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Not even the more severe social anxiety which leads to people being unable to leave their own homes or handle any interaction with people, that kind of anxiety is ignored completely- it's too scary for people to deal with I think.

God forbid you have any sort of anxiety that isn't social or social focused, anxiety around death and your own existence in the world? Health anxiety? Anxiety about your own thoughts? Completely random and intense anxiety for no clear reason? Good luck.

I think to a certain extent people are afraid to acknowledge the scarier kinds of anxiety and ways it manifests, they're a lot more comfortable dealing with the 'scared to talk to the cashier' kind of anxiety than the 'scared to walk along the road because you might die' anxiety. Especially since one of the main things they use is the idea of 'whats the worst that can happen?' or other thought processes like that, which don't exactly work when applied to over situations.

It shouldn't, I know that and I am trying to accept myself and my issues but ultimately if I'm being honest chronic illness and society has made me feel like I am half a person.

I can't do as much as other people, what I can do I can't do it as well. I'm hyper aware of my failure, especially when in comparison to my friends and people around me. I know I shouldn't compare myself to people who are completely physically fit but it fucking sucks so much to have to be like "hey I can't actually physically do that" and ruin things.

They're nice about it, they understand but at the same time I hate it. I hate that I have to do these things and that I have a limit that they can't fully understand, idk.

I know I shouldn't but I do

I dont use mobility aids that I should probably at least try because I'm worried about what people think and if I'm being honest I hate that I need to use them. I hate that it singles me out and I'm worried that people will see me as lesser or just yk. Not value me as much.

I don't use the lifts at college because I do desperately want to be like everyone else, I want to just be okay and be fixed but this isn't going away and I look at other people who aren't in pain from some basic task and I want to cry.