knew he was awake. His heart clenched tightly as if it could bleed the longer he heard your cries.

And you still had the conscience to cover it, in fear that your sobs may wake him up. Well, not that he's really asleep though.

Mammon quietly glanced at your side, and he could see how your body trembled. You've curled yourself into a ball and tightly clutched the blanket in your fist.

Enough is enough, he thought.

Mammon shifted closer to you, purposely making loud noises to show you that he was awake.

Fortunately, you didn't push him away this time.

He embraced you gently, hands secured in their rightful place as he planted your face on his chest.

If it's one thing he learned about you, it is that you hate it when someone sees you cry. That's the sole explanation Mammon could conclude when you didn't reveal your true feelings to him earlier during the walk back home.

Your cries instantly became uncontrollable the moment you realised that Mammon was here for you, and his heart squeezed once again. It hurt to see you like this, but he knew it hurt you more.

You've been on edge every day because of this project, and receiving such words only did you more harm than good.

At this rate, he could only imagine what was happening inside your head, and truthfully, he blamed himself a little for not being observant enough to know that you were never fine.

The more Mammon thought about it, the more furious he got.

But the anger dissipated when he realised you were still trembling heavily inside his arms.

Mammon pulled away slowly and cupped your wet cheeks, "MC, look at me and breathe."

The pained look on your face worried him more, "It's okay. I'm right here with ya. Deep breathe... hold it in and let it out. Deep breathe... hold it... let it go."

Mammon's soothing voice guided you until he was satisfied with your condition. He then wiped your tears gently before pulling you back into his arm.

You were still crying, but your breathing was more controlled this time. Mammon took this chance to assure you everything will be okay, and your project will succeed despite what the lecturer said.

"You still have another week to send the improvised version, yeah?"

"But what if-"

"No, you'll be fine. You'll do just great because no one's idea was as creative as yours. And if he thinks the other way, then he can shove a stick right up his ass!"

Mammon earned some small laughs from you. Hands still softly rubbing small circles on your back, he continued, "I ain't jokin'. You saw how Lucifer didn't say anythin' about what happened in class? And how annoyed Satan looked after that lecturer said such things to you? Ya ain't in the wrong, MC."

You decided to let his words sink in and embrace the comfort Mammon offered to you.

"I know ya did your best. And that's all that matters. You're important to me, and I want you to know that you can always come to me anytime you want. I'm here for ya," he said before pulling you even closer.

"Good job today, treasure. Ya deserve a good night's sleep. Don't worry, the Great Mammon's gonna be here for ya all the way."

Solomon silently observed you from afar as you quietly finished your experiment.

The whole class was busy with their own work, not paying any attention to your direction.

Was it a good thing? He's not sure. But he thought it's definitely fortunate that no one paid attention to you when the instructor gave you harsh critiques just now.

But having no one paying attention means that no one stood up for you too.

Solomon clicked his tongue in annoyance. Why didn't your team members defend you? And why were you the only one that has to take the blame? Everyone should share the same burden!

As soon as everyone finished their experiments and cleaned up before leaving the lab, he glanced at you again.

Solomon could see your shoulders trembling as you quickly wiped away your tears, fearing that anyone could catch your action.

And as if the whole world came tumbling down to hit him, Solomon froze.

What was he doing, not defending you when he could have? Sure, he's not one of your teammates, but he's there too, for Diavolo's sake! He could've stepped up and said something!

"Alright, that's all for today's lab. You're all free to leave." At the instructor's words, everyone began leaving the lab, chattering with each other happily and totally oblivious about your worsening state.

"MC–" He turned around to look for you, but you were already on your way to leave, accidentally slapping your shoulder with his body.

"Sorry." The reply was curt and sharp, something he'd never expect from you. But your feet never stopped, and you fastened your pace away from him, away from everybody else.

Solomon instantly knew something was very wrong. He then quickly followed you.

You led him to a place distant from the main building of RAD. And there weren't any students nearby even though it was lunch hour and students were free to roam around the school compound.

There, he saw you, hugging your knees with your back against the wall. Your expression was blank, but your red eyes gave away your current state.

When you saw Solomon approaching, you held up a hand, wanting him to give you some space.

So he chose to sit down not too far beside you, respecting your choice of wanting to be alone. He didn't speak or make any noise, just patiently waiting for you to give him some signals—any signs—to indicate that you're ready to talk it out.

"...Why are you here?" you finally spoke.

"I want to make sure that you're okay."

Solomon was met with another long silence after that. Then, he heard muffled cries coming from your way.

You must've tried your best to hold it in; deep down, Solomon felt terrible.

If he wasn't there, you would've cried comfortably, but he knew it wasn't wise to have you be alone in this state.

And so, he stayed there, offering whatever silent comfort he could offer.

Feeling a slight tug on his sleeve a few minutes after, Solomon looked over at you before extending his arms to wrap themselves around your body. His warmth engulfed you from whatever hideous thoughts lingering inside your mind. You needed this hug, and Solomon knew it too.

You two shared the hug in comfortable silence, Solomon not saying a word though his hands never stopped drawing small circles on your back.

"Sorry for burdening you," you said.

"You're never a burden, MC. I would be more than happy to be here with you."

Your grip on his shirt tightened, "...And sorry for acting harshly towards you earlier."

"It's okay, love." Solomon smiled a little before kissing your forehead gently. "Just let me know what I can do to help make you feel better," he said.

Solomon's gentle touches on your body have already helped a lot. But the thought of him wanting to help you overcome this tough phase touched your soul even deeper.

You accepted his kindness instead of pushing him away like you did a few minutes ago. He deserved to be here, with you. You deserve his compassion.

And so, you drilled it inside your mind, trying your best to shoo away those ugly thoughts.

"I'm sorry too, MC," Solomon added, "Sorry for not sticking up for you. You don't deserve that kind of treatment."

"That's okay. It's my fault anyway."

"MC, don't try to take all the blame on yourself. This isn't your fault entirely, and it's okay to make mistakes sometimes. You're no less relevant than other people, I assure you. You've done your best, and that's what truly matters. And one mistake doesn't make you a total failure forever."

Solomon cupped your cheeks warmly before staring deep into your eyes. His eyes spoke warmly to you, and so were his touches. Everything about him spells worry and comfort for you, and you're one step closer to crying again. But not because of anxiety this time.

"I want you to know that I care about you so much. So don't ever push me away. Let me be here to comfort you when you're down. And let me be here to witness you rise back again. I want to be by your side, even if the whole world is against us. So rest assured that you can talk to me about anything. I'll always be here, waiting for you patiently." Solomon took your hand before placing a soft kiss on top of it.

This sorcerer may have inserted a double meaning in those lines he spoke to you, but none of it was a lie. If you're his destiny, he'll do absolutely anything and everything to make sure he's the one by your side until the end, truly supporting you in your journey called 'life'.

You had an awful day today, and you've talked it out with your friends; Simeon included.

Considering you're supposed to stay the night at the Purgatory Hall today, Simeon understands if you decide to cancel the plan and want some time alone.

But that's not the case because you still wanted to have the sleepover at his. You only requested some time alone after school.

The plan was supposed to be you, taking your time off in your own room while the Purgatory Hall members prepared what needed to be done before you arrived for dinner.

But the plan was cut short when you suddenly decided to come over during the evening.

"Sim!" Your voice awfully cheerful at the other side of the line, "Can I come over right now?"

"Now? I thought you said you wanted some time alone. And dinner's not ready yet."

"Well, Asmo took me to a relaxing spa session just now, so I'm already feeling better. It's okay, I can wait for dinner. I just feel like seeing you right now..."

Simeon silently heaved out a sigh of relief at your words. He agreed to let you come over right now and fetch you from the House of Lamentation.

And true, you're already smiling and doing so much better. Simeon only had the demon brothers to thank for. Although, there was a tiny pang of jealousy in him when you decided to seek them instead of him, your lover.

But Simeon knew better than to be jealous right now because he knew how much the brothers meant to you, and they're also your very first friends in Devildom.

Though, that didn't stop him from worrying about you. So Simeon suggested you take a nap and rest while he cooked dinner.

And truthfully, you did have to rest. After such an emotionally and physically exhausting day, a good nap is much needed.

You took up his offer to rest in his room, giving him a peck on his cheek and showing how much you appreciate his effort in taking care of you.

Seeing how easily you went to sleep, Simeon left the room, equally satisfied and relieved to witness that you were resting well. He continued to prepare for dinner while occasionally helping Luke bake your favourite cookies together. (Solomon and Raphael also helped by not disturbing the two and cleaning the hall instead).

And now that dinner's ready, Simeon decided it was time to wake you up from your nap. You were sleeping soundly and truthfully; it broke his heart to even wake you up. But you need to eat, that's a fact.

So he gently sat down beside you and swiped your bangs away from your forehead before placing a soft kiss on your forehead.

"Wake up, starlight. It's dinner time."

It took you only a few seconds to respond by squinting your eyes open, slowly giving him a smile as he guided you to sit up from the bed. His hand rubbed small comforting circles behind your back, "Did you have a good nap?"

"Mmhmm," you nodded.

"Come, everyone's waiting for us."

You were greeted by the sight of your favourite food and cookies in the dining room. Luke smiled widely when he gave you the cookies he made while Simeon and Raphael helped set the table. The environment was very welcoming and comfortable. You thanked everyone for their effort to cheer you up.

But Diavolo knows what or why; when you sat beside Simeon so you could finally eat, a tear slipped down your cheek.

"MC?!" Luke and Solomon were surprised to see you cry.

Heck, even you didn't realise that you were crying.

And once you realise that you actually were, the tears can no longer be stopped. It kept flowing swiftly down to your cheeks. You've tried your best to stop it—to stop ruining the cheerful mode they've helped set up—and to stop being so pathetic.

What's wrong? You've talked it out, acknowledged that you're overwhelmed, unwound and calmed down; you even took a good nap! So why are you still upset?! Why are you still–

Simeon's arms immediately snaked around your body, hiding your face to his chest so you could cry comfortably.

Your sobs then became uncontrollable, and you gripped his shirt tightly.

Seeing your reaction, Simeon gently lifted you up from your seat before saying, "Sorry everyone, you can start the dinner without us. We'll join you later." He smiled a bit, especially to Luke, so the little one didn't worry too much. Simeon then exchanged a few glances with Solomon and Raphael before nodding slightly, making sure they understood the situation you were in—and what they need to do to help keep the situation calm.

He then brought you back to his room, where he gently placed you on his bed and continued comforting you.

"I'm sorry for ruining the dinner," you managed to say in between your sobs.

"You're not ruining anything, starlight. It's not your fault." A gentle kiss to the crown of your head before Simeon hugged you again.

"I–I don't know why I'm like this. I–I... I thought I–"

"MC, it's okay to feel this way. Everything that happened is too much for your emotions to handle, and I understand that. Your feelings are valid."

"But I've talked it out!"

"Yes, and you're still allowed to feel sad about it. It doesn't mean that you have to be strong and never falter after you talk it out." Simeon pulled away for a while to wipe your tears with his thumb, "It's okay, MC. I'll always be here for you."

You could do nothing other than crying your heart out. It hurts. It truly hurts.

And Simeon was there with you—true to his words—throughout the painful phase, reassuring you and making sure you were okay.

You wanted to apologise for burdening him, but his words earlier made you realise how these thoughts you have weren't true at all.

Simeon's still here. The brothers are still with you. Luke even baked your favourite cookies to cheer you up. They all still care for you. You're not burdening anyone—you never were a burden. And most importantly–

You are loved and cherished.

I would like to thank my friends/mutuals who have been there for me during my emotional breakdown phases. My last semester hasn't been exactly kind to me; it's the harshest and most challenging semester (and it'll probably be even more difficult in the future). Thank you so much for checking up on me, reminding me to take breaks, and reassuring me when I'm at my lowest.

I don't want to play favourite and name them because every one of my mutuals is always checking up on me from time to time, so thank you so much. I appreciate you all <3 Hope you all won't be sick reading my rants again in a few months XD

Oh! And special thanks to Noelle @amistytown for helping me figure out the right term to be used in this HC <3 Mwah to you, Noelle >///<

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Though, it took you a long time to have him admit it himself. And it took you even longer to have him comfortable around you even though you've been dating for a few months now.

You never forced him to do the things he's uncomfortable with. You'd always respect his space and let him go to you.

And once he does, Levi can actually be pretty clingy. Not that you'll complain since he owed you months of affection.

When Levi is playing games, you would always be by his side to either cheer him up, help him strategise, or just sit there quietly while you do your own things.

So does he when you scrolled through Devilgram or Deviltok when he's playing games. It doesn't mean that you're bored or anything, you just want to catch up with your social media life and he understands that.

Because you both will talk things out when one of you needs it.

"Hey, can I play in the next round?" "Sure!"

"MC, will you pay attention to me for a while?" "Of course, Levi. What can I do for you?"

When you and Levi watch anime together, cuddling is a must.

You just love having him close. And you're pretty sure he loves it too. It's Levi's favourite thing.

When it's action genre, you'll catch yourself staring at Levi more than the screen. Because he looks so focused and absolutely adorable.

"Do you not like the anime?"

Oops!

"I like it, but I think I like watching you more." You snuggled closer to him, enjoying the warmth from both the blanket and him.

*Cue a blushing Levi* Congrats! Now, he too can no longer focus!

But when you're watching a slice of life or fantasy genre, you both will have your eyes glued to the screen, only remembering to eat dinner or go to sleep when Mammon banged on the door loudly.

There are also times when you'll cuddle as you're reading mangas.

But since you usually like your personal space when you're reading, Levi never initiated to cuddle. Unless you want to, of course.

And he'll always find you crawling closer to him when you're binge-reading your favourite romance mangas.

Most of the time, you'll ask for kisses or hugs from the demon when you're squealing too hard from reading the romantic scenes. It works like a spell, as if physical affection from your lover can pull you back into reality.

---

A giggle left your lips after a long silence in the room.

It's a typical weekend night where you'll spend your time in Levi's room, either watching anime, playing with Henry 2.0 or joining him for a co-op game night. But today, you decided that you want to catch up with your favourite mangas instead.

Levi gave you plenty of pillows and a blanket for you to get comfortable in his bedtub. Meanwhile, leaning back to his beanbag chair, Levi was playing with his latest RPG game, trying his best not to disturb your peace and asking what has made his lover so happy without him.

Feeling jealous over 2Ds is something you both have talked about before. And you both agree that even if you have your own waifus or husbandos, you'll always put each other first on your list.

So what Levi was feeling wasn't exactly jealousy, but more on curiosity.

Another side glance was given to you and Levi was encaptured with your brightly smiling face. The world seemed to stop for a second as he felt his heart thump and a blush crept through his cheeks.

This is bad for his heart!

And as if you could sense the shift of emotions in the third-born, you quickly climbed out of the bedtub and made your way to your lover, hand still clutching his blanket tightly. His cute blushing face made it hard for you not to tackle him down and shower him with butterfly kisses.

The trick with Levi is to be careful and slow, so he could be comfortable with your presence.

"Can I hug you?" you asked, still smiling widely.

"Huh?! O-oh... Okay..."

At his approval, you quickly sat beside him before leaning in and wrapping your arms around his waist, head resting comfortably on his shoulder as you hid your face on the crook of his neck.

His warmth filled your heart with love and adoration. His slow breathing made it seem as if your problems will be gone in an instant. His heartbeat that's slowly increasing made you realised—

You really love this demon to death.

Levi gently adjusted the blanket to cover your body after making sure he had paused his game. His hand released the console to wrap his arm around your waist, reciprocating your action.

'MC must've been reading their favourite romance manga, huh?' He thought.

"Did something romantic happen in the manga?" Levi asked.

He expected a positive answer, but all he got was you shaking your head. And now he's truly confused.

"The boyfriend in this manga is absolutely awful." You went back to hugging him before continuing, "He made me want to jump inside the manga and punch him right in his gut."

Levi couldn't help but feel threatened by your words, even though he knew it was clearly directed to the character. Just what exactly has the character done to provoke such emotions from you?

"But you know, it made me realise how lucky I am to have someone like you as my boyfriend," you continued.

Levi had to fake to clear his throat to stop himself from profusely blushing over your comment. Before he could prompt more questions on the character's behaviour, you cupped his cheeks gently before touching your foreheads together.

The loving look in your eyes was something that cannot be fake, that much Levi knew. And times like these really help him counter his insecurities.

Ah... He truly loves you. And he'd gladly fight anyone to keep you like this beside him.

The usual scenario would be you closing the distance between you two, but this time, Levi volunteered. Capturing your lips to his only numbed his senses, as if the world is dead silent aside from his heartbeat that was pounding inside his chest.

Levi never thought he'd be able to find someone who truly enjoys the same hobbies as him, let alone someone that loves him. But your presence in his life proved him wrong. You're his best friend and his lover. And with you by his side, Levi knows that he'll be able to get through things just fine.

Maybe it's time he learns that the voices inside his head are just jealous of this happiness.

This is self-indulgent to its finest. Because I imagine this is how my relationship with him will be >///< I want a Levi in my life, please? :')

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