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Contentment.
First of all, I don’t know if “contentment” is a word. So for you not to be confuse here it goes.
5 months. It’s been 5 months since I failed everyone. 5 months since I got my first job.
I am happy. I earn my own money. I pay some of our bills. I can buy what I want.
I thought everything is fine, not until yesterday.
Retaking the board exam is not part of my plan. But my parents are pushing me to enter review school again and they are willing to pay my fees in review school.
Actually, I’ve been thinking of taking it one last time but next year not this year.
But then ayun na nga, pinipilit nila ako.
What they don’t know is that “Hindi sa hindi ako handa magreview at magexam ulit. Hindi ko palang talaga kayang masaktan ulit”
Hindi nila magets kung gaano kasakit. For them, exam lang yun. But for me, Ako yung nagaral ng limang taon. Ako yung nagreview at nabaliw ng limang buwan. Di ko sila masisisi. Mahirap naman talga magpaaral
But andun na nga tayo, I did my best. I helped them, kumuha ako ng scholarship. Maliit pero atleast medyo nakakatulong.
Grumaduate ako on time. Hindi ako nagloko. Hindi ako bumagsak. Hindi ako nagbisyo. Nagaral lang talaga ako.
Ngayon ko lang naeexperience yung ganito. Tumambay, Maginom, gumala, umuwi ng walang iniisip.
Mahirap mabuhay while reaching your parent’s expectation.
Mahirap maging perfect daughter. Madali siguro mag imagine having one.
It’s hard to explain why I am refusing to do it. Feeling kasi nila tinatamad lang ako or what.
Pero sa kabila ng lahat ng yun, isa lang naisip ko.
Hindi nila matanggap na yung anak nilang achiever at pinagmamalaki ay hindi nakapasa ng board exam.
Tangina. Sakit men!
Masakit. Yun lang talaga yung kaya kong sabihin.
Ayoko na.
Eto yung mga panahon na kailangan ko ng makakausap pero wala. Mahirap magopen sa mga taong alam mo na hindi ka naman maiintindihan. After mo magkwento they’ll be like “ahh. kaya mo yan” di yun yung kailangan ko.
Syempre sa lahat naman ng blogs ko kasama si “the man who can’t be named” kung sana andito lang siya may iiyakan ako, may kkwentuhan ako, may magcocomfort sakin.
Parang gago kasi mas naiiyak pa ko pag iniisip ko na wala na.
Pero about dapat to sa plano ko in life.
Wag na nating pahabain.
BYE!
Joanna,oxox
It's been so long since I've thought about something that I want to talk about. With myself of course.
It's been like what? 2 or 3 months? since I got my job. I am paid well, yes? hahaha I really don't know cause it seems like it's not enough for my "luho" lol.
Anyway, here's the thing. Single padin ako.
Walang may pake I know but I just want to have a quick analysis of myself.
So... Maganda. (haha charot lang yun agad.) Mabait. Oo naman parang gusto ko na ngang magtayo ng charity sa sobrang bait ko ehh. Magiging mabait din ako sa magiging future <3 ko College graduate. Well I am very very proud that I am a graduate of a 5 year super duper hard na course. Kaya kong magtyaga at magpuyat at mahintay maging akin ka lang. :D CPA Non passer. Well, medyo tabingi tayo dyan kasi hindi ako pasado ng board but wait, mahaba pa ang panahon. MAlay natin. Kung para sakin, akin ka nalang. hahaha Employed. I am curently working in a Japanese manufacturing company. Who knows? Sooner or later baka maging akin ka na. Family oriented. Aba handa akong iwan lahat pero not my family. Mahal na mahal ko pamilya ko kaya mahalin mo na din ako.
Ayan nalang wala na ko maisip.
Kaya ko lang naman bnreak down yan ng bonggang bongga kasi I have a very very big question in my mind...
"Bakit kaya wala akong boyfriend?" "What's wrong with me?" O baka naman, "What's wrong with you?"
I really don't know what to do. Siguro I will wait mga 3 years more, kaya ko pa naman. But just in case, I'm ready. Charing. I am so not ready maging Tita nalang for life.
So that's it.
Medyo magulo yung arrangement ng utak ko so magulo din yung arrangement ng thoughts.
Byeeeeee....
xoxo,
Jo
Take me back and let’s start over.
Not the end but the beginning of a new season of my life
So yeah.
I failed the CPALE. Sadly. At first, di ko matanggap at all that I really cried talaga after reading messages from my family and friends. Masakit. But they said that you need to poke the wound for it to heal immediately.
I tried diverting myself on other things like finding a job whatsoever. Well I succeeded andd landed on a job that I hope I'll last.
Anyway, I started last November 7 and my superiors are not even CPA passers. So I just had a thought, it's not really the title. Well para sakin yun. Hindi naman sa sumusuko na ko pero kasi. Ewan baka di talaga para sakin. Maybe soon I'll try again but not now. Masyadong pagod pa yung utak ko at buong pagkatao ko. Totoo.
So ayun. I had this thought lang while I'm on my way home. Kasi naiisip ko lang kung magkakajowa pa ba ko. Yubg totoo? Is there something wrong with me? Mabait naman ako promise hahaha. Medyo suplada pero mabait ako. Tapos may trabaho pa ko. Ano pa gusto nyo haha kainis. But God's will padin tayo. Whooooo!

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End of the journey
Yes. Tapos na. Isang araw nalang lalabas na yung results.
The past months, you know everytime I close my eyes to pray I always tell Him "Your will be done, I will accept anything" but parang di ko kayang panindigan. I can't fail.
I grew up showing them I am an achiever. I didn't know I'll end up a failure. I don't know the results yet but hayy kinakabahan ako ng sobra. Ayoko isipin but kinakabahan ako. What will I do if I failed? I don't know if I can't take it. Tho I wouldn't end my life. But it will leave a big scar in my life for sure.
I hope after a long recovery I'll accept whatever the outcome will be. Hayy
My unbelievably hard journey to a dream I don't know if I really want
So yeah. The title says it all. Days from now I will be taking the CPALE. Yeah right. I'm doing everything to get that title. But guess what? The harder I incline my faith with God, I am also starting to doubt myself. Is this what I really what? I don't know. Can I do this? I don't know also. I want my parents to be proud of me but I don't know if I can still keep up to this "so called journey to my dream" . Life sucks. And so is mine. The very next day of my graduation I know I will be a total mess. I suck at everything. Hayy I hate myself.
Unrealistic Relationship. Absolute Simulated Relationship.
As we all know, I was in a 5 year relationship 3 yrs ago. So if you do the math dapat 8 years na kami. Sayang noh? But would you still tell me "sayang" if I told you na sa course ng relationship namin hindi kami nagkita? Hindi diba? Some will tell me na ang tanga ko while the others will say ang tanga tanga ko. Haha. Why?! Nainlove lang ako. Di ko kasalanan na kaya palang magmahal ng puso ko ng tao na hindi niya nakikita. Mahirap? Oo. Pero masarap din. Masarap mainlove swear.
After 3 years, hindi ko padin siya makalimutan. Altho di na ko umiiyak, wala ng luha pero ewan ko "mahal ko padin ATA"
Maybe I'm still settling in this situation kasi wala ehh, wala pang kapalit.
You know there are things that you will never understand unless maranasan mo. So don't judge me. Minahal ko siya kahit di ko siya nakita or nahawakan. So what?! Who are you to judge? Wala kang alam.
Yeah, so nasa stage na ko ng moving on kung saan pinagtatanggol ko nalang kung anong meron kami DATI at di na umaasa na magkakaroon pa ng KAMI in the future.
So yes, wala lang.
Start of a new beginning
Here it goes.
05/24/2018
4 days from now and I will start my review for my CPALE. Obviously, kinakabahan ako. As in real na kaba this time. Pinaka kabang kaba na time ko to unlike sa kaba na naramdaman ko dati tuwing finals.
I know kulang ako sa effort this summer. Wala akong nagawa or whatsoever na makakapagcontribute sa review ko. Puro gala kasi ayun nga. Live life to the fullest. Whatever. Haha. So syempre cramming to the max nanaman.
Anyway, I don't know how to be ready. I am so not ready to enter the world wherein I will be judge in so many ways.
Dumadating ako sa point na iniisip ko anong mangyayari if maging CPA na ko and anong mangyayari if hindi ako pumasa.
Mahirap idisappoint yung parents ko. I know kahit di nila ipakita, disappointed sila m grumaduate akong walang award. And it hurts. It hurts na kahit anong effort mo if you grew up an achiever lagi silang may expectations at yun yung mahirap sa part ko.
In this stage of my life, I swear I will do my best. I need to be good this time. Not just good but super duper magaling para maging CPA.
Dati sinasabi ko, "baka ayoko talaga maging CPA" or "baka napipilitan lang ako. Gusto ko ba talaga to". Pero ngayon, I've made my decision. GUSTO KO MAGING CPA!!!
And I will do my very very best. I will exert all my effort. I will sacrifice everything just to be a CPA. I know this will pay off in the end.
Guide me and bless me please Lord.
MAGIGING CPA AKOOOOOO!!!
Joanna Marie B Martinez
CPA by 2018
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Joanna Marie B Martinez-Bachelor of Science in Accountancy
April 14, 2018
I am officially a graduate of San Sebastian College-Recoletos Canlubang with a degree in Accountancy.
I must say that 5 years of continuous studying is so damn hard. Specially with my course it is really hard. I had those sleepless nights and stressful days with my books. I experienced having cups of coffee that almost acted as my blood because it's the only liquid that I am taking all night. But that's not the hardest part. The hardest part is that even you have those sleepless and stressful days and nights you still fail. I reached the point in my life wherein I don't have any choice but to just cry. I cried in front of my mommy which is the rarest thing I did. I cried because I'm so afraid to be a disappointment in the family.
I am disappointed with myself, although I graduated there still something missing. During my sister's grad. I holding my tears. I literally wanted to cry. Seeing how proud they are to my sister because of her awards I really feel so disappointed with myself. I should have done better.
A month from now, I'll be entering review school. Idk what to feel. Mixed emotions. I have to be a CPA. I have no choice but to be a CPA. This time I will do better. I will be better. No more distractions.
So it's #Summer2018 and as always I'm travelling with my fam. So this 2018 I've been to Batulao and Calatagan Batangas, Tagaytay, Puerto Princesa Palawan, Subic, Zambales, Olongapo and Cavite. 4 months down, 8 to go. Yay for the Dora spirit in me🤣
Happy 2018!
Welcome to my account! It's 1 in the morning and I have exams later but I'm here trying to fix my life here in tumblr. So I accidentally added another blog in my account coz I'm supposed to have my "new life" there but it's magulo so I deleted it. And now I'm here as your Atty Jo! Hahaha kidding I don't know what to say. I'll probably delete some of may pasts here huhuhu sad. I have a sad story back then hahaha But I'm happy now so that's it byeeee
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08/05/17 "Where the hell are my friends?" 🎶 Our little misadventure when LANY visited the PH. Secret adventures with my main girls. A little hassle trip to Alabang Town Center just to let Paul babe to hurt my heart so good. Ugh. Loveyou girls to the moon and stars. Cheers to more getaways.😘😘
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