My appointment went great the other day. I'm starting my new medication today. I have a infection on my back from my hair always resting on it. Creating a fungal infection. I've got to put Selsun Blue on it until it goes away for three months. 10 days each month. Sucks but oh well.  Now I'm just chilling with my boys. We're watching Forrest Gump while Jackson does tummy time and Lance plays. We cleaned up the house and are working on laundry now. Tomorrow we are planning on going to Picatinny Arsenal down in New Jersey to take the boys to the water park. I need a bathing suit so hoping we can get that today.  Also waiting to see if my mom is going to drop my brother off today so he isn't sitting in the house by himself all the time. I keep begging her to bring them over here so I can spend time with them but for some reason she doesn't want me to take them. Vincent and I always have a good time and he's such a good kid. He helps me with the kids and we have lots of fun. I'm half tempted to ask if he can come with us tomorrow. My sister gets to do all this cool stuff this summer at rec but he has to stay home? That's not fair to me. He could at least come to my house and not be treated nasty all day.  Anyways! Gotta go pick up my medication in awhile. Tying to do laundry and go through Lance's clothes/toys.  Have a good day all!

It's truly amazing what one person can accomplish when they're motivated and willing to put the effort in. In just a couple days I have successfully got every doctors appointment I need scheduled. Tomorrow I go to the doctors to get back on my antidepressants and seek help for therapy due to my problems I've suffered with for a long time and during my pregnancy I was not advised to take any kind of medication for those problems. Anyways, that's taken care of. I have my appointment for OBGYN and Jackson's first set of immunizations on the 8th of August - and then another OB appointment after they do my bloodwork to get my Mirena taken care of. Now I have to make a decision on the new vehicle I want and continue to go through stuff to see if we can hold a yard sale/give stuff away. We have to store his motorcycle and some of our personal stuff as well but we are getting new furniture when we are in Colorado so I'm not worried about that stuff. Probably keeping my bed with me though. Anyways I have been feeling super productive lately. So thankful for my beautiful family and how supportive my guy has been throughout everything. Couldn't ask for anything better. Can't wait for Lance to go to preschool so he can associate with kids and Jackson to go to even part time daycare while I try to go back to work. Now just trying to deal with Lance's father is my only nightmare. Back to he's for this mama. Goodnight.

Rarely do I come on here like I used to. Being a full time mom is a lot of work. It's truly endless with a side of endless. I used to focus on Tumblr and followers. Now I wonder if I'm going to get through the day in one piece. I'm still here though. Still me.