Quoth Rambles on the TADC
Thinking about Jax and their story kinda had me reflect on myself a bit because here's the thing....
I would've told Jax to go abstract at some point.
Now before we pull out the pitchforks let me explain; part of the reason why Jax isn't my favorite character but I do appreciate how well written they are as a character and it's simply because if I had been in the Circus, I would've been an easy target for Jax.
I am a reactive person; it's easy to get a rise out of me (I am trying to work on it) and if I had been dealing with Jax especially I would've said something in anger that I would end up regretting later.
I wouldn't wish Abstraction on anyone but I know myself, I get to a point where I try to hurt someone more when they're hurting me and they won't stop, especially in a stressful situation like being trapped in the circus. Basically, I have some anger issues. I don't like hurting people that way and truly I try hard not to because it gets me nowhere and it only makes it harder to be taken seriously.
I wonder if that's what Pomni's anger issues are? She holds back to the point where eventually she just explodes?
@gooseworx said they wanted to explore Pomni's anger issues in the show but there wasn't time to do so.
In turn when dealing with this kind of anger and when people see it, you want to absolutely run and hide because you feel like you've just revealed who you truly are and that everyone now thinks you're a horrible person. But anger is only part of you and in society, we've developed an idea that anger is something that's a negative. That will inherently make you a bad person and I wonder if that's also why Pomni seemed lonely. Being afraid of people not taking you seriously can also make you angry and then it feeds into itself that because you got angry people won't take you seriously still.
Anyway, I'm just really writing down my thoughts overall.
