Contentment.
First of all, I donāt know ifĀ ācontentmentā is aĀ word. So for you not to be confuseĀ here it goes.
5 months. Itās been 5 months since I failed everyone.Ā 5Ā months since I got my first job.
I am happy. I earn my own money. I pay some ofĀ ourĀ bills. I can buy what I want.
I thought everything is fine, not until yesterday.
Retaking the boardĀ exam isĀ not part of my plan. But myĀ parents are pushing me toĀ enter review school again andĀ they are willing toĀ pay my fees in reviewĀ school.
Actually, Iāve been thinking of taking it one last time but next year not this year.
But then ayun na nga, pinipilit nila ako.
What they donātĀ knowĀ is thatĀ āHindi sa hindiĀ ako handaĀ magreview at magexam ulit. Hindi ko palang talaga kayang masaktan ulitā
Hindi nila magetsĀ kung gaano kasakit. For them, exam lang yun. But for me, Ako yung nagaral ng limang taon. Ako yung nagreview at nabaliwĀ ng limang buwan. Di ko sila masisisi. Mahirap naman talga magpaaral
But andun na nga tayo, I did my best. I helped them, kumuha ako ng scholarship.Ā Maliit peroĀ atleastĀ medyo nakakatulong.
GrumaduateĀ ako on time. Hindi ako nagloko. Hindi ako bumagsak. Hindi ako nagbisyo. Nagaral lang talagaĀ ako.
Ngayon ko langĀ naeexperience yung ganito. Tumambay, Maginom, gumala, umuwi ng walang iniisip.
MahirapĀ mabuhayĀ whileĀ reaching your parentāsĀ expectation.
Mahirap maging perfect daughter.Ā Madali siguroĀ mag imagineĀ having one.
Itās hard to explain why I am refusing to do it. Feeling kasi nila tinatamadĀ lang ako or what.
Pero saĀ kabila ng lahat ng yun, isaĀ lang naisip ko.
HindiĀ nila matanggap na yung anak nilang achieverĀ at pinagmamalaki ay hindi nakapasa ng board exam.
Tangina. Sakit men!
Masakit.Ā Yun lang talaga yung kayaĀ kong sabihin.
AyokoĀ na.
Eto yung mga panahon na kailangan ko ng makakausapĀ pero wala. MahirapĀ magopen sa mga taong alam mo na hindi ka naman maiintindihan. AfterĀ mo magkwento theyāll be likeĀ āahh. kaya mo yanā di yun yung kailangan ko.
Syempre sa lahat naman ng blogs ko kasama siĀ Ā āthe man who canāt be namedā kung sana andito lang siya may iiyakan ako, may kkwentuhan ako, may magcocomfort sakin.
Parang gago kasi mas naiiyakĀ pa ko pag iniisip ko na wala na.
PeroĀ about dapat to saĀ plano ko in life.
Wag na nating pahabain.
BYE!


















