she who smiled

i can't even hide anymore that i shipped her with flint like a trash baby. the couple of interactions they had were so sweet and fun, and even if things sort of got a sexual start i think they were actually very compatible! personality-wise they were similar, and it's corny as shit but their astrological symbols (leo & aries) were ideal matches. i think they would have been a really fun and upbeat couple and i wish that i had been more outgoing in my interactions with other rpers back then--i held back too much and feel like it caused me to miss out on something that might have been really, really good for her, at least for a little while

i never got a steven who i was able to explore any sort of relationship with, platonic or otherwise, so her romantic feelings spent a few good years just hanging in limbo from steven to steven. owen playing him could have had a better chance to give her some closure on those feelings, but nothing ever came of it; she's still tangled up in her love for him and it's very painful, even though she still never shows it

she and sidney never got to happen! sidney and phoebe are my go-to phoebe ship, and i've rped it before but i love jordan's sidney more than any other sidney and phoebe never got to kiss his stupid face and it makes me very frustrated. they never got to get their stupid feelings out in the open--another romantic feelings limbo for phoebe

she never got to fuck surge

But he's dating Karen now. She feels really alone? But she's not. She'll be okay. Probably won't date for a while, but I don't think she'll sleep around quite like she did before, either.

observe the evidence

also [rough] translations under the cut because it's fuckin hilarious

"NO"

are you sure, because that was pretty interesti--

man okay again: I really love the idea of FP!Phoebe because she finally!! has to!!!! let me dress her up in other clothes!!!!!!!! she has to be much more modest and it's really fun, I think she looks super adorable

like there's one in particular I've seen reblogging stuff from her old PT blog and from my personal and she even seems to be adapting the stuff about her feelings for Steven and she seems to be!!! really good!!! and I just :') wow

a lot probably depends on whether she gets married/falls in love and is in a lifelong partnership of some kind, and if she has kids. if that's the case, she'll probably outlive most of her friends and her partner, and die very, very old, but happy in a quiet, sort of nostalgic way. she knows that she'll find her loved ones when she goes.

she actually really likes him, even if he still has the orbs and punched her grandparents. they have a surprising amount of fun together and sass it up at the bar together and apparently have movie nights? she probably doesn't really... trust him exactly but at the same time she also doesn't care what he thinks of her as much as she does with most other people, so in a sense she's less inclined to censor herself when she's with him

[9:00:13 PM] Phoebe: "I figured as much. Really, it's... yeah. It's fine.

It's not your fault. You couldn't have known.

Would you... mind if I ask you a question, though? If that's okay..."

[9:01:31 PM] Candice: "You can ask, and I'll try to answer."

[9:02:29 PM] Phoebe: "Was that the first time? The only time, that is.

I'd just like to know."

[9:03:25 PM] Candice: "The first time was a long time ago.

I swear I had no idea. I may be a little loose, but I'm not that skanky."

[9:04:56 PM] Phoebe: "... Okay. Thanks.

And really, it's fine. Not your fault that he didn't tell you.

it all just keeps coming back to internalizing all of that anger and redirecting it back towards her, thinking of all the things she should have done

After two years, they're very soon to be officially over. It was only a matter of time, but she still isn't okay. I'm not sure how she expected it to happen, but it wasn't like that. It wasn't so easy.