idc tho

i love meeting people with the same aspirations as me! college has so many wonderful & interesting people😊

i’ve been very depressed these past 2 months and i am finally starting to feel a little bit better. i started focusing on only school and seeing friends that i was not allowed to see before and i feel great. my heart is still bitter and i don’t dare speak your name but i am learning how to adjust.

i’ve just been feeling really out of it these past couple weeks. i feel like i’m not even here, like im kinda just floating and watching my life happen day by day. i feel really restless. all i want to do is sleep so i can not exist for awhile but then when i lay in bed i just get sad. i feel like i wanna run away for a few weeks but i can’t because of school and i don’t even know where i would go. i just feel really weird and used. he told me that he wants to be with me and hugged me for a long time the other day and we had sex and i thought things were gonna go back to normal and then he went out at 11pm and didn’t get home till 6am. im just really sad and disgusted with myself for thinking everything was going to be okay again. i miss my best friend. i know that for him it will be easier to move on and forget me and that just breaks my heart. and the thought of him finding someone new, regardless of how long that will take, completely destroys me. none of this has even happened yet and i almost already feel him slowly forgetting me.