radq confession blog

Okay then we shouldn't let people be transfem??? Since woman have been oppressed for the longest time?????? and they're STILL oppressed?????? So many anti-trace people are fucking cherry pickers

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Like, yes, I know that it does actually happen IRL to real people and it's bad for them, but still I think I'm allowed to feel some grief towards this.

I hate it, because like, I know they were technically doing what they were supposed to to keep me safe, but now I'm in my twenties. I'm a big person, relatively tall, muscular. I can absolutely play things out with people, or get myself into other situations, but I'll never be able to actually be a smaller than them and I worry that if I do play it out with someone I'll constantly be aware that the power dynamic isn't real cuz I can just overpower them at any point.

I do really love loli/shota/koda porn and I love putting myself into their shoes and projecting myself onto the smaller younger participant or character, but I also get really jealous and I don't fully feel like I can talk to anyone about it without them saying "well I was assaulted, and it ruined my life"

I,m not saying that transcorpse people aren’t their transID but. Idk. As long as a being is able to move, talk, or think on their own whatsoever , my brain won’t be able to form an attraction towards them.

They've expressed that if I leave them, they will very likely look for another adult, regardless if that adult will sexualize the chronokid, want irl intercourse, or even have Ill intention against them, manipulate them, ect, because they only care about having the sexual attention of an adult to cope with their hypersexual disorder, and have admitted to being addicted to it.

I'm generally anti-contact, or more spesifically, no-act, so this weird situationship we got going on makes me very paranoid and feel morally twisted, but I know without me they will be worse off, I've left them in the past and they DID infact seek out a manipulative adult who no longer is in their life but still caused them trauma they deal with today, I don't want that pain on them again, their IRL situation is already shit enough, they've expressed that me and the ERPs (and RPs) are one of their favourite escapes and gives them something to look forward to the next day

What the fuck do I do? If I leave I'll feel guilty for abandoning my child figure as well as the probably seeking out an abuser who will actually hurt them- and frankly, they're a good kid, I like their company, I like the roleplays, I like talking about fandoms of watching new shows together or playing games together, I like and enjoy their company, and I genuinely dont want them to seek out an abuser and I know they will if I go cuz they want someone to obsess over them right away... Not only that, but earlier in our friendship the kid tried to blackmail me into staying, saying that despite not seeing me as one, theyd call me out as a predator so I won't leave, they claim it was empty promises and theyd never do it, but I still fear.....

At the same time, breaking my own morals is harsh on my brain, I don't think using your childhood on ERPs is good, I did it myself and it feels like time waisted, not only that, but I fear the legal consequences, they have me shaking in paranoia, I dont consider myself a bad person, I don't want to be locked up, I have dreams of helping the world that I want to fulfill in my lifetime...

Again, I must say- the friendship/situationship isn't abusive, they'd told me I can leave and theyd never "call me out" or do anything to hurt me, they'd be sad yes but they'd leave me be, they have BPD which makes them have episodes of being abusive but my paranoia doesn't let me take the claims they make in those episodes with salt, I take them at face value, and theyve improved a lot as a person over the years, which they claim is thanks to me, and I see it, I've given them advice and over time theyve followed it, I know I have a good effect on their life

What should I do? Personally, I want to stay, but my paranoia makes life sometimes a hell, but what's the right thing to do?

Poll options please if you could...

-Stay, it's not hurting anyone really.

-Stay, it might be hurting someone/both but the other option/risk is far worse for someone/both.

-Take frequent breaks- (this causes them major panic attacks and SH episodes but) you should minimize contact while staying in their life to discourage them seeking someone to abuse them. (Worst option IMO but idk what the masses think)

-Leave when they're chrono18, they depend on you right now as a parent to regulate and guide them, but at chrono18 should be able to manage themselves.

-Leave, this is wrong and hurting someone/both involved.

They ' re what seems to be grooming you , saying that you can leave but if you do they will most likely go for someone dangerous . I would say leave , you are not to blame for anything they do , but don't ghost them , explain why you ' re leaving / distancing yourself from them , give them tips on how to cope with this and make it clear that going for other adults is not something that they should do and if they can get professional help then they should get it . Thought this is just my two cent opinion .

Is this true?

Mostly , this community loves the dark red and black themed blogs a lot , or if your not a black and red theme you have to have a very aesthetic theme

where do you find maps like this??????

both can be like that. we have a map headmate with a blog and he got flooded with nsfw and parasocially clingly asks which made him so uncomfortable he pretty much stopped posting. the aam + map culture in the rqc is really uncomfortable a lot of the time

I think we should just stop being sexual unless a blog SPECIFIES they ' re okay with it

also where are all the girl MAPs... TnT

Reblog hard

Yes !

Unless you're someone who currently holds the power and resources needed to actually help our community/ideology, I couldn't give twoo shits about being respectful to you 😭😭✌️

I'm siiickkk and tireddd of being polite to anti-radqueers. Especially when they're nothing but close minded.

Act however you want towards antis, but I'm done with us being expected to constantly act polite, lest we're labeled "purposefully ignorant" or "aggressive for no reason"

To add onto this , there is no such thing as a " civil anti " especially anti radqueer / anti proship stuff , they ' re actively against what we are and aim to harass us for what we are . You ' re either an anti or your not

Anything necro related is never mentioned , give us necros some spotlight or something

you should tell your partners ex if the ex doesn't know and break up with your partner . Wish you the best