Love how this tumbkr is just a public diary at this point - guy asked me to be his gf last weekend hehe

Not sure if its the sunday scaries or the fact the guys i have feelings for has yet to initiate another date (i probably will initiate it this afternoon tbh) but i’m feeling incredibly lonely this morning.

My sister told me im playing it “too cool” woth the guy im dating by barely texting him and so she told me to text him a goodcmorning thing and tell him i cant wait to see him tonight then i asked what kind or alcohol would he want. And he eeplied to everything but the “i cant wait to see you tonight” so basically IM SPIRALING

had a first (legitimate) date with a boy i didnt think was interested in me and he is super sweet and cute and funny and god i hope thos actually works out lmao. We made tentative plans for saturday night 🥳

Also trying to connect with and talk to people through depressive static feels so desperate and I literally hate myself the more I interact with anyone even though I’m super lonely and just wanna be around people

Breaking my heart on an every day basis bc i get infatuated with ppl I barely know

My anxiety has had me feeling so sick to my stomach the past 2 days. Im exhausted. I just cancelled the dnd session I was supposed to run today which is how you know I feel like shit bc dnd is my favorite thing ever and I just don’t feel up for it at all.