!tw ed!

2025 and i am back

its so frustrating when i am on pills that side effects for everyone is losing weight but since i started taking them my weight completely stoped even tho i am in calorie deficit, eat lot of protein and workout. Its really discouraging :(

also i know probably noone reads it but i want to make some things clear. I am not pro ana, i am person with eating disorders but ive learned since 2015 that pro ana is the worst shit. Yes i have ed, yes i hate MY body and i am doing a lot of bad things to change that, but to clarify: i support body positivity, i love women men and others in all shapes and sizes!! and i am really sorry for other people with ed that do not understand how fucked up some things are

being on recovery while having friends that you know have ED is such a hard thing to do, like I’ve tried. Ive tried for so long… and it came back again. When i was trying to recover i just stoped talking about looks, kcal’s and all that so i can avoid comments from other people, but now? they think i am all healthy and forgot about the fact that i have ed since like 2015. Some of them started talking about kcal’s, one is really disordered and is talking “how can you lose wight and look good in a new year” but he is describing a full blown anorexia. I am so fucking tired, I’ve relapsed this month. I feel like a shit but this shit is making me feel comfortable and in place again, i hate it here.