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Daily routines and activities are exhausting

Keeping up with our daily life is draining. Even though it’s the same routine every day.

So, if we gotta deal with something out of the ordinary or with something additional, we get drained very fast.

Meaning we are probably not even attending or leaving early. Saying we are tired and that work has been very exhausting that day. Please don’t take it personally.

But the truth is: we are tired and exhausted every single day.

We are easily irritated

Feeling annoyed and irritated is pretty common when dealing with depression.

And all these annoying little things pile up. Meaning we get easily angered and frustrated.

It sounds silly, but we get triggered by the tiniest things up to a serious mental breakdown.

Our sleeping pattern is very irregular

Sometimes we don’t sleep at all. And other times we can’t get enough, even having to take naps during the day.

Sometimes we stop caring about our appearance

We forget eating, forget to take a shower, forget to do the laundry or forget to clean up our home.

And sometimes we eat unbelievable amounts of food, shower 7 times a day and do all our chores up until everything is done. Then we get bored

Holy isolation

Hanging out with friends is very exhausting. Yes, once in a while, we do and it’s working out fine.

Other times a single conversation drains all the energy out of us.

Additionally, because we get frustrated and annoyed so easily, we just wanna isolate ourself, because we just gonna get annoyed anyway. So what’s the point?

Obviously that also means that we are avoiding people who wanna help us.

Losing interest

Did you have hobbies? Activities you loved doing? Do you still do them?

No. Because you lost interest in them. Because they no longer fill you with joy.

You feel nothing.

Pessimistic mindset

The glass is always half empty.

We start to think: “Why bother?”

Because we are not getting anything from what we do.

We can’t concentrate

When you are talking to us, we often don’t really hear what you are saying. The moments of silence in between, we are in our own little world and when you start talking again, we miss the first part of the sentence. Sometimes we ask you to repeat it and sometimes we don’t.

Plus, we are really forgetful. We forget about meeting up with you, to call you back or special dates, like birthdays.

Dealing with us

can be very difficult.

1. I have a hard time opening my self up to people, and in the past, it’s ruined relationships for me.

2. I’m not a morning person at all, it’s best if you keep your distance until I’m completely awake.

3. I am honest but I know at times I can be too honest and it’s never my intention to hurt your feelings, I just don’t think before I say things.

4. There are days when it’s just too much to get out of bed, and on days like those just know it’s not you, it’s never because of you.

5. I have so much love to give but I don’t know how.

6. I can get angry very quick and it can last for the whole day. And even if you weren’t the cause for my anger, stay away. You can’t reason with me when I’m like that.

7. I never want you to think I need you. I don’t, I can do all of this alone and be perfectly fine.

8. I’m not your property I am my own person and if you ever think you can cage me up, you’ve never been more wrong in your life.

9. Im a free Spirit and Love doing things that excite my soul. So be ready to go out of your comfort zone.

10. I sing in the car and you should too.

11. I’m a movie fanatic, I like anything that can make me feel something.

12. I can be the warmest person you’ve ever met, or I can be the coldest. It all depends on the type of person you are.

13. I feel things deeper than most and that’s why my emotions are always under lock and key.

14. If I ever lose the fire in my eyes, don’t leave, just take me to bed and turn off all the lights, I’m just in my head, and that’s a place you never want to see.

15. I have a dark soul that sometimes makes me view the glass at half empty instead of half full.

16. I’ll never give you a reason to cheat on me. And if you do, you should just pack your shit and go. No explanation just leave.

17. I have many sides to me, each one being more complex than the last. But just know, no ones stayed long enough to see them all.

18. If you do leave because I’m something you can’t handle. I won’t be mad or hurt. Like i said before, I don’t need you.

19. If you ever see me cry, don’t say anything just pick me up and hold me.

20. I am not something you can fix and mold into something else. If you come into my life thinking that, you’re going to leave worse off than me.

21. I don’t like beating around the bush. It takes too much time.

22. I get hot very easily and when I am hot I’m a ticking time bomb that you don’t want to see blow.

23. Don’t put your hand on my throat if you don’t want what comes after.

24. When I’m on my period I can be very unpredictable and I’m sorry for whatever happens.

25. I know I come off as very independent and if that intimidates you then you should walk away now.

26. I’m looking for someone who will challenge me, someone who has the same goals as me and will do whatever to reach them. Someone who I can take on the world with.

27. I lose interest very easily and if you can’t keep me on my toes then we won’t last long at all.

28. I never ask for help but I won’t say no if you give it. It’s my pride and it’s a bitch.

29. Your happiness is key to me. And mine should be the same to you.

30. There is never a reason to lie to me, I’m very understanding. I take trust very seriously and if you lie to me all my trust for you is gone.

I know I am complicated and have a lot of layers to me, but believe me when I say, whoever gets past my walls and gets me, they’re the luckiest person because I have a lot to give.