Rainbow Crusader

I wish my mom would have left me instructions on how to go on with life without her

I wish I was better at accepting the status quo. I think it would bring more peace to my life.

Praying for the grace to let go.

Have the grace to let it go.

One race does not define me.

Quit looking, and just let it be.

Which?

Go get it or let it go. Decide.

Hoping for the day when I feel settled and sure. Routine perhaps is boring, but unsureness causes anxiety. Just going with the flow. Learning. Breathing. Settled would be nice.

The only way through is forward.

Trying to want what I have, what I think I should want.

Did you ever just stop and wonder what the fuck you're doing?

Sometimes I miss New York so much my heart hurts.

I'm not sure I'm ever going to recover. I feel so lost.