Lost in emotion

When someone is struggling with any form of mental health and you dont understand it, just do us all a favor and be quiet. Being condescending doesnt help. Criticizing doesnt help. Making it about you doesn't help. Saying snap out of it doesn't help. Asking what do you have to be depressed about doesnt help. We don't choose be or have any of what we are dealing with. It takes a special kind of person WHO CHOOSES to go to school and become mental health professionals to help us and we dont expect everyone to understand or to choose to understand what is happening to us. What we hope and want is respect. We beat ourselves up on our own every waking minute of every day already.

Everyone says "your parents wouldn't want you to die"

I was doing some deliveries for some extra cash and something to do. During one delivery there was an item missing from the customers order and he became beliggerant and violent. In a matter of seconds he went from being disabled sitting on his walker to standing up and pushing me so hard I fell backwards onto some stairs across from his apartment door. I got up to leave and he grabbed me from behind and threw me down.

I am constantly torn between killing myself and killing everyone around me.

The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.

They think they know you.

Why do they say suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem??

What do you do when your life has begun crashing down all around you and the pain is unbearable and you know nothing will change, nothing will make it better. Losing dad, than mom, have zero other family. The person who said theyd always be there is now leaving which means i have.nomcar, no home, and i lose all my furbabies. So when this happens you make your plan. You go through each step so you know everything will work perfectly since you had to change things. Nothing matters anymore except stopping the emotional pain......

Suicide is not selfish