whatthefuckEVER

resisted the pull to leave a comment on tiktok again (just use it for annotating, nobody wants to know every stupid thought of ur head) but yada yada had the opportunity to answer “nobody deserves to die bc they’re rich” with “well nobody deserves to die bc they’re poor but billionaires don’t have a problem w that”

there’s a small but hopeful part of me that doesn’t think i’m total failure whose done nothing meaningful in adulthood, and it only awakens when i think abt my place in history. not in the whole population but like a person who moved into the city away from closeminded small town. and i think about being some burnout adult who despite all the odds being bonged around the city til they end up in some kinda community centric industry, just learning and helping people learn. becoming educated and knowledgeable and maybe not anything significant, but idk, someone smart and happy. saying it like that rlly makes me think abt my dumb and unhappy parents, but that’s always been the goal; don’t be like them or stay the hell away from them bc whatever their plan was clearly doesn’t bring joy to ur life. idk that’s how i think about it. and there’s people my age with kids and credit card debt and i literally could be off worse. but yeah watching stephen colbert dancing at his last episode after party reminding me people leave jobs and move on to better things. and we’re in a time when all the gears are shifting, maybe they are all the time but shits happening these days. and i’m the kind of person i am so i think my stupid moral compass will back up my future decisions. aka trying rlly hard to get into the library and becoming librarian smart, studying the dewey decimal system bc i wanna be part of the city ecosystem.

godddddd fucking loooooove miraculous ladybug cannot believe my grown ass is more invested in this show than ever before. i guess having a server blocking ads thru the wifi in this ripe year of 2026 helps, bc my shitass 2008 dell computer couldn’t handle a single kissanime web ad back in the day. but ive been writing essays again on exactly how fucked ladybug’s situation is this season like ohhhhh my godddddd it’s excruciatinggggg. THAT is what gets people addicted to this show like it’s one of very few shows tolerable enough to carry so many painful ass scenes. cringey but also real twists and shit like i can’t watch ladybug lose the miraculous, the same way i can’t watch her introduce chat noir to what’s bis fucking name??? “call me Flairmidable”😖😖😖😖😖goddddd cannot believe he’s with a woman. i would totally canon kagami to be nonbinary leaning not even bc of her pixie cut in s6 but she’s badass. her femininity is just as much a weapon as her blade fr fr she’s my fuckin queen i get herrrrr. but yeah anyways marinette drowning in lies drowning in smth so much worse than anything she’s ever been burdened with. like my use of suspending disbelief is seeing her as she is: a FIFTEEN YEAR OLD MF CHILD BURDENED WITH THE FATE OF THE ENTIRE CITY, IF NOT THE WORLD. like holy SHIT DUDE she decided the REALITY of EVERYONE SHE KNOWS. london edge of time was hard to watch. fighting a beefed up megalomaniac Monarch was tough. but watching her crumble with her beliefs this season and watching the writers set her up to 1) be abandoned by everyone who’s cared abt her with the revelation of the truth 2) be fully akumatized after having the truth and her identity shared widespread 3) have the crew save her, prolly have to wipe ladybugs identity from the world, maybe alya and adrien keep the truth bc they knew before the akumatization or wtv (im saying all this bc i love feeling so very sure of how things are going to happen and then being disappointed,,; but like in a good way occasionally). still hung up on how stranger things should have ended. but the writings on the wall for most of this junk like 1) the letter is in her yo-yo and adrien is no longer blonde enough to overlook obvious shit like this 2) chat noir miraculous chat noir used once at the top of the season with rena rouge, chekhovs gun or it didn’t happen 3) adrien broke up with her on the basis that she wasn’t being honest abt smth that happened right in front of him, alya told her to piss off as well, and nobody is going to be happy when the secret is out 4) wtf is chrysalis waiting for in terms of spilling the beans? the right moment. even if she’s not 100% certain marinette is ladybug, what would happen if she pulled a Heroes day and just shows what she already knows, hell maybe even project the exact image of ladybug detransforming with nathalie like Lila is no stranger to akumatizng herself, what if she akumatizes herself to have a fat ass projector? like she got her answer when marinette went from blubbering about adrien to resisting her answers when interrogated. she said “i’ll have my answer someday” but we don’t reaallyyyy need a verbal one; being hunted down by your friends for a very convincing illusion created by the motherfucker herself has been done,, a many times. and maybe marinette will pick up on that god FORBID we exit s6 not knowing lila/Cerise or whoever the fuck is behind all of this. but seriously… marinette becomes the villain… it’s so tragic… and soooooo fucking awesome

the crying over spilled milk discussion was never had in my childhood, nor did it make sense for a good decade and a half bc no one ever sensibly explained it. and i had to discover at the ripe age of 22 that milk, in a series of circumstances, is completely worth crying over. also i cried like sooooo much as a child. literally cried all the time forever but i forgot 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ wasn’t until i was reminiscencing abt pillow pets and i had the ladybug one. and it was like,,, indented w tear stains… from crying and not wanting my parents to hear even tho we lived in a brick ass house like shit wasn’t traveling thru the walls. but that’s cute so like i realized at 22 standing in a parking lot staring at a gallon of milk that fell from the hood of my car, in complete desperation like i just left it by the trash can and id never do that to any service employee if i could. however i thought an organ was exploding and decided to drive home before i caused an accident, by passing out from my organs exploding. i cry a lot always have always will don’t be afraid to be a dehydrated sad bitch if it gets u to adulthood yknow moral of the story