Good evening. I am Nikolai | Gin | Zeerk
ɪᴛ / ᴛʜᴀᴛ. Highly Functional NullHuman, Big hands full of pretentions.
Trading cash for the beef, for the body, for the hate.
Come for a chat or whatever you lookin for. Can't guarantee my words make sense to you but they're honest.
─ If you don't find a single ounce of pleasure in destroying beauty and beautifying destruction, then you must be lacking something important as a human being and I don't trust you.
‡ ─── 𝕳𝕺𝕭𝕴𝕿𝖀𝕾
I am a living, sometimes intelligent being of the Hominidae family (or that might seem), who has two prensile hands that he can use as, and/or make tools with.
So I am simply going to tell you a bit about myself.
I am 27, from Argentina, although I also lived in Arkansas for a few months. I am a man, but I consider myself a thing, because in addition to being a gender abolitionist, I don't believe that human beings—or living beings in general—should hold any special distinction from the rest of the matter that exists in the universe.
I am a very cordial, very polite person. I deeply value being addressed in a respectful and civil manner; if I sense that someone has no interest in showing that respect, I instantly lose all interest in whatever they have to say.
I have congenital Primary/Type 1 Psychopathy ASPD. I do not have mirror neurons, and my prefrontal cortex and amygdala do not function properly. This means I cannot feel bad just because someone else feels bad, nor can I feel good because someone else feels good. I also lack an automatic, deep sensory or emotional response to the stimuli or situations around me. This is, clearly, very different from how most audiovisual media represents my archetype though.
Just because I lack automatic empathy does not mean I am a rude or discourteous brute—quite the opposite, actually. I perfectly understand something very simple that honestly surprises me many "empathetic" people fail to grasp: being, above all else, respectful toward others and clear about your intentions is far more beneficial for oneself in the long run than being seen as a self-centered, selfish person seeking instant gratification at the expense of others. However, my motives to act this way are entirely selfish, and yes I will deffinitely abuse power without a second thought and take advantage of any situation or person around me in any way imaginable if it means I get something from it without consecuence. Gladly for you, usually consecuences do exist, so I tend to not do that, or, at least not without... permission.
I like botanical alchemy, Sphagyrics; I breed genetic strains of cannabis as a hobby. I practice both alchemy and esoteric magick of practically every kind you can imagine. I am also highly fascinated by the human mind. I study it constantly and in depth, and having control over it is something that has always profoundly obsessed me. Yes you can offer as a test subect, I would love that.
I also have many paraphilias. I am omnisexual, though I lean more toward the feminine presenting. Being as I am also means that, even if I may act out social norms, I have no shame and no guilt for anything. This includes sex. So overly casual explicit sexual approaches, offers, requests and talk are encouraged, since I love pleasure and I do not see any reason not to experience it.
It is indeed a pleasure to meet you all.
🩸 ─── 𝖁𝕴𝕾𝕮𝕰𝕽𝕬
I alone had no body, no senses, no feelings. Never for me to plunge my hands in cool water in a hot day, never for me to play Mozart on the ivory keys of a forte piano, never for me to make love. And i began to hate. Your softness, your viscera, your fluids and your flexibility. Your ability to wonder and to wander, your tendency to hope.
« Mon âme est insensible, elle est impassible... je défie tout sentiment pour l’atteindre, hors le plaisir. Je suis maître des mouvements et des affections de cette âme, de ses désirs, de ses impulsions ; chez moi, tout est sous l’empire incontesté de l’esprit ; et pis encore... car mon esprit est effrayant. Mais je ne m’en plains pas, je chéris mes vices, j’abhorre la vertu ; je suis l’ennemi juré de toutes les religions, de tous les dieux et demi-dieux, je ne crains ni les maux de la vie ni ce qui suit la mort ; et quand on est comme moi, on est heureux. »
── 𝕰 𝕲 𝕺 . 𝕾 𝖁 𝕸 ──
Pro : transid, radqueer, xenoids, neopronouns, transharmfuls, proshipping, kink, profiction, paraphilias, self dox, endo, conabuse , consensual contact, nonhumanism, and more
No DNI, and I encourage you to question your own.
