Even as young as you are?

Late Night Wanking by sitandadmire (AO3)

Harry/Louis | 4.6K | Explicit

Written for @wankersday & @1dgreysweatpants

Have Love, Will Travel

by @kingsofeverything​ with fantastic art by @hereforlou

Rather than spend the summer working at their desks, Louis and Harry are given the opportunity to crisscross the country together in a tiny camper, filming their adventures for a YouTube series.

It soon becomes obvious to their viewers that there’s something more than friendship between them. Eventually, they figure it out.

• Louis/Harry • Explicit •

• 97K Words • Read on AO3 •

inspired by “Adore You” and written for the @finelineficfest

well hi!!! hi!!! IT’S HARRY’S FUCKING HOUSE

harry gave us everything that the album is about, condensed in one high speed song as an introduction. it’s his daily life, his career, the industry, his deepest emotions, drugs, thoughts he’s been stuck with, random associations, hiccups, mundane beauty, food, coffee, love. he’s become the beat poet he’s always wanted to be and i’m fucking here for it. LET THE TRUMPETS SOUND HERE WE FUCKING GO

harry’s house, track one

LYRIC ANALYSIS

MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE

THIS ALBUM IS MIINE MINE MINE MINE

Green eyes, fried rice I could cook an egg on you

hey, i have green eyes!

you’re so hot

Late night, game time Coffee on the stove

a first taste of the album: impressions, random snapshots. lots of late nights, lots of coffee, a game here and there

“game time”: play a part/game on/competitiveness/hanging out at home

You’re sweet ice cream But you could use a flake or two Blue bubblegum twisted round your tongue

you’re sweet. you’re cream // steal my girl, “kisses like cream”

“flake”: a chocolate flake? a flake of salt? (take yourself less seriously. take myself less seriously. take life less seriously)

I don’t want you to get lost I don’t want you to go broke I want you

i want you to keep your job, i want to keep you around - if we see that as h singing about his own career: he wants to keep shit going

he wants to keep it going - the same way? or: we need to switch shit up, but yeah, i obvs don’t want to fuck it up so bad that we go broke

It’s ‘cause I love you, babe In every kind of way Just a little taste You know I love you, baby

loves his career, loves music, loves performing, loves writing, recording, all of it

about lover: // kmm, “just a little taste”

“Excuse me, a green tea?” Music for a sushi restaurant From ice on rice Music for a sushi restaurant Music for a sushi restaurant Music for whatever you want

nonsense…. right?

people placing their order while his music is playing, while he’s singing

using his voice as an instrument like a jazz singer - sounds like something that perhaps could be performed by the band in the background of a jazz club……. but it’s a bit too intense for that, isn’t it? i’m too loud too outrageous to be played in the background bitch 

“music for whatever you want”: the music i write can be for whatever you want

i’m asked to write for different settings, or as many settings as possible, as broad an audience as possible. for the background of your tiktok, if you fuckin will apparently

if this album is put out in the world, it’s yours, and you can listen to it however you want

I’m not going to get lost I’m not going to go broke Staying cool

he’s very sure he’s not going to get lost

“cool”: keeping it cool/not getting fed up/fitting in (// ftdt, “i never felt less cool”)

You know I love you, babe

you know. we’ve discussed it. 

about career: reminding himself he really does love it

If the stars were edible And our hearts were never full Could we live with just a taste? Just a taste

IF: but the stars aren’t edible. our hearts are full. and we don’t have to live with just a taste. BECAUSE I LOVE YOU. IN EVERY KIND OF WAY. 

“edible” - drugs mention

“stars” - high up in the sky, high on drugs, superstars

-> could we even live with just a taste of the stars - could we live with just a little taste of fame? if our hearts were never full, could we even control ourselves to stop after just a taste of fame? —– his heart is full, tho, which is why he knows how to pace himself in the wasteland of fame

It’s 'cause I love you, babe In every kind of way Just a little taste You know I love you, baby

SYNTHESIS

First of all, the sound of his voice. To me, the verses sound like a literal voicemail and H is just telling this person about his days like “hey, sunny afternoon, I was just going to buy flowers for you, yup because I miss you. It would be such a good day to just lay down somewhere like the heath” and then it turns kinda dark and sad: “There’s never been someone who’s so perfect for me - But I got over it” and even his voice changes it gets deeper and he sounds tired and done until my favorite lyric of the whole album:

“I pay for it more than I did back then” ??? it’s literally one of his most layered lyrics of all times. It could mean nothing at all and it could mean everything at the same time. It could mean he gets a worse hangover now than years ago. It could also mean his freedom is way more compromised than years ago when he “couldn’t do anything” even when apparently today’s H is as free as he could get. It could mean being an artist and having to stay away from his partner during touring it’s way harder today than it was when they toured together. It could mean the closeting feels worse now and that for every moment of “freedom” he gets, he has to pay for it more, “make up” for it.

And then his voice goes back to normal for the chorus, it’s not a voicemail anymore and all he does is say “There’s just no getting through without you”, “I wouldn’t make it without you, I love you and I know I’m doing this because we are in this together and everything is going to be ok, just me and you.”

Next verse and we get the voicemail voice again while H literally says he is sitting alone having a couple of drinks and thinking of his SO. And again it sounds like he is telling them about his day: “hey, babe! I’m just drinking some wine sitting in the garden wby? Listen, I was wondering, how many places have we been to? Together? Well, ofc babe you’re always there.”

and then: I pay for it more than I did back then. (???) Have I already said how much I love that line??

And if it wasnt clear enough that this is not a happy love song but a bittersweet one, we get confirmation in the last line “ There’s just no getting through the grape juice blues.”

Ok and finally two things: 1. the 28 references because OF COURSE. (the 1982 in reverse + the numbers he sings through the song add up to 28)

As previously mentioned - the Fleetwood Mac: Landslide -> blackbear: CHANGES (written by Louis) -> Cam: Changes (written by Harry) -> LT: Change(s) pipeline is very interesting.

Growing up and changing is such a common theme in their writing. They both have written songs speaking about how they’re afraid they’ve changed and grown up and people they used to know and love might say they don’t know them anymore. They speak of being scared of that growth and change and outgrowing their old lives/home/people.

Enter 2022: Change(s), Matilda, Late Night Talking

Louis first debuted his new song Change(s) at the Away From Home Festival and has recently brought it back into his tour set list. Harry also just released a new album with the aforementioned songs.

Change(s) talks about how it’s okay that everything has changed. Things change. People move on, but they’re still the same inside as they’ve always been. Matilda; where do I begin with her? The entire song is so beautiful. H brings back the idea of changing and growing but this time, he’s okay with it. “you don’t have to be sorry for leaving and growing up”. Late Night Talking might be overlooked in the change conversations. But the lyrics, “I’ve never been a fan of change, but I’d follow you to any place” coming from someone who has continually talked about their dislike/struggle with changing and growing up? But they’re okay with changing and moving on with a certain person? So LOUD.

This has been your latest update in sleep deprived rambles of these boys struggles with changing and growing up, but how they’ve become okay with it, learned to manage and grow in it, especially with the other by their side.

yes!!! everything, but we have to YELL that last part bc YES!!! change and not knowing what's to come is such a huge theme on harry's house. it really has been throughout their entire discography, bc hs1 and fine line's heaviest songs f.e. deal with change, essentially. but now it's like they've zoomed in on it, yk?? kinda as if they figured out that that is what the problem was all along: them having to deal with change and how hard that can be, and how they don't necessarily like it. that it takes some time to process change. the place they come from and really love changing without them bc they're hardly ever there anymore. the people around them changing and hurting them bc they were close and trusted. the music they like changing. the people who like their music changing. and then it's just the sweetest most heartwarming fucking thing that they're then just like. yeah let's just keep driving. we'll make it down this road. together.

and just bc i can't resist, here's just a small cluster i've made of relevant hs3 lyrics:

things haven't been quite the same, there's a haze on the horizon, babe - lnt

you know it's not the same as it was - as it was (duh)

i don't wanna talk about the way that it was - as it was

i've never been a fan of change, but i'd follow you to any place - lnt

(ongoing thread - twitter thread linked below)

1.   starting off strong - This is 28 words:

HARRY’S HOUSE

Music For a Sushi Restaurant 

Late Night Talking

Grapejuice

As It Was

Daylight

Little Freak

Matilda

Cinema

Daydreaming

Keep Driving

Satellite

Boyfriends

Love Of My Life

2.  credit @/thatshadeofblue on twitter

3. @/louis_hugsh 

4. @/sunflowrry28

5.  how many times does H say “LOVE” in Harry’s House   

 go on, take a wild guess. 

MFASR- 5 

LNT- 0 

Grapejuice - 0 

AIW- 0 

Daylight- 0

Little Freak- 0 

Matilda- 5 

Cinema - 1

Daydreaming- 9 

Keep Driving- 1 

Satellite- 0 

Boyfriends- 1 

LOML - 6 

5+5+1+9+1+1+6 = 28

6. @/fiireffly

7. @/goldennhabits

8. @/twinflamebreeze

9. @/stealmycurly

10. @/Obviouslytati

11. @/iicf_home369

12. the piano at the end in LOML begins when theres 28 seconds left

@/maryssunflower 

13. singing starts at 0:28 seconds

@/eM_mirroring

14. @/1d_obsessed18 

the end of As It Was  - where we get the main melody multiple times - lasts for 28 beats  - video link

https://twitter.com/i/status/1528416913268822017

15. @/UnoffclPleasing

I’ll add to this as and when I find more - 

I've been thinking about Little Freak and its delicate point of view and it's unholy how strong and raw it is. For the purpose of this analysis, we're gonna picture this song as a two voices duet: Harry and She. First verse is Harry adressing She, 'you'. Second verse is She adressing Harry. Overall, the song reads to me as a beautiful apology letter from you to yourself, because in the end, Harry and She are the same person.

Little freak, Jezebel

Those are society's feelings towards ''she'', queerness. Freaks, evil (Jezebel is one of those reaaally evil biblical figures, and she's a woman). The hatred is so strong from all sides that Harry internalized it and saw She that way. He may have now claimed those words as terms of endearment. Little freak <3

it gets a lil bit long it's ok

Yoga is a way for people to reconnect body and spirit. We know Harry is familiar with those (yoga, pilates, meditation as a whole)

Oh nony. Not only is it gay, it is the MOST gay. (Trigger warning for any delicate puritans who don’t believe the boys have ever done drugs)

LET US BEGIN. First, quick history of poppers:

NOW on to Cinema.

If you consider Harry’s history of disguising drug songs as explicit stunt songs, the inclusion of a song called Cinema whilst “dating” a director fits perfectly; he did the same with Carolina and Towns, a very obvious song about cocaine.

The entire end of Cinema references poppers. Constantly. It makes absolutely no sense in any other context. You might say “oh virgin vaginas and popping cherries” but uh, look that’s DEF not the stunt narrative. And the whole “you pop when we get intimate”??? Do I need to spell this out for you guys? Also note:

Doses at night? Dust off the high? Please refer to screenshots 1-4. Anywho. Let me conclude by saying that “getting yourself wet for me” is also pretty explicitly gay if you know anything about how gay sex workssssssss *coughs LUBE* check out ao3 we all have some lovely expiations on that platform okay BYE

[Little Twig isn't big to you, but she is to me. But however I don't like it when she makes faces. And she seldom talks when we go to places and meet people and sit around. But she prances at dances, gets crushes, takes chances with boys, wears a hat, no shoes, and they flatter her madly. What's of that ? Neat, maroon, blue and white, lace and chord, velvet. Might even keep her coat on if it's right. Next week all change to purple or black perhaps.]

Adoring her as much as hating how she expresses herself. The importance of clothes, her extravagance, how she's at her full potential during parties, how despite being frustrated about her the speaker thinks about the next time she goes out, and how she will be then. The way she's most of the time silent, sitting there: so little and so much at the same time.

^ This is Little Freak illustrated back in the 60s are you kidding meee the lil disco ball the polka dots the sequins im crying