Queen of the cult/Half Man era

OMGGGG

i knew going in that whatever was going to happen in that barn would be ugly and gutwrenching and tragic, but what i didnt expect, a possibility so much more painful than any sustained cruelty i ever couldve imagined, was that it would simply end. that after 40 years of making excuses for ruben's behaviour, after writing a whole book about how he sees ruben as this tragic figure who does awful things but is ultimately good at heart, his big brother, his hero – it would take ruben less than 5 minutes to kill niall in that barn. all the love and all the pain and all the hope and all the "what could have been" and what could have still been, erased without fanfare. ill see you in the next life. this one was beyond repair, it couldnt be saved, but ill make it up to you in the next one. except there isnt going to be a next one. this was it. this was it and you blew it, and now its over. i expected rape and torture and mutilation. what we actually got cut me so much deeper

when you're at the humiliation ritual competition and then niall kennedy shows up and invites the guy he frequented chemsex parties with, the girl he went to college with who he kept asking for money to pay off his fuck ups in adulthood, the ex who he got pregnant and cheated on a bunch of times, to his wedding with the guy his brother beat half to death and put in coma in college, and then said brother shows up at said wedding so they can kill each other

when you're at the humiliation ritual competition and then niall kennedy shows up and invites the guy he frequented chemsex parties with, the girl he went to college with who he kept asking for money to pay off his fuck ups in adulthood, the ex who he got pregnant and cheated on a bunch of times, to his wedding with the guy his brother beat half to death and put in coma in college, and then said brother shows up at said wedding so they can kill each other

richard gadd stop. your characters are too nuanced, your stories are too captivating. they'll kill you.

half man sequel where ava and mona shack up and raise their sons together, a totally new and unheard of concept that could not possibly go wrong