* LIES / SAVIOR

❝  this time i’m not guilty !

❝  this time i’m not guilty ! 

Ziggler has kept me in the loop about a lot going on since I dropped off the face of the Earth to work on my own shit because I NEEDED to. I wasn’t in the best state mentally, emotionally, anything, and I needed to work on myself.

By now, most people know that, yes, I am Bowie. Yes, that Bowie.

I’m not going to be touching most of the callout or the drama because it’s not healthy at all and I’ve moved past it while working with my doctor and trying to better myself and understand things that led me to where I am.

There are, however, a few things I would like to address so that we can move past them.

1) I am not transphobic. I know that there was insinuation that because I identified as a lesbian in early May while dating a transman that I was transphobic. I understand where this assumption came from and I am sorry to anyone who was hurt by this. What I need you to understand, Ziggler and I were dating for four years as a same sex couple before he came out to me as trans in January of this year. I was immediately supportive, helped him look into options for transitioning, helped him come out to my family and most of his. However, I had only recently come to terms with being gay and I needed time to understand what his coming out meant for my sexuality. I was so focused on his wellbeing that I didn’t put time into thinking of my own.

Could this have been handled better? Yes. At this point, I’ve come to terms with a change in my own identity and openly identify as Bisexual in respect for him.

2) I will maintain that I never stole from HoneyPSD. I have deleted all screencaps (yeah I know, that was part of the callout) because it is what was healthy for me to do. Honey herself said to me that she knew I didn’t steal from her. What prompted the accusation? I snapped at Honey and was absolutely rude to her and shouldn’t have been. I let my anger and stress get the best of me and I hurt someone I considered a friend. And for that, I am truly sorry.

3) Killypool/Aisling. You hurt me. Imagine waking up and realizing that the person you considered your bestfriend decided to cut you out of their life without warning or reason. Imagine that they went to your boyfriend and told him that your existence was anxiety inducing. I was hurt. I had every right to be hurt. But what I didn’t have a right to do was say some of the things I said about you. I was out of line for a lot of that and I’m sorry. I hope that your life is in a better place.

4) Megan/Mightyheroics. The most controversial thing I will say in this post. I owe you nothing. The last conversation we had is saved on my google photos account because of how much your words fucked me up. I spent so much time talking about that conversation with my doctor. You called me a monster because I wanted to change my url because of associations with it and stood up to you. You said everything you could to hurt me. When I asked you for space so that I could get into a better headspace and not fight with you, I was told that that wasn’t fair to you and that I needed to talk to you right then and there. You constantly pushed and pulled until I did anything you wanted me to do. I cared a lot about you. I let you say things about me without ever coming to you or mentioning them on the dash or anything else. And now? I’m asking that you stop. What you did to me was wrong. You and I both know it.

5) Sam/Felinoir. I was mean to you. I was a fucking bitch. Yes, I do still feel like you stole things from me. Yes, I will always believe that. But I should have been upfront with you. I should have told you and pointed them out to you. What I should NOT have done was trash talk you to my friends. For what it’s worth, and I KNOW you won’t believe me, I never sent you anons. I don’t know who did, but I know they had to have been someone that I said something to. And I’m sorry. I am sorry that you got hurt. I should have been the bigger person, blocked you, and kept my mouth shut.

6) Val/Starkinventor. You… spent well over a year stalking and harassing me. You know as well as I do that nothing said about you was antisemetic. Anything construed as such was in regards to your behavior. You had my previous employer information, you had my phone number, my full name, my personal email, and a ton of other things. And I was terrified of you. You spent months after we had our falling out stalking me, harassing me, giving people ultimatums about me. And to this day I don’t know what your obsession was with me. Honestly? I just want you to leave me alone. I have you blocked. I have always had you blocked. And you have continued to stalk me. It was pointed out to me that in a dead blog’s callout accusing someone of being me, you and your friends do have my home address. Please lose that and leave me alone.

8) Gemini/Deadlcrd. I never did anything to you. The only thing I EVER said about you was that when you claimed to leave Tumblr the first time, I saw your IP (that had been posted publicly by someone who claimed you were stalking them) show up in my stat counter. I could see that you had scrolled through my blog, searched specific tags. And mentioned that I was uncomfortable. After Val’s big “callout” and I realized that you had been following me under a different blog and had reblogged the callout, I approached you and told you that I couldn’t keep you on my dash if you believed things about me. I was angry. But after that? I never thought about you again. When you made Thor under the name Gemini? You befriended me. You followed my Jane. You KNEW who I was but I had NO idea who you were. You interacted with me, sent memes, plotted with me. And NEVER ONCE told me who you were. Once I knew who you were? I blocked you. I have continued to ignore your existence on this blog. Please let me continue to do so.

9) Seidmadr/Char. Look, I snapped at you and was a bitch when I broke off communication with you. And I’m sorry for that. I should have been kinder, should have spoke up sooner. And I’m so sorry that I didn’t. You used my past as a sexual abuse survivor and as a sex worker against me in asking about HIV/AIDS contraction rates. You pushed me into a conversation that purposefully triggered me. You guilted me when I didn’t feel like talking. And I broke contact with you because you made me extremely uncomfortable. I explained this to you. I never abused you, manipulated you, or anything like that. I told you I was uncomfortable with you and blocked you across the board.

10) I know I am probably missing a lot here that I need to touch on, but it’s honestly been MONTHS since everything happened and I’m tired and trying to move on. Truly, I’m sorry to people who were hurt. And I’m sorry to people who felt like I did something maliciously because I genuinely never realized that. And I’m sorry you got hurt in the process.

I’m sorry for lying about who I was. I needed an outlet. I needed somewhere to go to write and just write. I needed to have somewhere that wasn’t filled with drama and recognition. And I just wanted something quiet and down low while I worked on myself.

@falseiidol​, @asylumsilenced​, @herobetrayed​, and @gliitchbitch​ are my ONLY blogs. They will probably remain my ONLY blogs.  I have no interest in joining Marvel or other large fandoms. I have no interest in anything other than writing.

I’m not sure if I’ll come back. Life is busy, I work full time, and I’m taking care of myself and working to better myself. I love these characters and I would love to continue writing them. I’m just not sure if time will allow and I’m not sure if the community will allow.

What I do know, is if I come back, I will be focusing on writing. I will not be addressing this again. I will not be going by Bowie as I’m trying to put that reputation behind me and move forward. I would love the chance to prove that I’ve grown and I’m working on being a better person.

Ziggler has kept me in the loop about a lot going on since I dropped off the face of the Earth to work on my own shit because I NEEDED to. I wasn’t in the best state mentally, emotionally, anything, and I needed to work on myself.

By now, most people know that, yes, I am Bowie. Yes, that Bowie.

I’m not going to be touching most of the callout or the drama because it’s not healthy at all and I’ve moved past it while working with my doctor and trying to better myself and understand things that led me to where I am.

There are, however, a few things I would like to address so that we can move past them.

1) I am not transphobic. I know that there was insinuation that because I identified as a lesbian in early May while dating a transman that I was transphobic. I understand where this assumption came from and I am sorry to anyone who was hurt by this. What I need you to understand, Ziggler and I were dating for four years as a same sex couple before he came out to me as trans in January of this year. I was immediately supportive, helped him look into options for transitioning, helped him come out to my family and most of his. However, I had only recently come to terms with being gay and I needed time to understand what his coming out meant for my sexuality. I was so focused on his wellbeing that I didn’t put time into thinking of my own.

Could this have been handled better? Yes. At this point, I’ve come to terms with a change in my own identity and openly identify as Bisexual in respect for him.

2) I will maintain that I never stole from HoneyPSD. I have deleted all screencaps (yeah I know, that was part of the callout) because it is what was healthy for me to do. Honey herself said to me that she knew I didn’t steal from her. What prompted the accusation? I snapped at Honey and was absolutely rude to her and shouldn’t have been. I let my anger and stress get the best of me and I hurt someone I considered a friend. And for that, I am truly sorry.

3) Killypool/Aisling. You hurt me. Imagine waking up and realizing that the person you considered your bestfriend decided to cut you out of their life without warning or reason. Imagine that they went to your boyfriend and told him that your existence was anxiety inducing. I was hurt. I had every right to be hurt. But what I didn’t have a right to do was say some of the things I said about you. I was out of line for a lot of that and I’m sorry. I hope that your life is in a better place.

4) Megan/Mightyheroics. The most controversial thing I will say in this post. I owe you nothing. The last conversation we had is saved on my google photos account because of how much your words fucked me up. I spent so much time talking about that conversation with my doctor. You called me a monster because I wanted to change my url because of associations with it and stood up to you. You said everything you could to hurt me. When I asked you for space so that I could get into a better headspace and not fight with you, I was told that that wasn’t fair to you and that I needed to talk to you right then and there. You constantly pushed and pulled until I did anything you wanted me to do. I cared a lot about you. I let you say things about me without ever coming to you or mentioning them on the dash or anything else. And now? I’m asking that you stop. What you did to me was wrong. You and I both know it.

5) Sam/Felinoir. I was mean to you. I was a fucking bitch. Yes, I do still feel like you stole things from me. Yes, I will always believe that. But I should have been upfront with you. I should have told you and pointed them out to you. What I should NOT have done was trash talk you to my friends. For what it’s worth, and I KNOW you won’t believe me, I never sent you anons. I don’t know who did, but I know they had to have been someone that I said something to. And I’m sorry. I am sorry that you got hurt. I should have been the bigger person, blocked you, and kept my mouth shut.

6) Val/Starkinventor. You… spent well over a year stalking and harassing me. You know as well as I do that nothing said about you was antisemetic. Anything construed as such was in regards to your behavior. You had my previous employer information, you had my phone number, my full name, my personal email, and a ton of other things. And I was terrified of you. You spent months after we had our falling out stalking me, harassing me, giving people ultimatums about me. And to this day I don’t know what your obsession was with me. Honestly? I just want you to leave me alone. I have you blocked. I have always had you blocked. And you have continued to stalk me. It was pointed out to me that in a dead blog’s callout accusing someone of being me, you and your friends do have my home address. Please lose that and leave me alone.

8) Gemini/Deadlcrd. I never did anything to you. The only thing I EVER said about you was that when you claimed to leave Tumblr the first time, I saw your IP (that had been posted publicly by someone who claimed you were stalking them) show up in my stat counter. I could see that you had scrolled through my blog, searched specific tags. And mentioned that I was uncomfortable. After Val’s big “callout” and I realized that you had been following me under a different blog and had reblogged the callout, I approached you and told you that I couldn’t keep you on my dash if you believed things about me. I was angry. But after that? I never thought about you again. When you made Thor under the name Gemini? You befriended me. You followed my Jane. You KNEW who I was but I had NO idea who you were. You interacted with me, sent memes, plotted with me. And NEVER ONCE told me who you were. Once I knew who you were? I blocked you. I have continued to ignore your existence on this blog. Please let me continue to do so.

9) Seidmadr/Char. Look, I snapped at you and was a bitch when I broke off communication with you. And I’m sorry for that. I should have been kinder, should have spoke up sooner. And I’m so sorry that I didn’t. You used my past as a sexual abuse survivor and as a sex worker against me in asking about HIV/AIDS contraction rates. You pushed me into a conversation that purposefully triggered me. You guilted me when I didn’t feel like talking. And I broke contact with you because you made me extremely uncomfortable. I explained this to you. I never abused you, manipulated you, or anything like that. I told you I was uncomfortable with you and blocked you across the board.

10) I know I am probably missing a lot here that I need to touch on, but it’s honestly been MONTHS since everything happened and I’m tired and trying to move on. Truly, I’m sorry to people who were hurt. And I’m sorry to people who felt like I did something maliciously because I genuinely never realized that. And I’m sorry you got hurt in the process.

I’m sorry for lying about who I was. I needed an outlet. I needed somewhere to go to write and just write. I needed to have somewhere that wasn’t filled with drama and recognition. And I just wanted something quiet and down low while I worked on myself.

@falseiidol​, @asylumsilenced​, @herobetrayed​, and @gliitchbitch​ are my ONLY blogs. They will probably remain my ONLY blogs.  I have no interest in joining Marvel or other large fandoms. I have no interest in anything other than writing.

I’m not sure if I’ll come back. Life is busy, I work full time, and I’m taking care of myself and working to better myself. I love these characters and I would love to continue writing them. I’m just not sure if time will allow and I’m not sure if the community will allow.

What I do know, is if I come back, I will be focusing on writing. I will not be addressing this again. I will not be going by Bowie as I’m trying to put that reputation behind me and move forward. I would love the chance to prove that I’ve grown and I’m working on being a better person.

Ziggler has kept me in the loop about a lot going on since I dropped off the face of the Earth to work on my own shit because I NEEDED to. I wasn’t in the best state mentally, emotionally, anything, and I needed to work on myself.

By now, most people know that, yes, I am Bowie. Yes, that Bowie.

I’m not going to be touching most of the callout or the drama because it’s not healthy at all and I’ve moved past it while working with my doctor and trying to better myself and understand things that led me to where I am.

There are, however, a few things I would like to address so that we can move past them.

1) I am not transphobic. I know that there was insinuation that because I identified as a lesbian in early May while dating a transman that I was transphobic. I understand where this assumption came from and I am sorry to anyone who was hurt by this. What I need you to understand, Ziggler and I were dating for four years as a same sex couple before he came out to me as trans in January of this year. I was immediately supportive, helped him look into options for transitioning, helped him come out to my family and most of his. However, I had only recently come to terms with being gay and I needed time to understand what his coming out meant for my sexuality. I was so focused on his wellbeing that I didn’t put time into thinking of my own.

Could this have been handled better? Yes. At this point, I’ve come to terms with a change in my own identity and openly identify as Bisexual in respect for him.

2) I will maintain that I never stole from HoneyPSD. I have deleted all screencaps (yeah I know, that was part of the callout) because it is what was healthy for me to do. Honey herself said to me that she knew I didn’t steal from her. What prompted the accusation? I snapped at Honey and was absolutely rude to her and shouldn’t have been. I let my anger and stress get the best of me and I hurt someone I considered a friend. And for that, I am truly sorry.

3) Killypool/Aisling. You hurt me. Imagine waking up and realizing that the person you considered your bestfriend decided to cut you out of their life without warning or reason. Imagine that they went to your boyfriend and told him that your existence was anxiety inducing. I was hurt. I had every right to be hurt. But what I didn’t have a right to do was say some of the things I said about you. I was out of line for a lot of that and I’m sorry. I hope that your life is in a better place.

4) Megan/Mightyheroics. The most controversial thing I will say in this post. I owe you nothing. The last conversation we had is saved on my google photos account because of how much your words fucked me up. I spent so much time talking about that conversation with my doctor. You called me a monster because I wanted to change my url because of associations with it and stood up to you. You said everything you could to hurt me. When I asked you for space so that I could get into a better headspace and not fight with you, I was told that that wasn’t fair to you and that I needed to talk to you right then and there. You constantly pushed and pulled until I did anything you wanted me to do. I cared a lot about you. I let you say things about me without ever coming to you or mentioning them on the dash or anything else. And now? I’m asking that you stop. What you did to me was wrong. You and I both know it.

5) Sam/Felinoir. I was mean to you. I was a fucking bitch. Yes, I do still feel like you stole things from me. Yes, I will always believe that. But I should have been upfront with you. I should have told you and pointed them out to you. What I should NOT have done was trash talk you to my friends. For what it’s worth, and I KNOW you won’t believe me, I never sent you anons. I don’t know who did, but I know they had to have been someone that I said something to. And I’m sorry. I am sorry that you got hurt. I should have been the bigger person, blocked you, and kept my mouth shut.

6) Val/Starkinventor. You… spent well over a year stalking and harassing me. You know as well as I do that nothing said about you was antisemetic. Anything construed as such was in regards to your behavior. You had my previous employer information, you had my phone number, my full name, my personal email, and a ton of other things. And I was terrified of you. You spent months after we had our falling out stalking me, harassing me, giving people ultimatums about me. And to this day I don’t know what your obsession was with me. Honestly? I just want you to leave me alone. I have you blocked. I have always had you blocked. And you have continued to stalk me. It was pointed out to me that in a dead blog’s callout accusing someone of being me, you and your friends do have my home address. Please lose that and leave me alone.

8) Gemini/Deadlcrd. I never did anything to you. The only thing I EVER said about you was that when you claimed to leave Tumblr the first time, I saw your IP (that had been posted publicly by someone who claimed you were stalking them) show up in my stat counter. I could see that you had scrolled through my blog, searched specific tags. And mentioned that I was uncomfortable. After Val’s big “callout” and I realized that you had been following me under a different blog and had reblogged the callout, I approached you and told you that I couldn’t keep you on my dash if you believed things about me. I was angry. But after that? I never thought about you again. When you made Thor under the name Gemini? You befriended me. You followed my Jane. You KNEW who I was but I had NO idea who you were. You interacted with me, sent memes, plotted with me. And NEVER ONCE told me who you were. Once I knew who you were? I blocked you. I have continued to ignore your existence on this blog. Please let me continue to do so.

9) Seidmadr/Char. Look, I snapped at you and was a bitch when I broke off communication with you. And I’m sorry for that. I should have been kinder, should have spoke up sooner. And I’m so sorry that I didn’t. You used my past as a sexual abuse survivor and as a sex worker against me in asking about HIV/AIDS contraction rates. You pushed me into a conversation that purposefully triggered me. You guilted me when I didn’t feel like talking. And I broke contact with you because you made me extremely uncomfortable. I explained this to you. I never abused you, manipulated you, or anything like that. I told you I was uncomfortable with you and blocked you across the board.

10) I know I am probably missing a lot here that I need to touch on, but it’s honestly been MONTHS since everything happened and I’m tired and trying to move on. Truly, I’m sorry to people who were hurt. And I’m sorry to people who felt like I did something maliciously because I genuinely never realized that. And I’m sorry you got hurt in the process.

I’m sorry for lying about who I was. I needed an outlet. I needed somewhere to go to write and just write. I needed to have somewhere that wasn’t filled with drama and recognition. And I just wanted something quiet and down low while I worked on myself.

@falseiidol​, @asylumsilenced​, @herobetrayed​, and @gliitchbitch​ are my ONLY blogs. They will probably remain my ONLY blogs.  I have no interest in joining Marvel or other large fandoms. I have no interest in anything other than writing.

I’m not sure if I’ll come back. Life is busy, I work full time, and I’m taking care of myself and working to better myself. I love these characters and I would love to continue writing them. I’m just not sure if time will allow and I’m not sure if the community will allow.

What I do know, is if I come back, I will be focusing on writing. I will not be addressing this again. I will not be going by Bowie as I’m trying to put that reputation behind me and move forward. I would love the chance to prove that I’ve grown and I’m working on being a better person.

Ziggler has kept me in the loop about a lot going on since I dropped off the face of the Earth to work on my own shit because I NEEDED to. I wasn’t in the best state mentally, emotionally, anything, and I needed to work on myself.

By now, most people know that, yes, I am Bowie. Yes, that Bowie.

I’m not going to be touching most of the callout or the drama because it’s not healthy at all and I’ve moved past it while working with my doctor and trying to better myself and understand things that led me to where I am.

There are, however, a few things I would like to address so that we can move past them.

1) I am not transphobic. I know that there was insinuation that because I identified as a lesbian in early May while dating a transman that I was transphobic. I understand where this assumption came from and I am sorry to anyone who was hurt by this. What I need you to understand, Ziggler and I were dating for four years as a same sex couple before he came out to me as trans in January of this year. I was immediately supportive, helped him look into options for transitioning, helped him come out to my family and most of his. However, I had only recently come to terms with being gay and I needed time to understand what his coming out meant for my sexuality. I was so focused on his wellbeing that I didn’t put time into thinking of my own.

Could this have been handled better? Yes. At this point, I’ve come to terms with a change in my own identity and openly identify as Bisexual in respect for him.

2) I will maintain that I never stole from HoneyPSD. I have deleted all screencaps (yeah I know, that was part of the callout) because it is what was healthy for me to do. Honey herself said to me that she knew I didn’t steal from her. What prompted the accusation? I snapped at Honey and was absolutely rude to her and shouldn’t have been. I let my anger and stress get the best of me and I hurt someone I considered a friend. And for that, I am truly sorry.

3) Killypool/Aisling. You hurt me. Imagine waking up and realizing that the person you considered your bestfriend decided to cut you out of their life without warning or reason. Imagine that they went to your boyfriend and told him that your existence was anxiety inducing. I was hurt. I had every right to be hurt. But what I didn’t have a right to do was say some of the things I said about you. I was out of line for a lot of that and I’m sorry. I hope that your life is in a better place.

4) Megan/Mightyheroics. The most controversial thing I will say in this post. I owe you nothing. The last conversation we had is saved on my google photos account because of how much your words fucked me up. I spent so much time talking about that conversation with my doctor. You called me a monster because I wanted to change my url because of associations with it and stood up to you. You said everything you could to hurt me. When I asked you for space so that I could get into a better headspace and not fight with you, I was told that that wasn’t fair to you and that I needed to talk to you right then and there. You constantly pushed and pulled until I did anything you wanted me to do. I cared a lot about you. I let you say things about me without ever coming to you or mentioning them on the dash or anything else. And now? I’m asking that you stop. What you did to me was wrong. You and I both know it.

5) Sam/Felinoir. I was mean to you. I was a fucking bitch. Yes, I do still feel like you stole things from me. Yes, I will always believe that. But I should have been upfront with you. I should have told you and pointed them out to you. What I should NOT have done was trash talk you to my friends. For what it’s worth, and I KNOW you won’t believe me, I never sent you anons. I don’t know who did, but I know they had to have been someone that I said something to. And I’m sorry. I am sorry that you got hurt. I should have been the bigger person, blocked you, and kept my mouth shut.

6) Val/Starkinventor. You… spent well over a year stalking and harassing me. You know as well as I do that nothing said about you was antisemetic. Anything construed as such was in regards to your behavior. You had my previous employer information, you had my phone number, my full name, my personal email, and a ton of other things. And I was terrified of you. You spent months after we had our falling out stalking me, harassing me, giving people ultimatums about me. And to this day I don’t know what your obsession was with me. Honestly? I just want you to leave me alone. I have you blocked. I have always had you blocked. And you have continued to stalk me. It was pointed out to me that in a dead blog’s callout accusing someone of being me, you and your friends do have my home address. Please lose that and leave me alone.

8) Gemini/Deadlcrd. I never did anything to you. The only thing I EVER said about you was that when you claimed to leave Tumblr the first time, I saw your IP (that had been posted publicly by someone who claimed you were stalking them) show up in my stat counter. I could see that you had scrolled through my blog, searched specific tags. And mentioned that I was uncomfortable. After Val’s big “callout” and I realized that you had been following me under a different blog and had reblogged the callout, I approached you and told you that I couldn’t keep you on my dash if you believed things about me. I was angry. But after that? I never thought about you again. When you made Thor under the name Gemini? You befriended me. You followed my Jane. You KNEW who I was but I had NO idea who you were. You interacted with me, sent memes, plotted with me. And NEVER ONCE told me who you were. Once I knew who you were? I blocked you. I have continued to ignore your existence on this blog. Please let me continue to do so.

9) Seidmadr/Char. Look, I snapped at you and was a bitch when I broke off communication with you. And I’m sorry for that. I should have been kinder, should have spoke up sooner. And I’m so sorry that I didn’t. You used my past as a sexual abuse survivor and as a sex worker against me in asking about HIV/AIDS contraction rates. You pushed me into a conversation that purposefully triggered me. You guilted me when I didn’t feel like talking. And I broke contact with you because you made me extremely uncomfortable. I explained this to you. I never abused you, manipulated you, or anything like that. I told you I was uncomfortable with you and blocked you across the board.

10) I know I am probably missing a lot here that I need to touch on, but it’s honestly been MONTHS since everything happened and I’m tired and trying to move on. Truly, I’m sorry to people who were hurt. And I’m sorry to people who felt like I did something maliciously because I genuinely never realized that. And I’m sorry you got hurt in the process.

I’m sorry for lying about who I was. I needed an outlet. I needed somewhere to go to write and just write. I needed to have somewhere that wasn’t filled with drama and recognition. And I just wanted something quiet and down low while I worked on myself.

@falseiidol​, @asylumsilenced​, @herobetrayed​, and @gliitchbitch​ are my ONLY blogs. They will probably remain my ONLY blogs.  I have no interest in joining Marvel or other large fandoms. I have no interest in anything other than writing.

I’m not sure if I’ll come back. Life is busy, I work full time, and I’m taking care of myself and working to better myself. I love these characters and I would love to continue writing them. I’m just not sure if time will allow and I’m not sure if the community will allow.

What I do know, is if I come back, I will be focusing on writing. I will not be addressing this again. I will not be going by Bowie as I’m trying to put that reputation behind me and move forward. I would love the chance to prove that I’ve grown and I’m working on being a better person.

my friend, mox, has been crying to me for hours in discord about potentially losing her friends over these accusations. I've been seeing it on the dash prior and ive been too much of a coward to step up and defend someone I've gotten to know over these few months for my own sake and now I cant let this continue with a good conscience.

I'm gonna come clean. hi. I'm gremlin (@ragetrusted, etc.). some of you might have figured this out already.

so congrats. you got the right gremlin, but you have the wrong bowie. (aka, mox isnt bowie)

yes, people might have Bowie's ip on their blogs but that is because we have the same ip and I live with Bowie. if that's been an issue, this is why.

it also has come to my attention that I supposedly dubbed mox as my girlfriend in a discord server, urls included. I dont know where that came from because we all know that bowie is my only girlfriend. I also have never dropped anyone's urls as my girlfriend anywhere since making these blogs.

bowie hasn't been around since you chased her off of glitch (@falseiidol @asylumsilenced @herobetrayed). so congrats there, you got her. sucks though cause honesty all we wanna do is write. she's been focusing on other stuff and her own mental health since this place wont let her do that. she's truly sorry to the people who she's hurt and she really is taking the time to better herself.

I want to apologize to mox @drowningembers @luckheist @seeksghosts @sucksahoy publically as well as I did in private. because I hadn't realized how bad this was getting. I hadnt realized that me being her friend would do this to her. I genuinely understand if anyone, mox included, wants to break ties with me.

mox is a genuine person who doesnt deserve this and I truly do feel like I have a part in all of this happening, even if my part was keeping silent.