Tw : abus3 mentions (including s3xu4l) and p3do mentions, b3astiality mentions, Sh mentions, su1c1de mentions
TLDR ; basically, weâve known several incredibly abusive âendosâ or just people who faked DID in order to abuse or get close to us.
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We have known⌠several⌠âendosâ. Or people who just flat out faked being DID systems and/or nondisordered/nontraumagenic âsystemsâ.
One of them, weâll call him Guy A, was a pedo who forced and manipulated his way into our life. He accidentally found out we were a system because of a little. He became OBSESSED with us, but with a few alters in particular. He figured out our triggers and a bunch of info about us and used it to his advantage. He forced one of our alters, an age slider, to slide to whatever age he wanted to fit whatever his âneedâ was. Typically a little or middle age. When she was her middle age, heâd assault or rape her and would force her to do whatever the fuck he wanted. And he did a bunch of other shit I wonât go into. A bit into knowing him, he told us he had an alter. Who was supposedly formed by âtraumaâ. The story of her origin kept on changing and info about her in general was incredibly inconsistent. Then he admitted to making the whole thing up. Several months after weâd finally gotten rid of him, he tried to worm his way back into our life. Showing up on our doorstep every morning to walk us to school (we lived in the same neighborhood), following us, stalking us, etc. at one point when we went on vacation and when we came back he was so livid he tried to physically assault us, saying how we could do this to him, where have we been, how he was late to school because he kept waiting for us every morning, that we shouldâve told him where we were, etc. then his demeanor changed and he got all nice and sweet, saying he was just worried about us. We finally got us to leave us alone again. Then a while later, we, amongst a couple other people, got assaulted by someone and it was taken to the police. So Guy A started stalking and following us again. He followed me home from school one day and threatened me and then asked me something along the lines of âare you still accusing guys of raping you?! You little fucking faker. Youâre so manipulative.â And then he basically said we were a cocktease and we deserved it. I told him to leave me alone and he just laughed at me⌠(also, this guy fucked his dog and made his cat and dog lick his dick and ass. And constantly talked about how hot little 8 year old boys were and how it was like they were just begging him to fuck him. When I told him that that was gross, he hit me.)
Weâll call this one Guy B. Guy B claimed to have a system, but had zero trauma. He was incredibly self-centered, manipulative, also a p3do, into beastiality, and more stuff I donât really remember because others hold most of that trauma. Guy B said he was an endo system, any time we said that those werenât real or questioned the possibility, heâd get pissed, throw a tantrum, or âswitchâ for âproofâ. Or heâd tell us that WE were the ones faking. He did a bunch of shit. Iâm not even sure what all he did. But from what Iâve gathered, all of his âaltersâ abused us, he tried to convince a su1c1dal alter to jump and got her to cut herself and send him pictures heâd masturbate to, would constantly talk about lots of really disgusting sexual fantasies of his, tried to convince us we werenât a system or that we were a system without trauma like him, tried to convince him that DID isnât valid and that you donât need trauma to form a system, and more. It got to the point that the abuse was so bad that we have an introject based off of one of his alters because someone in our system couldnât handle the insane amount of abuse he put her and us in general, through. Also, him and Guy A wound up becoming besties and I think boyfriends and they would basically tag team us and abuse us and convinced a very vulnerable alter to send them inappropriate pictures. And they both convinced us to cut a bunch of good people out of our life
I got introduced to a girl who claimed to have DID and claimed to have been abused by the same person I had been. Which, ok, neat. Someone to relate to. I was sad sheâd been abused and wished sheâd be ever gone through any of that, but she seemed alright ig. Well, when I first met her, she seemed immediately just, off. I began to notice that everything about her was incredibly inconsistent. She claimed all her alters had just âdisappearedâ. And that thatâs why they never fronted. But then sheâd turn around and say how sheâd done something with an alter or how an alter had done whatever recently?? Any time we pointed out any inconsistencies, sheâd fix them shortly thereafter. She began to copy us. Which was exactly what the person whoâd supposedly abused her had done. Heâd done that to me, so that was just fucking lovely. Some chick claiming to have been abused by the same guy as me doing the EXACT SAME FUCKING THINGS that he did. Just minus the sexual abuse part (but even then, she did some shit Iâm not comfortable sharing that could be considered borderline sexual abuse). After a few weeks of knowing her, suddenly her alters just âcame backâ?? And then they all left again. Skip forward a bit and suddenly she has like 5-6 new alters?? Who didnât form from ANY trauma and literally just fucking appeared out of nowhere. Also, when she said her alters âdisappearedâ, she said that they literally just left her inner world. Not dormant or fused. Just left. Like they went To someone elseâs inner world or some other place. And she said that they just âdid thatâ. Just came and went as they pleased. And as far as I could tell, none of them ever helped her with ANY fucking trauma. She also claimed to have hallucinations and possibly schizophrenia but a lot of her friends and family said she was most likely faking. And idk if she was or not, but that whole thing in itself was just really fucking weird and off. But I donât wanna call her a liar bc hey, idk. Honestly, all of her âaltersâ couldâve just been because of schizophrenia. I only ever talked to her âaltersâ via text (on very, very rare occasion. And none of them were ever consistent-). And a lot of her and her alters seemed to be bad copies of ours/us. Like I told her that I was Genderfluid. Shortly after, she came out as Genderfluid. She noticed I had tics, suddenly she had tics too (but there was never any actual evidence of them?? Like, I donât think I ever ONCE saw her tic). When I told her I used multiple pronouns, suddenly she did too. But then almost never actually used them and actually got upset whenever I did try and use said pronouns for her?? And when I used her alters names/pronouns while they were supposedly fronting, âtheyâ didnât respond or got confused or were like wtf. And if I questioned this, then the girl would just be like âoh sorry yeah Iâm fronting nowâ. I mean, yeah, that could theoretically be possible. But like, every time?? 5 seconds after this other âalterâ was supposedly fronting?? When thereâs no triggers?? And/or a supposedly strong trigger for whatever alter?? Although, she did have one supposed alter who did seem like an actual alter which confused tf outta me and made me question if maybe I was wrong about the whole thing. But then he quickly disappeared and a lot of people said she made him up to fool me. Which, looking back, was probably true. Also, she tried to kill herself in front of the bodyâs brother. and 911 had to be called and she had to go to the hospital. So thereâs that. Which I will never, ever, ever fucking forgive her for
Weâve known more âsystemsâ than this, but this is already long as shit⌠but basically, all of them were abusive and incredibly inconsistent. The few endos Iâve seen recently on places like r/XenogendersAndMore arenât as bad as the ones weâve known previously but they still arenât great and basically fucking attack you if you so much as ask what an endo is. Much less if you question if theyâre real or not.
im sorry you went through all that, you didnt deserve a single bit of what you went through
i hope now adays things are much better for you and only continue to get better