PVRIS Requests

I was sitting on my couch in the house that I shared with my boyfriend who I had been with for four years, I was patient with him with his band touring, as I continued to scroll through his messages on his phone my heart was breaking with every word I read ‘I love you’ and ‘I miss you’ only it wasn’t to me, but to another woman. Tears threatened to spill as I heard the door open and then close, the sounds of paws tapping on the floor before our German Shep pup sat at my feet with his tennis ball in his mouth.

“Babe?” I turned to see Alex slipping off his jacket and hanging it up on the coat rack. I shook my head at him as I bit my lip and held up his phone, all color in his face slowly drained as he looked from the phone to my face. “Who’s Sophia?”

“She’s just a friend that I met on tour.” Alex walked towards me as I stood up, shaking my head as I choked on the tears. “Friends do not send each other pictures!” I threw his phone at him, only to watch it fall to the floor and the screen smash. “y/n, I love you!” Alex pleaded as I walked past him.

“Y/n, please don’t leave me! Please don’t go.” I felt his hand wrap around my arm only to pull me back and push me against the wall, tears were streaming down his cheeks. “I fucking love you, she means nothing to me.”   I pushed him away from me as tears spilled down my cheeks “If you loved me, you wouldn’t be messaging that girl.”

I shoved past him and grabbed my already packed bag from the bedroom that was mine and Alex’s. As I went out to the car I could hear Alex following me. “Y/N, please, I’m so fucking sorry!” He grabbed my arm which made me turn around and shove him. “DON’T TOUCH ME!” Alex instantly let go as tears flooded his gorgeous eyes.

“Goodbye, Alex.” I got in my car and teared out of the driveway as fast as I could. When I glanced in my review mirror I saw Alex kneeling on the floor with his face buried into his lap.

Goodbye

It’s been seven months, I had moved my shit out of Alex’s and into my friend, Sam’s house. Luckily Sam never sees Alex anymore which gave me the upside as I didn’t have to deal with hearing or seeing him at the San Románsion, I hardly ever left the house, Alexa had to remind me to eat while my mind was driving me crazy. Why was I not good enough for him? what did I do wrong in our relationship? I was huddled in a ball on Alexa’s bed, watching a couple of movies. I hadn’t texted anyone back and I had ignored all the calls and textes Alex would send, he gave up on the third month after I left.

“Y/N, can you come down please?” I heard Sam call, as I peeled off the blanket, I went downstairs to find Sam holding her camera up as she motioned for me to follow. The two of us walked through the halls until we got to Sam’s photoshoot room, “where everything comes to life.” Sam would say. As she turned the handle, I heard familiar voices that I couldn’t quite put a face to.

“Y/N!!” I was instantly engulfed into a hug by a female who smelt oddly familiar. As we pulled apart my eyes widened, Lynn. As I glanced around I saw Brian and Justin, but no Alex which put my mind at ease until I heard the door close. As I froze, Lynn turned me around to be face to face with Alex, all the emotions hitting me at once as I felt his hands against my cheeks. He pressed soft kisses to my forehead as tears fell down my cheeks, my eyes closing just to open and look at him.

“I’m a fucking idiot, I know that I am. I’ve been a mess without you, y/n. I can’t sleep without you by my side, we both know you’re the cure to my sleeping problems. I’m a fuck up, and I never sent photos to Sophia, she sent them to me, I said I love you to because she’s like tour family until she did that. Please, y/n. I’m a wreck without you. I need you in my life.”

Y/N - Your name | Y/E/N - Your Enemy’s name

Prom night! Finally finished with school, don’t get me wrong, school was good, but it wasn’t my thing. One of the Jocks asked me to prom, I couldn’t exactly say no after everything that he did for me. I didn’t exactly want to go to prom with Brian MacDonald, he’s a really nice guy, but I wanted Lowell high's “bad boy” Alex Babinski.

Little did anyone know that Alex and I go way back, his mom is my mom’s best friend and we’ve been best friend’s since the age of five, however we never spent time with each other in school which I didn’t have a problem with since I was with my other best friend Lyndsey.

I sat at one of the tables that had mine and Brian’s name on, which I think it was nice, knowing I didn’t have to fight anyone for a table. I had been waiting half an hour for Brian to turn up, I sat stirring my straw in my orange juice that I knew one of the guys had spiked at the beginning of the night.

Two hours had passed and I knew that Brian wasn’t coming, I let out a quiet sigh as I got up to get some air. as I stepped outside I could hear the familiar chuckle and that annoying laugh of Y/E/N. “Y/N, hey what’s up?” Alex’s smile was practically from ear to ear.

“Not much, just about to go home..” to watch lovely bones and cry. “I hope you both have a nice night!” Better than mine, I hope. I gave a faint smile and turned, only stopping when I felt a hand wrap around my left wrist. “I can drive you home, it’s no trouble.” I shook my head, politely declining as I pulled my wrist back.

“Aren’t you supposed to be with Brian?” Y/E/N mocked, I could feel my jaw clench and un-clench as I began to walk away. I needed the air and I needed the tention to go away. As I walked along the road it began to rain, just my luck I think to myself, I stopped when a car horn was beeped a could of times at me. As I looked into the window of the car I noticed the familiar face of Alex before he got out. “What are you doing? You just ditched your date!” Alex shrugged before I got into his car.

Once we got to my house, Alex stripped down to his boxers as I handed him a towel, myself getting out of the dress that was soaked through and you most probably could see my underwear through it. As I was drying my hair I felt my towel slowly fall off my body as Alex brushed my hair to the side and began to kiss my neck. A soft giggle that turned into a gentle moan pressed from my throat as Alex’s hands travelled up the inside of my thighs.

It wasn’t long until we were both in my room completely naked on my bed, my arms wrapped loosely around his neck as he slowly pushed into me. I chewed on my lip as a moan slipped past my lips in discomfort, it was definitely not our first time together. I closed my eyes and chewed on my lip as he slowly moved his hips.

“Y/N, look at me.” I opened my eyes and glanced up as him as he cupped my cheeks murmuring the words of ‘you’re so beautiful’ I tightened my legs around his hips as he began to thrust faster. My breathing picking up as our lips moulded together as one.

“Alex.” I whimpered against his lips as I could feel the familiar feeling in the pit of my stomach. The last time I had sex was with Alex and that was a year ago. Smallish whines slipped past my lips as I dug my fingers into his skin, my toes curling as I released over him.

“Fuck, Y/N.” Alex buried his face into my neck as he released, groaning against my reddened skin as I bit my lip gently.

As Alex laid down, I curled into him and wrapped my right leg around his waist as I pressed a kiss to his shoulder as he did the same to my head. I could feel his fingers slowly trailing up my back as he whispered “I love you, Y/N and I always have.”

We spent most of the night in bed talking about who loved who more.

Oh man, I give up hahahaha....

I was nervously pacing my room, an hour ago I had finished school and decided that I was going to tell my parents that I liked girls. It was hard through the years of growing up since my parents (mostly my mom) would throw boys my way, having the excuses of ‘He’s not my type’ on each one. Secretly I think my dad was slowly catching onto me since all he ever saw was girls in my life.

I decided to call my best friend Lyndsey, she had finished high school about two years ago and now tours with her three friends, Alex, Brian and Justin in a band called PVRIS. Lynn and I, we had something although we weren’t dating yet we would hold hands and act like a couple which I didn’t mind.

“Hey, y/n! We were just talking about you, what’s up?” The sounds of Lynn’s voice instantly calmed me. “I’m going to tell my mom and dad, tonight.” I let out a breath that I didn’t know I was holding.

“Are you sure you’re ready for that? I know how your parents can be-” I cut her off. “I’m definetly ready.” I answered as I chewed on my lip. “Good luck!” I heard Lynn and the boys yell before I hung up.

I slowly made my way downstairs as I saw my mom sitting at the table, writing down the bills while my father sat reading the daily news paper. “Mom? Dad? I need to tell you something..”

“You’re pregnant? I knew it! That’s why you’ve been craving weird foods.” I looked at my mom in disbelief. “What? NO!” What even put that into her mind?

“Oh sure, y/n. How could you?!” I was getting angrier by the minute. “I’m GAY, MOM!” Mom looked at me in shock while dad had lowered his newspaper. “If you tried to let me explain without interrupting, I would’ve told you, but no that’s all you ever do! You always talk, you never listen!”

I grabbed my jacket and ran out the house, hearing my dad yelling my name as I ran as fast as I could to Lynn’s house. Tears streamed down my cheeks as I rapidly knocked on her door, after she answered, I fell into her arms as she pulled me closer to get me inside. “She was accusing me of being pregnant!”

I heard one of the boys laugh, “OUCH! LYNN WHAT THE HELL?!” I looked up to see Alex laying on his side, holding his head with one of Lynn’s boots beside him. “It’s not nice to laugh.” I let out a laugh which made Lynn smile and Brian chuckle. “OH BUT ITS OKAY FOR YOU GUYS TO LAUGH?!”

“I’m a girl.” I stated, making Brian laugh more, which put a smile onto my face. “See we all love and support you.” Lynn smiled and kissed my forehead, making Alex coo at us. The next thing was a blur, I watched as Lynn picked up her other boot and hearing Alex scream like a girl made me cry of laughter, watching as he climbed over the back of the couch while Lynn hurled the shoe towards his way.

“What do you say, we have a movie and pizza night, y/n?” I smiled and nodded as Lynn pulled me into a tight hug. “I’ll always be here for you, babygirl.” She whispered into my ear before she kissed the side of my head.

After that night, mom and dad accepted that I was into girls and that night, Lynn had asked me to be her girlfriend which I happily accepted.

Six weeks, the small plastic stick read as I sat on the bathroom floor, I sucked in a breath as I placed the second pregnancy test in the last two weeks on the cold tiled floor. How was I supposed to tell Alex that I was six weeks into a pregnancy that none of us ever thought about, sure we wanted a kid together in the future, but not right now. Alex was always touring and I was always working, giving me no time to look after a baby that I was soon to have.

 “Babe? Y/N, are you home?” I chewed on my lip as I quickly wrapped the test in tissue paper and placed it in the tampon box that was sat on the back of the toilet. I flushed the toilet before washing my hands, in the process of splashing water onto my face.

As I stepped out of the bathroom I came face to face with Alex and Brian standing with big grins on their faces. Both of the boys were in their swimming shorts, I mentally groaned I couldn’t believe that I forgot today was the pool party. 

“Y/N are you okay? You don’t look too good.” Brian had a concerned look on his face as I nodded my head, showing that there was nothing wrong.

When the boys left to let me get changed in my room, I heard a slight bang as if someone had knocked something off the shelf in the bathroom. I threw on a long top over my bikini and walked out of my room that I shared with Alex.

I could feel all the color in my face drain as I saw Alex standing in the middle of the bathroom with that stick in his hand. “Y/N, what is this?” I chewed on my lip, we both knew what it was, he just needed to hear those words.

“When were you going to tell me?” I shrugged as I kept chewing on my lip. “How long have you known?” I swallowed a little too hard for my liking.

“About two and a half weeks, Alex.” I looked away as he stared at me wide eyed. “And you didn’t tell me?!”

I could feel myself tearing up as he went on and on about how stupid I was for not telling him about the test. I felt him push past me, mumbling the words of ‘I can’t believe you’ as if I wanted to get pregnant now.

I followed down a few minutes after seeing everyone already in the water except from Lynn who was sitting at the side on her towel, scrolling through her phone like usual. I decided to join her, as I sat down she smiled over at me, I noticed her smile vanished in a second as she quickly sat up and ran her thumbs under my eyes, I hadn’t noticed I was crying until now.

“Hey, hey. Sshh.” Lyndsey wrapped her arms around my shoulders and pulled me into a hug, I buried my face into her shoulder while I wrapped my arms around her waist. “Alex what the fuck did you do?!” Lynn yelled over as I quickly shook my head.

“Why don’t you ask the one who got pregnant!” I gaped over at him, watching as guilt washed over his features and I was left to get up and walk up to my bedroom in tears.

I began packing my bags when I heard the door close behind me, it takes anyone to know that it was Alex. “Y/N, what are you doing?” I continued to pack as I answered him. “What does it look like?”

I felt Alex’s hand on mine as he turned me around, at the moment I didn’t want to feel his touch at all. He was making me sick, it was his fault that I got pregnant yet it was my fault too.

“You can’t leave me.. Not after everything we’ve been through..” I saw the tears begin in his eyes as I began crying myself. “You don’t want a baby, Alex.. I’m not going through abortion.” I shook my head as he wrapped his arms around me.

“I didn’t mean what I said, I wasn’t thinking.. I just, I’m scared of the responsibilites and the changes when this baby is around..” I cupped his cheeks as I looked up at him. “I’m scared just as much as what you are.” I sniffled as Alex kissed my forehead. “I’m so sorry baby, I love you so much.” Alex sighed quietly as he squeezed his arms around me, my head gently resting against his chest.

After a while of standing Alex moved us to the bed, our legs tangled in the sheets, his arms wrapped around me while his fingers gently ran over my stomach, making soft laughs leave past my lips. “I love you so much, so so much.” I smiled at his words as I pressed my lips against his again. “I love you too.”