i broke up with him again. we werent officially together, but we kind of were so i broke things off yesterday. i said you cant just come back to me, im breaking up with you, dont just come back with some kind of epiphany and a promise of change i dont want it. and he said "well its never stopped me before" and i realised like everything people say is literally true

he doesn't see it as love or wanting or compassion or hope when i take him back, he sees it as weak or something :( like im being easy, i think i am i dont know i just rly want love and im so confused

i think its gotten to a point where i have to stop listening to what he says. hes coming to stay over for a few months in July, because he has nowhere else to go and ive been homeless and ive had no one and i cant let someone i love suffer alone